Chapter 43: you'll never be alone

I found myself huddled up on my bed after a long, cold shower. I stared sullenly at the wisteria and aster-printed duvet, absentmindedly. I wasn't weeping anymore, I was simply sad and depressed. My heart was heavy and there was a thick lump in my throat. I hadn't seen or heard from Drix for over three hours and it increased my sadness and at the same time, I was glad. I didn't think I could handle seeing him for now. I just wanted to be alone until I could convince myself that I'm okay.

Zinnia left me a long time ago having failed to convince me. I was emotionally, physically and mentally drained. It was already a few minutes past six in the evening. I ruined my date so I ended up back home early, another reason for me to feel like shit. I sighed and placed my cheek on my knee, stretching my hand out and then bending it so I could play with my hair while my other hand traced the design on the flat sheet. I couldn't sleep and I hadn't eaten lunch. I couldn't eat during the date and I