Chapter 2: I Want You

WITHOUT telling anyone I left, maybe I’ll explain when we see each other again. But now I want to be alone and think of what just happened between me and Ken. Mali… Mali ang may nangyari sa aming dalawa.

Nang makarating ako sa condo ko ay walang tigil na tumunog ang cellphone ko. I answered my phone that keeps ringing, it's Mia.

“Hello?” I said as I answered the phone.

“LENIE MACKENZIE MARQUESS, WHERE THE F*CK ARE YOU?" sigaw ni Rhina. I can even picture her reaction. I laughed.

"Sorry, something came up. I'll make it up to you, I swear." Sabi ko sabay taas ng kanang kamay ko na para bang nakikita nila ako.

"Mackie, if you have a problem you can always tell us." Malumanay na sambit ni Mia.

"I'm fine, girls. Wag kayong mag alala, I know it's wrong na umalis ng walang paalam, pero I really need to go." Naalala ko na naman ang nangyari sa amin kagabi. Sht

"Are you sure? Is this not because she's going to go here today?"

"No, I'm fine having them around. I'll tell you guys everything once you get back." I smiled, kahit na hindi nila ako nakikita. I'm so thankful to have them as my friends. Only they can make me feel loved.

"Okay, ingat ka. Uuwi na rin kami mamaya, we can't enjoy here when you're there." Sabi ni Mia na sinang ayunan ng iba.

"No, stay. I know that you've been looking forward to this for so long. So stay there and enjoy." “Dapat hindi kayo uuwing single. Hanapan niyo rin ako.” I laughed trying to divert the topic. They laughed.

"But are you sure?" Malumanay na tanong ni Stormy ang pinaka mahinhin sa grupo.

"Yes, Storm. I want you guys to enjoy it there, so stop worrying about me. I'm fine."

"Well if you insist, but we're going home before Monday, you have to tell us everything." Rhina said. I smiled, I'm really lucky to have them with me.

As we bid our goodbyes, bumuntong hininga ako. Thinking kung anong excuse ang sasabihin ko sa kanila. I closed my eyes, I feel like I'm so tired medyo mahaba ang biyahe.

As he gently put me in his bed, he stared at my naked body. hindi ko alam kung paano niya naalis ang mga saplot ko sa katawan.

"Why are you looking at me like that?" I blushed.

"I'm just admiring how beautiful you are." I never thought I could hear him saying that to me.

He started to remove his shirt and shorts, leaving only his boxers. I can't believe this is happening, I stared at him and admired his beauty again. Hindi ko mapigilan ang sarili ko na damahin ang kanyang katawan gamit ang aking mga paa. I looked at him, and again, his eyes were full of pleasure and desire.

"Stop turning me on." He said as he kissed my toes and bent over to kiss me again while his hand traveled through my body.

"Ken..." I moaned as he touched me down there. His kisses travel from my neck down to the sensitive part of my body between my legs.

"Don't..." nang nararamdaman ko ang hininga niya sa maselang parte ng katawan ko.

"Oh…" kakaibang pakiramdam ang naramdaman ko ng paglaruan niya ito gamit ang dila at kamay niya.

"Ken." I looked at him na nakangising dumungaw ako habang nasa gitna siya ng mga binti ko.

"You’re so wet" he said at mas lalong binilisan ang pag labas pasok ng kanyang kamay sa akin.

I moaned once again as I released it. He kissed me and felt his thing poke me. Due to my curiosity, I reached it and felt how big it was.

"Will this fit?" I unconsciously said and looked at him while holding his dick.

"Wanna try?" I blushed as he kissed me again and his hand touched my breast.

He slightly slapped his thing between my legs, making me moan loud.

"You're mine, Mackie" He said and enter me fully. Nangingilid ang luha ko sa sakit, parang gusto kong umiyak.

"Fck! You're a virgin. I'm sorry I didn't know." Malumanay niyang sabi at hinalikan ako, he caressed my face and wiped my tears.

"It's ok." I smiled and looked at his amber brown eyes na punong puno ng pag-aalala. This is the first time I saw it this close. I touched his face and admired his beauty.

"Why are you so handsome?" I asked, making him chuckle, making him move a little. It gives a different sensation to me since he's still inside me.

I kissed his eyes, nose and then lips as I slowly moved my hips.

"Fck. Mackie…" he moaned and stopped me from moving. "Stay still, let me. I’ll make it slowly this time." He said and kissed my forehead.

He gently moved na para bang isa akong babasaging baso. Why do I feel like he cares for me a lot? Or maybe it’s just because of lust and alcohol?

Humahangos akong magising, dahil sa panaginip ko. Why do I keep dreaming about what happened? Dapat ibaon ko na sa limot lahat. Mali na may nangyari sa aming dalawa. May iba na siyang gusto at hindi ako yun.

