~ JOCELYN ~
‘Easy there, little wolf. You're safe now…’ That voice. It sweeps softly through the haziness in my mind like a breeze brushing across my skin—warm, calm, and gentle in a way that comforts me. My body feels heavy as I blink slowly, trying to open my eyes. At first, all I can see is just a fog of whiteness. Just then, my mind starts booting up too. I remember the forest. I remember running away from Caspian and everything that shattered my heart on the day that was supposed to be the best day of my life. I remember being so weak and tired that I fainted after I crossed the boundary— Wait. Where… am I? My heart beats faster, and finally, my eyes adjust clearly. The first thing I see is a roof above me—wooden beams curved gently high over my head. The wood is warm brown in color, polished, but still looks a bit old. Also, there is a giant open window near the wall close to the roof. Soft golden sunlight spills into the room through the window. The air in here smells like lavender and bread toast. It's almost comforting. Also, I’m in a bed. A real bed. The sheets are thick and warm. A soft blanket covers me, and I can feel my feet wrapped with fluffy socks. Someone cleaned me up. Someone cared enough to tend to me in my weakness without killing me. I don't know if I should be happy about it. Groaning a little, I sit up halfway on the bed, and instantly, I freeze when I discover that I am not alone. There is a man sitting in a chair beside the bed. What the hell? He looks up as I move to adjust my back and sit up fully. When our eyes meet, he offers me a small, kind smile. “Finally,” he says gently. “You're awake.” His voice doesn't sound like that voice I remember inside my head. As I stare at him, panic creeps into me. “Who are you?” My voice cracks from dryness. He stands slowly, his hands opening as if to show me that he means no harm. He is tall—probably 6’1—with messy blond hair that falls in soft waves over his forehead. His skin is tan, and his face is cut like someone carved him out of precious gemrocks—sharp jaw, high cheekbones, and soft-looking lips that pull into a Cupid’s bow when he smiles again. However, it’s his eyes that draw most of my attention. Warm brown, the color of honey melting in tea. They don’t feel dangerous. They feel… calm. Caring. Compassionate. “My name is Elian,” he says. “Elian Vane. I’m the Beta of the Moonclaw Rogue Pack.” My breath catches. “Moonclaw Rogue Pack?” “Yes.” he nods. “And I understand your shock. You were brought into the pack a couple—” “Please don't tell me that I'm in the Moonclaw Rogue Pack.” “Uhm… but it's the truth.” Lost for words, I just stare at him wide-eyed. I can't believe this. The Moonclaw Rogue Pack? According to the stories I’ve heard, they’re supposed to be wild, lawless, scattered. A place where no rules exist. But this room looks nothing like the horror stories. What I am seeing is beautiful. Organized. And smells amazing. Still, I pull the blanket tighter around me. My body tenses. “What do you want with me?” He holds up both hands in surrender. “Nothing, I swear. We found you near the boundary. You were unconscious and barely breathing.” I remember the details. I know I collapsed. But to be brought here…. “You’ve been out for two days,” Elian adds softly. “We don’t know your name. Or where you came from.” For a long moment, I keep quiet, contemplating whether I should tell him my name or not. The cautious part of me tells me not to reveal my name, but the other part that wants to reciprocate Elian's kind gesture of telling me his name just pushes me to talk. Moreover, what exactly do I stand to gain by hiding my name? “Jocelyn. My name is Jocelyn.” I finally tell him. Elian tilts his head. “Nice to meet you, Jocelyn.” I stare at him. “You’re… not going to lock me up? Or force me to slave for your pack?” He laughs. Not cruelly. More like I’ve just told a weird joke. “Is that what they say about rogues?” he asks. I don’t answer. But the stories from Nightfall have always painted rogues as dangerous. Violent. Broken wolves who turned their backs on the Goddess and the packs. But Elian doesn’t look broken. Or dangerous. I know appearances can be deceiving, but my sharp instincts don't recognize him as a threat. Also, this place doesn't strike me as someplace evil. “You’re safe here,” he says again. “We don’t hurt people who haven’t hurt us, especially those who are running away from something and need our help.” I look away, shame creeping up my throat. “You don’t have to tell me what happened,” he adds quickly. “But you don’t have to be afraid either.” I