Chapter 5

CHRISTINE

My already shattered heart broke more when I heard Harlan threaten me with rejection. 

So he was ready to sever our bond just because of Rebecca? 

I've been too blind all these while to realize how much he truly loved Rebecca. It was so stupid of me to have had the slightest hope that I was going to replace her in his heart. 

All she ever did was to stress and emotionally blackmail him while I sacrificed everything and stood by him in all odds yet he still chose her over me. 

My heart shook so bad and my lips quivered, rejection was the least thing I expected. 

It was obviously bound to happen but it never crossed my mind.

Yes, I was heartbroken, I got abandoned on a day that was supposed to be the most special day of my life but I never thought of severing our bond.

I was only going to be mad at him for a while, stop being a pushover or a tool used to climb to the top and forgive him but hearing this shocking statement from him  made me had a brutal wake up call. 

I had no single chance of winning him over and no matter how hard I tried, the bitch was surely going to always come first. 

It's high time I give up on those dreams and move out from his life entirely. 

I wasted all those years risking everything for him. A wave of regret slowly rolled through me, slow and heavy, as I faced what I’d ignored for so long. 

I had the fastest flashbacks of my life, I should have walked away a long time ago. 

“So you're going to reject me if I don't donate my blood?” I slowly asked as my eyes grew teary but I wasn't going to allow a single drop. 

“Yes, so do the needful, it's going to be the last time I promise.” His voice softened, jokes on him if he thinks he was going to fool me again.

I could see the desperation and relaxation in his eyes. I guess he thought I had no other choice since I wouldn't want to bear the shame of being rejected. 

“Then go ahead, I don't care, I've had enough! She can go die for all I care but I'm never giving out my blood again!” I exploded, the words tearing out of me and shocking everyone into silence. 

I've never used such tone on Harlan or ever turned down his request in such a manner. 

I was even surprised at my outburst. 

I’d spent too long trying to please him, bending myself into whatever he wanted, breaking pieces of myself just to fit into his world. But I was done. Everything I gave was taken for granted, as if my efforts meant nothing at all. I was tired of being the one who endured, tired of being stepped on, and I refused to let myself be used any longer.

“Can you hear her? She said it again, she wants me dead so bad!!!” Rebecca cried out dramatically holding him tighter. 

I only got more angered by her pretense, I don't know why Harlan can't see through her lies and deceit! 

How can he allow himself to get fooled for years? When is he going to actually wake up and see she doesn't love him but just loves that he keeps running to her anytime she wants to. 

It's a huge shame. 

“Your’e better than her and the time he realizes your value, it will be too late.” My wolf consoled me, 

“Do not ever wish her dead again Christine!!!” Harlan warned and then tended to his crying sweetheart. 

I smirked, unfazed by the volume of his voice. 

I used to curse myself, blame myself for making him angry, and apologize the moment he raised his voice. I would have carried all the fault on my shoulders.That was who I used to be, now, my eyes are open now, and I refuse to fall into that trap again.

“Then save yourself because I wouldn't give us even a single drop of my blood. I don't care about your threats, I'm ready for anything! Good luck saving her and as for you Rebecca,” 

I turned to her and she snuggled closer to Harlan. If she could go through his skin, I'm sure she would be in his skin already. 

"Good luck surviving, be strong for him so you can take care of him.” I sarcastically and then stormed out of their sight. 

I could hear Harlan commanding me not to move an inch but I never looked back till I came out of the hospital. 

Immediately I stepped out, the tears that had been holding back flowed out freely. 

I was clinging to the last fragile strand of control while I was there. 

I didn't allow the thought of giving him another chance to cross my mind while I was in there, if not, I would have gotten fooled again. 

I was a bit scared when he threatened me with rejection and I thought about succumbing to his request but I just had to put an end to all of this and just bear the consequences. 

Abandoning me during the mating ceremony was the last straw.

I didn't overreact, I did the right thing 

I took a sharp exhale and wiped my tears. I headed back to the pack office to pack up my remaining stuff afterwards. 

The pack members wouldn't stop gossiping and whispering as I walked past them. 

I wasn't surprised, with everything that happened today, I'm sure my name would remain on their lips for weeks. 

As I got close to the pack office, I began having a strange feeling making me slow my pace 

I didn’t understand what was happening at first. One moment everything felt normal, the next a strange heaviness settled over me. My chest tightened and a chilling fear ran through me.

The world tilted, my vision blurred, and the emptiness inside me became so unbearable.

My knees weakened and my head spun . 

Voices slowly faded and I could do nothing but sink to the floor, the darkness swallowing me whole.