LOGIN“Fuck. You’re here again?!”
That was how he greeted me the moment I stepped into his house again. “My gas stove ran out. I can’t cook,” I lied. I made my way to the dining area. The table was already set, and it felt like I’d interrupted his meal. “Great. You’re having breakfast as well. Perfect timing, right?” “Are you going to eat here?” he asked. “I can’t cook breakfast at my place. Why? Is that not allowed?” “Totally isn’t,” he replied immediately. Wow. What an honest man. “You really are heartless. I can’t go to work starving.” “As if I care. Just order food online and stop bothering my supposedly peaceful breakfast.” “The delivery will take too long. I might be late for work.” “Then stop by some restaurants before you go to work.” I rolled my eyes and groaned. “As if the service will be that fast.” “You really won’t run out of excuses, will you?” “And you really won’t stop being so grumpy, will you?” I shot back. “God, good thing I have a lot of patience for you.” He had no choice but to sit down as well when I took the seat across from him. There were three dishes on the table, none of which looked familiar to me. How would I know? I stick to eggs or frozen meals for breakfast since they’re the easiest and quickest to cook. I wasn’t surprised that the food was delicious. He’s a chef, after all. He owns three restaurants with almost twenty branches in total. “Your cooking is chef’s kiss. It makes me want to visit one of your restaurants and try everything on the menu. I bet everything tastes good.” “You’ve never been to any of my restaurants?” he asked. “I mean, you claim that you like me, yet you haven’t even eaten at one of my places. I honestly wonder if you really like me…” he said meaningfully, as if catching me out. “Oh,” I whispered. I shook my head and chewed the food in my mouth before speaking. “I’m always on a diet, you know.” “A diet for what?” “For my figure, obviously.” “You’re already thin.” “Correction, it’s sexy. Duh,” I said smugly. He murmured something, but I didn’t catch it. I didn’t pay any more attention because I was too busy eating. “Thanks again. I’m so full,” I said when we finished. I rubbed my stomach to show how satisfied I was. “As if I had a choice.” He cleared the plates and took them to the sink. I followed him. I chuckled. “Too bad you didn’t.” I went back to my house to shower and get dressed for work. I even saw the burnt eggs and bacon on the table that I had cooked earlier. I really wasn’t a great cook. I put on light makeup, grabbed my bag and car keys, and headed out. I saw Xerces outside his house, already on his way to work. He was wearing semi-formal clothes. “Drive safe!” I yelled. I winked at him before hopping into my car. I started the engine. Just as I was about to pull out, my phone rang. I reached into my bag and answered. “What’s up?” I asked. “I have some news,” Elizabeth said on the line. “Is it good or bad?” I leaned back in the seat. I saw Xerces’s car revving up. “Unfortunately, it’s bad.” I rolled my eyes and sighed. “Really? This early, Elizabeth?” “But I know you’ll want to know. And, uh, you’ll hate it at the same time.” “Fine. Spill it.” “Are you still mutual friends with your asshole ex on your social media accounts?” Her words grabbed my attention. “What about him?” “Check his I*******m story. Now.” I did what she had told me. I opened the app and looked up his account. We were still following each other, but I muted him. I didn’t want them thinking I was too bothered by what they did. I’d never let them get that satisfaction from me, especially my sister. I checked his story and saw a photo from the opening night of his new bar downtown. I remembered how he used to tell me it was his dream to open his own place. He couldn’t do it back then because his parents wouldn’t approve—they wanted him to focus on the family business after Xerces backed out of his responsibilities and chose his own path. I didn’t know he’d already achieved his long-time dream. He must be very happy now. I tapped the screen to see the next slide, and it immediately ruined my day. It was a close-friends story: a photo of him and Ariella, my sister, hugging. My grip tightened on the phone. Fuck. Jealousy hit me all at once. “You tell me, babe. Are you really over him now?” Elizabeth said. “Damn you.” “Chill. I didn’t mean to ruin your day. But I also know you’re still not over your ex. So what now? Are you just going to let them be happy together while you—what? Keep drowning in your own misery?” “That would never happen,” I said through gritted teeth. I’m going to get even. I know he still loves me. If he ever finds out there’s something going on between me and his brother, he’ll definitely lose it. I’ll make him come back to me, crawling if he has to. He’ll beg me someday to take him back. I’ll make sure of it.“Is this good enough?” I mumbled while staring at myself in the mirror.I’ve been struggling to decide which one to choose for our date. Dating was nothing new to me, but this was the first time I had ever been this restless about it. Even though I knew I would look good in anything, I still wanted to look my best.“Ruelle?” Xerces called from the living room.Hearing his voice only made me panic even more.“Coming!” I shouted.I quickly finalized my look and hurried downstairs so I wouldn’t keep him waiting. My steps gradually slowed as I approached him, suddenly feeling self-conscious under his gaze.“You look good,” I complimented him.“Thanks. You look ethereal,” he said, then shyly looked away.I chuckled at how awkward he looked. Damn. I couldn’t believe he was acting like this. Just look at how quickly things had changed. The same man who used to look at me like I was the most annoying person alive was now standing in my living room, looking like he didn’t know where to put his