For the whole weekend I was busy cleaning my condo and going to the gym, para hindi ko na rin maalala ang nangyari on that Friday night. It's Sunday today and I'm currently preparing for our girl's night out, dahil kailangan daw namin ng heart-to-heart talk and we're having an early celebration for Rhina's birthday since we're going to be busy next week.

Around 10 o'clock when I arrived sa isa sa mga bar here in BGC, I'm wearing a simple backless royal blue dress paired with white stiletto and a purse.

Usok, amoy ng alak at mga taong naghahalikan ang sumalubong sa akin pagpasok ko ng bar. Nothing new, mas wild pa nga ata ngayon kahit na medyo maaga pa.

Malayo pa lang ay nakita ko na si Rhina, she's wearing a red glitter dress that makes everyone look at her. I smiled and looked at my girls that slayed tonight.

"Hi, girls. Happy Birthday, Loves!" I said at b****o kay Rhina at sa iba.

"You bitch, you're late again." Nagtatampong sabi ni Rhina at hinampas ang braso ko.

"My gift will be sent to your doorstep, tomorrow," I said and chuckled. “The usual” Sabi ko sa bartender, dahil madalas kami rito.

"Okay, forgiven!" She said and we laughed. We are currently sitting at a table here in the VIP section kahit na nirentahan ni Rhina ang buong bar.

Nilibot ko ang mata ko at biglang nawala ang ngiti ko nang makita ko kung sino ang papunta sa pwesto namin ngayon. Kenji Axel Ferrell, I taught they will going home next week. I ordered a drink again, at mabilis iting inubos.

"That’s what I like girl. Lets get drunk tonight" Rhina said at pumunta sa kararating lang na bisista.

“So, Mackie, why did you leave without saying anything to us?” Mataray na usisa ni Mia. Dahil sa ingay ng bar, I can barely hear them. Before answering her question, I looked at him who was currently checking me from head to toe.

"Dad called, something came up." I lied. Hindi na nagtanong si Mia dahil na rin siguro sa presensya ng mga taong nasa likod ko ngayon.

I continue to drink non-stop. I don't even know why he keeps staring at me, maybe because he's worried that I will tell them about what happened to us.

"Let's dance!" sabi ko kay Mia at hinila siya at si Stormy papunta sa dancefloor kung saan nagsasayaw si Rhina.

I was about to get the bottle of alcohol when someone stopped me.

“You’re drunk” Kahit na nahihilo ako dahil sa alak at ilaw ng bar ay alam kon si Kenji and nagsalita, he’s near me.

“Why do you care?” tinalikuran ko siya at kinuha ang alak.

We were dancing our hearts out and finishing the bottle of alcohol I brought, when suddenly someone held my waist and danced with me. I continue dancing and making him feel me more. Dala na rin siguro alak at sa gusto ko kong makalimutan ang nangyari sa aming dalawa ay nagpapadala ako sa bugso ng damdamin ko.

"You're handsome." I said as I faced him. Oh, a foreigner. I smiled at him and encircled my arms on his nape.

"Wanna go somewhere?" He asked as his hand traveled on my bare back. I giggled. I was about to kiss and agree with him when someone grabbed me violently.

"What the fuck, Mackenzie!?" Baritonong sigaw ni Kenji havang hawak hawak ang braso ko.

"Hey bro, she's with me." Sabi nung foreigner na kasayaw ako. Medyo nahahalata na ng iba ang nangyayari kaya bago pa man kami makahakot ng atensyon ay hinila ko ma palabas ng bar si Kenji.

"WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?" sigaw ko ng makarating kami sa parking lot.

"I'm a woman who has needs," I said out of frustration. "I can't understand you, Kenji! Can’t you see I am avoiding you, and pretending that nothing happened between us? But here you are dragging me acting like a jealous boyfriend!" I shouted at him again.

Buti na lang at wala gaanong tao dito, kung hindi ay mabubunyag ang nangyari sa aming dalawa. Fuck.

His amber brown eyes stared at me blankly. "Do you think I don't know that?" Mariing sambit niya. Dahan-dahan niya akong nilapitan, habang atras naman ako ng atras.

"Do you think i don't fucking know that?" Malumanay niyang aambit ng tuluyan na niya akong corner.

"I don't fucking understand what I feel, Mackie." He said while staring at me with an expression I can't read.

"I'm confused, Ken."

"So do I, I don't know why I keep dreaming and remembering what happened that night, Mackenzie"

"Fuck, I know this is wrong but, I want you." He said and kissed me deeply. Hinalikan ko siya pabalik natikman ko ang alak sa kanyang bibig, para akong nahihilo sa kanyang halik. Siguro dahil sa dami ng alak na nainom ko o dahil sa nararamdaman ng puso ko.

I didn't know how we arrived in his condo but here we are kissing endlessly and feeling each other's bodies.

Alam kong mali pero, masama ba na umasa ako at piliin ang kaligayahan ko?