look back at him. His kindness is confusing. I don’t know how to trust it. “I was rejected.” The words burn my tongue. Elian tries his best not to look surprised, but I can see the cracks of sympathy and pity breaking across his face. “I was supposed to become Luna.” I scoff a sad chuckle. “But it turns out I'm not the Luna material for him. He rejected me in front of everyone, and the entire pack watched.” Elian's face changes then. Not just with the sympathy and pity—but also with understanding. Like he has seen that kind of pain before. He nods once, slowly. “I’m sorry you went through all that. Being rejected by the one meant for you is no little pain, and that’s not something you can easily come back from.” “I wasn't enough for him.” My voice breaks. I don’t realize tears are building until one slips down my cheek. Quickly, I wipe it away, instantly hating myself for crying in front of a stranger and bugging him with my problems. “Listen,” Elian kneels down beside the bed, so we’re eye-level with each other. “Maybe you were too much for him to handle.” I laugh bitterly. “That sounds like something you tell everyone to make them feel better.” He shakes his head. “Only when it’s matters. And it matters now because you need to hear it and let it sink into you.” A long silence stretches between us. He makes talking to him feel so easy without judgement, and for the first time since I ran, I feel like I can breathe. Not fully yet, but enough to keep me going with handling the pain. I study Elian for a moment. “Are you really a rogue?” “Yeah.” He shrugs. “Born and raised.” “You don’t seem like one.” He grins, playfully running a hand through his amazing hair. “That’s what everyone says. Guess I'm too handsome for my identity.” A laugh escapes my lips before I can stop it. I am on the brink of asking him more questions when a couple knocks on the door suddenly pulls my attention there. Elian glances over his shoulder. “Come in.” The door opens, and another man walks in. This one immediately changes the atmosphere in the room. His presence is heavy in the air, not in a scary way, but strong. Powerful. Confident. He is taller than Elian, probably 6’3, and broad in the shoulders like he has carried wars on his back. His skin is a deep bronze, and his short black hair is perfectly trimmed. His full lips don’t smile as he walks in, but his eyes—dark brown and sharp—scan the room carefully. This must be their Alpha. The Rogue Alpha of the Moonclaw Pack. He walks to Elian’s side and looks at me—not with suspicion or disgust, but with curiosity. With calmness. With that same quiet power I have only ever seen before on Caspian. However, unlike Caspian, this man doesn’t make me feel small. “You’re finally awake.” His voice is deep, smooth like a cello. I nod slowly, unsure how to act. “I’m Alpha Declan,” he says. “Alpha Leader of the Moonclaw Pack. You’re safe here, Miss….” “Jocelyn.” Elian answers for me and stands up to his feet. He places a hand on Declan’s shoulder. “She just woke up a few minutes ago. No signs of fever. She’s stable.” Declan steps closer to the bed. “Can I ask how you’re feeling?" “I’m…” I pause. “I’m tired. And I'm also a little scared.” “That’s fair,” he says with a small smile. “I’m guessing you’ve been through a lot.”~ JOCELYN ~‘Easy there, little wolf. You're safe now…’That voice.It sweeps softly through the haziness in my mind like a breeze brushing across my skin—warm, calm, and gentle in a way that comforts me. My body feels heavy as I blink slowly, trying to open my eyes.At first, all I can see is just a fog of whiteness. Just then, my mind starts booting up too. I remember the forest. I remember running away from Caspian and everything that shattered my heart on the day that was supposed to be the best day of my life. I remember being so weak and tired that I fainted after I crossed the boundary—Wait.Where… am I?My heart beats faster, and finally, my eyes adjust clearly.The first thing I see is a roof above me—wooden beams curved gently high over my head. The wood is warm brown in color, polished, but still looks a bit old. Also, there is a giant open window near the wall close to the roof. Soft golden sunlight spills into the room through the window. The air in here smells like lav