“I removed the secret room I reserved for you. I really didn’t mean to make you uncomfortable. I just wanted to have a chance to love you… even in secrecy,” he said sincerely.We moved to the balcony of my room, looking up at the sky with a glass of wine in our hands. The world had finally settled into silence after moments of loudness.“It’s fine. I was just really surprised. I almost thought you were aromantic.” I laughed it off, trying to ease the sudden heaviness between us.“You’re not mad anymore?”“I wasn’t mad. I was just shocked. And a little creeped out, to be honest,” I clarified. “How did you manage it?” I asked, genuinely wanting to know what went through his mind during all those years he carried his feelings alone.“Hmm?” I saw him glance at me through my peripheral vision. “Guess I had no choice.”“You did. You just let your cowardice get the better of you.” I turned to him, raising a brow. “I mean, don’t get me w
“Stop staring and talk,” I said after a couple of minutes had already passed since we settled into our seats, yet he still hadn’t said a word. He just kept staring at me. “How are you?” “What do you mean?” I watched him rub his palms together restlessly, his thighs slightly trembling. For the first time, I saw him visibly nervous, repeatedly letting out quiet sighs as though he were struggling to find the right words. “I gave you time to process everything. Were those days enough?” he asked, his voice almost pleading. “Can we talk about us now?” When he lifted his head to meet my gaze, I wanted to look away. Damn those tender, pleading eyes of his. How dare he look at me like that? After discovering his darkest, deepest secret, I started noticing how he was slowly tearing down the walls he’d built around himself, revealing the real man behind the aloof Xerces I had always known. And every time he showed me this side of himself, he never failed to catch me off guard. I didn’t k
“Happy New Year!”I rested my hands against the balcony railing as I stared at the dark sky being illuminated by fireworks.Another year had passed, and that only meant one thing: new year, new beginning.It was supposed to be like that, but how could I when a mind-blowing secret had just been dropped on me not even a week ago?My eyes, which were busy admiring the view above, slowly drifted toward the house across from mine. Among all the lively and noisy houses in our neighborhood, only that one looked different. All the lights were turned off, and every window was closed.He must be at his parents’ house.Our last conversation never continued after that. Two days. It had already been two days, and I still hadn’t gotten the courage to face him. For the first time in forever, I was actually this scared to confront someone.“Earth to Ruelle Altagracia.”My attention snapped back to my phone when I heard my friends’ voices. Oh, yeah. I completely forgot that my friends and I were on a
“When did all of this start?”“High school.”“High school?” I frowned in disbelief. “We didn’t even meet until I was already in college. It was when I moved here and found out you were my neighbor. What you’re saying doesn’t make sense. I didn’t even know you existed back then.”“It does.” His gaze remained fixed on me. “I’ve had my eye on you for a long time now. My younger brother went to the same school as you, and every time we’d drive there to pick him up, I’d always catch a glimpse of you from a distance. Standing in front of your school gate. Do you remember all the gifts you used to receive from anonymous senders?”I stared at him as memories from years ago slowly resurfaced. After a moment, I gave a small nod. Of course I remembered them. I’m a very sentimental person, and even after all these years, I still have every single one of those gifts.“They were all from me. I could never bring myself to approach you and hand them to you personally, so I asked someone else to do it
Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. I’d already lost count of how many times I’d cursed under my breath. My hands trembled as I ran them over my face, forcing myself to take a deep breath. What the fuck did I just see? Was that even real? My cheeks were already red from repeatedly slapping myself, hoping I’d wake up and realize none of it had actually happened. I was already sitting on the couch, yet it still felt like my body could give out at any second. I would’ve rather seen a ghost. Or a burglar. Hell, even a murderer. I would’ve expected any of those. But no. What I saw was far worse. It made me sick to my stomach, and the thought of it alone was enough to keep me awake the entire night. “What are you doing here?” Unlike the way I usually welcomed Xerces into my house, there wasn’t a trace of warmth in my voice this time. He lifted the food container in his hand. “I cooked too much. Thought we could eat together again.” My fists clenched at my sides as I looked him straight in the eye. H







