Thought

**Estelle's POV**

I couldn't stand her impudence and accepted the Alpha's arrangement for me, so I sat still and allowed her to inject the suppressant into my system. I winced in pain and she scoffed. When she was done, I didn't wait for her to tell me to leave and stood up by myself then got out of the ward. 

My heart ached as I walked past a few couples in the ward, and was a bit delighted since I wasn't attacked by any of the single wolves there. The suppressant was working perfectly and I liked it.

I suddenly realized that the only way I can live is to stay in this pack with the Alpha. If by chance I left his side, I might get kidnapped and worse, get killed. As much as I am safe with him, and the fact that he would protect me, I was very terrified of him. He was scary. I sighed at the thought and facepalmed as I gently made my way to the palace.

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The following day, the Alpha made sure I did almost all the chores in the palace, but I mainly focused on his room and his study, since I was the only one who could get close to him. I made sure to do the dishes in his private kitchen, washed his clothes, the bathroom and arranged his bedroom even though things were not really out of place. I also cooked and brought for him to eat. After dropping the food, I was about to turn and leave, but he stopped me.

“Freshen up and go to the public training center. In this pack, we don't condone weak wolves, especially the females. And that is why we have prepared a training center where they can go and learn how to fight and the rest, because whenever any need arises and we are to go to war, everyone must be a participant. Do you understand me?” He asked and I nodded. “Good. Now, leave!” He ordered, and I quickly scurried away from there.

I cleared up what I was doing and headed for the training center. When I got there, my mouth dropped open at the sight in front of me. I was shocked to see girls like me somersaulting and sparring like well-trained warriors. I felt like a minor as I watched them do it expertly. The training ground looked so beautiful and had different places for different things. They were places for taekwondo, martial arts, sparring, and even archery.

“And you are?” One of the girls there asked, but I couldn't give her an answer.

“Oh, I know her. She's the stealer wolf, who almost got claimed at the plaza yesterday.” A girl commented from behind me, and I turned to see her grinning at me mischievously.

My heart burned, and I felt like slapping her across the face.

“She's also a mute.” Another one said, and soon they were gathered around me, leaving me in their middle.

“How about we have a lot of fun with her until the training master gets here?” One suggested and they chuckled.

“You're a mute, and you have the guts to show your face here?” One scoffed. 

Another poked my forehead. One pushed me and I fell. I looked up at them angrily and they burst out laughing.

“She's like a feather, so weak!” They exclaimed and laughed.

I wanted to yell the fucking hell out of them and make them know that I'm not just a random girl they could bully and get a way with, but I couldn't speak because of my weird voice. If I dared, they might make fun of me more.

I endured all they made me go through and to my disappointment, the training master never showed up, so I decided to head back to the palace.

As I made my way to the palace, I met my father and brother waiting at a corner for me. He gestured for me to come and I obliged. I made a sign, asking him what he was doing here, and he asked me to bring my ears, so he could whisper something to me.

“I want you to poison the Alpha,” He said and I gasped. I immediately shook my head and glared at my father. “Calm down, Estelle. You have to do this because you are the only one who can go close to the Alpha. If you don't do this, you might lose your life in the process,” He said, and I shook my head.

“Listen, my child. Alpha Cedric is a very ruthless person. If you kill him, then you're doing yourself, your pack and the whole world at large some good,”

I can't do that. I'm not that cruel enough to kill my mate just because he is ruthless. I won't consent to this. I looked at my father and shook my head again.

“Estelle, you've got to do this for us. The order came from our Alpha and if you don't kill him, we're going to die. Me, you and your brother. Shawn, talk to your sister. She wants to get us killed, do you want to die?” He turned to look at my brother, who shook his head.

“Come on, sis. You're the only way that can get close to him. All you have to do is add the poison to his drink and he will die.” My brother coaxed me and I became conflicted.

“Think about this, Estelle. If you follow our Alpha's orders and kill Alpha Cedric, you will become the pride of our pack and a good daughter to me. No one would dare to look down on you because you're a mute anymore,” He dropped the poison in my hands. “You have to make a choice, daughter. Either you become a pride of our pack or remain a nuisance and slave to everyone.” With that said, he walked away with my brother.

I looked at the poison in my hands. 

Father was right. I would be respected and wouldn't be bullied anymore. I would no longer be considered a slave and would have my freedom.

I'm going to do it.

After I returned home, the Alpha requested I give him wine, and I quickly added the poison to the bottle before bringing it to him. After dropping it, I turned to leave immediately.

“Hey, where are you rushing to? Pour it in the glass for me.” He ordered and I sighed.

I poured it into his glass and he lifted it. I wasn't at peace anymore, and my head was spinning. Was I really doing the right thing? Was it fair to kill my mate just like that? I fought with my inner self and my heart raced when he took the wine and placed it on his lips, ready to gulp it down.

Tears rolled down my cheeks.

I'm about to kill my mate!