Ch. 6 Doubts

Renzo POV:

It was the next day early morning. I went to the kitchen for a coffee. Everyone else was still asleep, or so I thought. Saoirse was standing there by the window with a cup of coffee deep in contemplation. I slided my arms around her waist and inhaled her scent. I startled her for a moment, but then she smiled and sank into my embrace. If she had a wolf, she would've felt me coming. I'm still convinced she will get hers eventually. There is an aura about her, I could feel it

"What are you thinking, little one?"

She turned around, still in my arms, and exhaled.

"I'm, I'm nervous, Renzo. I have no purpose in a pack. The she-wolves at school made sure to remind me how useless a wolfless person is in a werewolf community."

I was going to kill those ignorant brats.

"You're not useless. Please don't say that. You're my happiness and my sanity. You're all I need to keep me going. Without you, I would not have the head or the motivation to run that pack. Do you think that's nothing?"

"Renzo, but other than keeping you happy, what else am I good for? I can not be one of the warriors or a tracker, I don't even have the abilities of an Omega. Renzo, do you think I am a witch like Grandma? She told me her abilities started presenting on her after she turned 18, but sometimes I feel some sparks coming from my hands or strange occurrences whenever my emotions are a little heightened. If I'm one, the pack will have more reason to reject me as Luna. They will think I bewitched you."

She said that last part with a sob, and she buried her head on my chest. What she said made me thoughtful, but no matter what, I was keeping her.

"Why don't we worry about one thing at a time, sugar? I just want you to keep this in mind. There's nothing in this world that will make me give you up."

I kissed her tenderly then, and she sighed, melting in my arms. What started as a tender kiss turned into a more passionate one. Our tongues were fighting for control. While she played with my hair with both hands, I grabbed her by the hips, and she lifted her legs around my waist. My dick sprung into action and pressed against her core. She stilled a bit. We stopped kissing, and I looked into her gorgeous eyes. They were hooded, and I saw a spark on them. I pressed her more against my throbbing dick and her cheeks turned even redder.

"This is what you provoke in me, Little one. It will be difficult but I'll wait. I'll wait until you're 18 to claim you."

With that, I put her down and walked uncomfortably to the bathroom.

That evening, we flew back to the States. Ronan decided to come with us much to Grandma's excitement. He didn't want us to warn Aela or Colin. Saoirse agreed. She loved her father, but she knew what he did was wrong. I thought so as well, but I get it. I would go to any length to get Saoirse, too. Right now, she was sleeping on the plane with her head resting on my shoulder, and I felt really content. Back at Alpha training, I spent the night with a few women. Nothing serious, just to burn stamina, just to experience, and every time, I would feel guilty afterward. My friend Alpha Blaze had to always drag me to the nearest bar. We were top of our class and we became friends right away. He was curious to know what girl had captured my heart, and I showed him the most recent photo of Saoirse I possessed. I had taken it myself. Her smile illuminated her whole face, and her hair was open half of it, falling over one of her shoulders and the rest to her back. She was wearing a white crop top that left most of her creamy skin on show, jean shorts, and black Dr. Martens. Blake's eyes flashed when he saw her, and he looked out of words for a moment. He almost mumbled his words and told me no wonder I was behaving myself. It was kind of strange. I kissed my Luna's head and fell asleep, too.

Saoirse embraced her parents as soon as she got out of the car. My parents came to greet us too. My mom had always liked Saoirse because since she came to the pack, I always brought her around the house, and mom raised her just like another daughter. Dad looked worried, though, and later that evening, he called me to his office.

"Renzo, son. I know how much you love that girl, and for all of our sakes, I pray to the Goddess she is your mate because if not, this could become a clusterfuck."

"I've told you already that wolf or mate bond is irrelevant to me. She is mine."

"Yes, but that was before the uprising of the rogues. All the packs are scrambling for alliances and strong matches to protect their pack. The elder's council has also declared the mate bond acknowledgment as a secret. Rejecting one's mate will be considered illegal. Right now, they're conducting inspections between packs, and whoever is leaving with someone else's mate is placed in temporary jail while they transfer the rightful mates to other packs."

"That is insane. What about if they have children? What of them?"

"They are left with their mothers and social workers from the council, take the kids to see their fathers on vacations and holidays."

"How long has this been going on? Why I didn't know anything about this?

"It started about a year ago. The rogues have a very strong leader. The rogue Alpha they called him. They say it is a monster that destroys everything on his path. The elders say it is an angel of death sent by the Moon Goddess because we have been taking lightly the mate bond and our costumes. And before I forget, Shane told me all about Aela's mate. As soon as he gets here, Colin will be put in temporary jail, and Aela will be shipped back to Ireland with her rightful mate."

Shit! This is not good. Not good at all.