1. Memories

“Mate!” a male voice I didn’t know shouted.

I looked down and saw myself holding a long thin silver knife. Why was I holding this knife? And why was he covered in blood?

“What are you doing?!” the man growled at me.

Did I hurt him?!

He threw me off him and got out of the bed. What! The man was naked. Some part of me liked seeing him naked. He had this body that looked really strong and had a lot of muscles. Like a lot, lot.

I stayed on the cold floor. Making myself as small as possible. I didn’t understand anything.

“Where is my mama?” I asked the man, who was putting some pants on.

“Your mama?! What the hell is going on with you.”

He took the knife from my hand and took a good look at it.

“This. This is the same knife that killed my sister. The same type of knife that killed your mother. It was you?! You killed them all?!” The man roared.

I don’t understand. My mother isn’t dead, I just saw her yesterday? Was it yesterday? She made pancakes for me and tied my hair in bows.

“Stop looking at me like that. There is something really fucking wrong with you," the man said. "You killed them all? I am your fucking mate, why would you want to hurt me?!"

“I’m sorry.” I said, not sure what was happening.

The man grabbed me by my throat and held me up in the air. I couldn’t breathe.

“You’re sorry?!” he growled.

The man was scary, but I wasn’t frightened. Why wasn’t I scared of him, even when he held me like that?

Suddenly more people came into the room and I was carried out by two of them. I think they were soldiers, they looked like it.

I was tied up in chains in a dungeon. My hands were stuck in two large silver shackles that were chained high to the wall. I couldn’t move my arms and they were being pulled up by the chains. My shoulders were so sore and the silver burned me. It was so cold. Why would they do this to me? I was just a girl. Was this because I injured the man? I don’t understand!

A large man came to the dungeon and I immediately wanted to hide. This man was evil, I could just feel it.

“What did you do?! I always knew you were a failure. What did you tell him?!”

I didn’t answer. Too scared to speak.

The evil man grabbed my hair and pulled my head towards him.

“Speak! What did you tell them?”

With a tiny voice I spoke, “I don’t understand. I just want my mom. I didn’t say anything. I just said sorry.”

The evil man growled, “you better pray he kills you or I will.”

The nice looking man was going to kill me?! No, I trusted him. He wouldn’t hurt me. I just wanted my mom.

The evil man hit me against my ribs hard. Again and again until I felt something crack. Why was he hurting me? He kind of looked like someone I used to know. He almost looked like daddy. But dad wasn’t evil.

Dad wouldn’t hurt me.

I spend days in the dungeon. I was so hungry and the chains hurt me. I was so scared someone else would come down here and hurt me again. It was so cold in here and I wasn’t wearing much clothing. Only a short dress.

I had looked down at my body and I didn’t understand it. Why did I look like a woman? I had breasts and long legs. I just had my sixth birthday! Right?

After three days someone came down. I recognized the scent, it was the nice looking man. He smelled like the woods and something else. I wish he would come closer so I could smell him better.

I started sniffing the air, hoping he would come closer. His scent was already my favorite thing and it was so much better than all the other smells in the dungeon. It was fresh bread. Wood and fresh bread and something else. This smoky smell that made my mouth water.

Was I delirious because I hadn’t eaten? I was so hungry. Maybe that’s why he smelled so nice.

“Stop sniffing the air like a psycho.” The good looking man said.

“I’m sorry.” I said softly. “When can I go? I don’t understand why I am here.”

The man sighed, “I was sent down here to kill you. And I don’t understand why the fuck I am unable to do it. You deserve to die for what you did.”

I started to cry. I didn’t want to die. I just wanted to go to my mom.

“Stop crying. Stop these fake fucking crocodile tears. I am not going to kill you." the man said. He took a deep breath and continued. "I, Raider Kaito Remington reject you, Mona Azelea Solace as my mate.”

Why did that hurt so much?! It felt like someone punched me in the chest. I could hardly breath. But that name, I recognized the name.

“Kai? It’s you?”

Kai slapped me across the face. “Don’t you ever say that name again!”

Why would he hurt me? This was Kai. He looked so much older, but I knew him! We used to play together.

I was his sisters best friend. O no, he said I killed his sister, Kimiko. I didn't kill Kimmy! I loved her.

He growled and pulled the chains that held me off the wall. He held on to the chains, the silver burning his hands. He pulled on them so hard, that he ripped the chains off the wall. I could hear the sound of skin burning and smelled it too. I didn’t want him to hurt himself.

I fell down on the floor, my legs were too weak to walk.

Kai dragged me across the floor, using the chains. The floor scratched my skin open and I tried to walk, but he was going too fast. He dragged me up the stairs and each stone step hurt my body.

“Please. Please, let me walk. This hurts.” I said, crying out in pain.

Kai stopped and looked at me as if I was something dirty and bad.

“Shut your mouth, before they hear you.”

Who were they? I tried to be quiet, but my body was in so much pain. Finally Kai had enough and he lifted me up in his arm. I tried not to touch him, because it felt weird touching him. Everywhere his skin touched mine, there was this weird goosebump feeling. It felt like electricity almost. It was a nice feeling, but it felt so strange to me. Where these the sparks that mom always talked about when you meet your mate?

Kai walked to his car with me in his hand and he threw me in the backseat. He put a blanket on top.

“Stay under there and be quiet.”

He started to drive and I stayed under the dark blanket. I have no idea how long we drove. I think I fell asleep. I woke up when the blanket was pulled away from me.

“Go. And never come back here.” Kai said and he threw the blanket on the ground.

He got inside his car and drove off.