Thank you for reading. let's see what Moon remembers once the ritual is complete. and what Kai finds out in his pack. he might hate mona, but enough not to look for the evil man?
Kai’s pov “So will you finally tell me about Mona?” Clara asked me a week after I returned from the Wolvin pack. I hadn’t paid much attention to Clara. To anyone really. I focused on my training and I hunted at night, to avoid Clara. I knew she still wanted to know about Mona, but I needed time. I was still angry at myself for actually believing Mona for a second. Actually thinking she was trying to protect me and then she came up with this elaborate lie. Why would someone use a young girl to kill Kimiko and Mona’s mom? Why use Mona to seduce men and then blackmail them? There must be better people out there to use than Mona. And what the fuck was their plan anyway, because it didn’t make any sense. Probably because the whole fucking thing was a lie. “Yet, you’re thinking about it.” Ronin growled. “And you didn’t kill her. Again.” “Don’t remind me of my weakness.” I growled back. “Raider? Are you ignoring me now?” Clara asked disappointed. I still hadn't answered her question, I
Moon’s pov After the attack and everyone from the other packs left, we started packing up. I contacted Alpha Malcom and he let Racheal and some others visit, so they could check out the land, while I was still healing. I trusted Racheal to pick the right area and she came back really excited. Alpha Malcom had been very helpful and the area was beautiful. He had even offered us to help us build some houses in the near future. We decided to send our kids, families and elderly first. Alpha Malcom would send men over to help us move and I assigned most of the soldiers to accompany them. It was a long journey and I didn't want anything to happen to them. I would stay behind with a few others, so we could finish up clearing out the rest of the stuff and wait for the rogues that wanted to join us. We wouldn’t let them in our pack unless they would follow our rules, but they could form their own community in a small area of our land. Now all that was left to do was the fucking ritual. Tha
Moon’s pov I didn’t have time to think about what I saw during the ritual. What I remembered. If I would, I would break. I could already feel some cracks in my foundation. I needed to focus on something else, because I’d be no fucking use to my pack if I broke down now. I didn't need to mindlink the people at our new location. I knew if we were attacked it would have to be here. Our pack was vulnerable. We didn’t have enough people there and there was no magical border while the witches were working on me. It had to be our old packground that was attacked. When I got the confirmation that it was indeed our pack, I wondered who’s link I felt break. There wasn’t just one, there were several people dead. What the hell had happened?! “Don’t blame yourself.” Angela tried to say, but she knew it was already too late. This was my fault. I was their Alpha and I put my own needs first. Racheal and I shifted and the witches followed behind us. I had asked Tabitha if she would ride on my ba
Kai’s povWe were getting everyone ready to travel to the rogue territory. Beta Norman was coming too, plus a fuck load of workers to help us dig.I still didn’t trust Beta Norman, but mom was right. He would have been really fucked up in the head, if he would use his own daughter like that. But he knew more than he was telling me. And he had responded to the name Helena. I didn’t know what was going on. Everything Mona had told me could be a lie and there was no way for me to ask Mona any more questions, because she was gone.Ronin hadn’t said a word to me in over a week. He refused to come out and was clearly mourning. I hoped that if a problem arose I would still be able to shift. I wasn’t mourning, but confused. I had mourned Mona five years ago or more like I mourned the life we could have had. Okay, now Ronin would have probably told me I was full of shit, because I didn’t mourn her. I was pissed off and the rest I buried deep down.I missed Ronin’s remarks, even if they were i
Moon’s pov Tabitha and I left the packground before Mary woke up. I held myself together until we reached the caves. I broke down crying and I didn’t stop until I was too tired and weak. I fell asleep, my face felt swollen from all the tears. The next day I woke up, hoping everything was a bad dream. Hoping that the man I thought was my dad, hadn’t used me to do unimaginable things. That he hadn't used me as an assassin, a whore, a liar, a spy? I hoped I’d feel better when I got confirmation that it wasn’t my fault. That I’d feel like maybe I was a good person after all. It wasn’t my choice to do all these bad things. But all I felt was dirty and weak. If I had been stronger? Maybe then I could have stopped myself from killing my mom, killing Kimiko. “You are the strongest person I know,” Angela tried to reassure me, but there was no point. I once again had cost the lives of others. This time I hadn’t killed them myself, but I had been responsible. Lukas, Elisha and the others had
Kai’s pov I think I’m going fucking crazy. I kept smelling Mona’s scent. It was hidden behind a disgusting smell, but it was there, very faintly. It must be something from her here in this fucking tent. Maybe Beta Norman kept something from Mona here to fuck with me. I could barely sleep here, knowing this was where she died. At least she spent her last night fucking some guy. I had wanted her dead, yet I couldn’t do it. But now that she was actually gone, I realized that was a bunch of bullshit. It was never about me not being able to kill her. It was that I didn’t want her to fucking die at all. Even if she was a liar, a monster. I didn’t want her to die. I had grew up with her. I thought I knew her. And then, when everything went to shit, I thought she was a monster. But now? Now I didn’t know what to think. Something was off. In the morning I woke up and decided to greet the soldiers from Alpha Malcom. I just needed a fucking excuse to get out of here. I smelled that scent ag
Moon's pov I watched Beta Norman day and night, barely getting any sleep. I didn’t understand why he wasn’t visiting the caves. He only ever went to the dig site, which wasn’t anywhere near the caves. After five days I was tired, hungry and sick of hiding and climbing up into trees smelling worse than shit. Couldn’t Tabitha have made a better smelling potion?! The more I was by myself the more I remembered and the worse I felt. There were some good memories too, a lot of them. But it made me feel like crap everything even more. I could have had a good life with Kai, if all this hadn’t happened. I was focused on my revenge, but it went too fucking slow. I needed Beta Norman by himself, so I could attack him and stop whatever else he was planning. I tried to keep my eye on Beta Norman, but it was Kai that drew my attention. He walked out of the campsite and went into the opposite direction of the dig site. He kept walking and I followed him. It was obvious he was trying to reach me.
Kai’s pov I hated sleeping here. I hated having to pretend all day and follow that fucker around. And I hated the way Mona made me feel. She made me mad, she made me doubt myself and for fuck sake, she made me crave her. Why the hell did she have to be naked so damn much?! It was impossible being around her. All I wanted was to take her, to fuck her senselessly and I got the feeling she was feeling the same way. Especially when she blushed and looked at me. It reminded me of how she used to look after we kissed. I wanted to take care of her when I saw how tired she looked. Fuck, why did she mess with my head so much?! I rejected her for fuck’s sake. How would I be able to believe anything, if I was influenced by whatever else I was feeling? How could I know if she was telling the truth, when my feelings were all over the place. I wanted to hurt her for what she did to my sister and fuck her for looking so amazing. I ate something and during breakfast, Beta Norman came to see me.