~ CASPIAN ~ What have I done? The question drips into my mind like poison. I can still hear the gasps. The whispers. The silence that followed when I spoke those cruel words. "You’re not Luna material. You never were.” Those words keep replaying in my head like a broken song. The Luna Ceremony ended hours ago, but it still feels like I am standing there, on the altar, staring into her eyes as I destroyed everything between us. Outside my windows, the night is still. I am sitting alone in my office. In the darkness. The fire in the hearth has long gone cold. Shadows stretch across the room, only dispelled by the few spills of moonlight shining through the windows. I am alone. Completely isolated. My back aches from sitting too long, and my hand keeps rubbing the middle of my chest to stop the sharp, painful swelling I feel under my shirt. The pain of rejecting her. Also, there is something else going on inside me. For about two months now, I have been having serious chest pain
~ JOCELYN ~I run.Tears pour from my eyes and bathe my cheeks, but I don’t stop running. I don’t stop running when I hear Lycena’s laughter. I don’t stop running when I hear someone shout my name.I run like the ceremony never started.I run like I was never meant to wear this white wedding dress tonight.I run like I was never mated to Caspian.I run from us. From everything.I just keep running.Because if I stop… I will collapse.And if I collapse…I am afraid I may never get up again.I have nothing left—no pack, no mate, no future.Just the broken pieces of everything I once believed in.The hem of my gown tangles around my ankles as I run past houses and streets, catching sight of the pack's boundary far ahead of me. The wedding dress snags on thorns, drags through the dirt, and tears inch by inch behind me like it knows my dream is dead and wants no part of it anymore.My Caspian rejected me.He destroyed us. He ruined everything we shared and chose that snake as his Luna. He
~ JOCELYN~“You're not Luna material. You never were.”My knees weaken as those poisonous words stab straight into my heart and steal every ounce of oxygen from my lungs.More gasps and loud whispers fill the air.Did he really say that?Did Caspian, my mate, my best friend, my love, my future, just say that to me?In front of everyone?The whispers from the crowd are not helping. I feel like fainting, but I don't give in.I won’t embarrass myself further. I… I just want to understand why Caspian is doing this to me. To us.“Caspian, I-I don't understand.” I stutter in a whisper, “Are you nervous? I am too, but… but I understand. So what's going on? Is this some kind of prank?”He swallows, not saying anything. I hate the way he is looking at me like I am an embarrassment to him.“Answer me!” I yell, my voice cracking. “Caspian, why—”“I have to do what is best for the pack,” he cuts me off coldly, “And you’re not the best, Jocelyn Valdez.”No!This isn't my Caspian. He is speaking to
~ JOCELYN ~Outside, the packhouse gardens have been transformed beautifully for the ceremony.Glowing lanterns of amber and golden colors are dancing in the summer night wind. Up in the sky, the moon is full—already blessing our union. The pack members are already present to witness everything.As I step into view, every head turns towards me.Some offer smiles. Some murmur. Some only watch me as I start walking down the aisle to meet the only man I have ever loved in my entire life.My Caspian.I pour all my attention on him and him alone. These pack members don’t really know me like Caspian does. I have lived among them for fifteen years, and yet I have always been the forbidden ghost existing in their circles.Barely spoken to. Barely remembered. Only tolerated because of Caspian.But I don’t need their approval. Only Caspian’s.And tonight, I am going to be his Luna. I am going to love him forever because he loves me too and together, we will overcome any challenges that will sta
~ JOCELYN ~Tonight is going to be the most important night of my life.Tonight is the night I become Luna of the Nightfall Pack.Tonight is the night I marry the love of my life, Alpha Caspian King.Tonight is going to be awesome.Staring at my beautiful reflection in the floor-length mirror, I keep reciting those four sentences and holding my breath while adjusting the invisible fringes of my white wedding dress. The dress is a lovely dream that is snug around my curves and purposefully designed with white gemstones in order to sparkle when I walk into the gardens and towards the altar.Long story short, I should feel beautiful. I should feel ready.But all I feel is this strange discomfort pinching inside my chest.“You look beautiful.”Mara, one of the elder seamstresses in the room, whispers to me with a smile. She has been fussing over me and my gown since afternoon, and she also helped me get dressed and did my makeup.I manage to flash her a quick smile, “Thank you, Mara.”Her