I was tucked up under the covers again when Alpha Lucas came back in. It was the first chance I got to really look at him. I was too disoriented and worried about being trapped with a strange man before. Now, I was able to examine his features. He was tall with broad shoulders and a large build. His sandy brown hair suited his gray eyes and a full beard covered a strong jaw. I wouldn’t be surprised if half of the women in the pack were constantly fawning over him.
He came around the bed and, moving the chair from the table, sat next to me. I still felt awkward as he looked at me, but it didn’t stop my stomach from doing a little flip. He smelled nice. I don’t know why I just realized how nice he smelled. It was… comforting. Even the silence that filled the room felt calming.
Although, that could have been the pain meds the doctor had given me. Because there was no reason I should feel so comfortable sitting in the same room as this formidable and impressive wolf.
A knock on the door interrupted my thoughts. Alpha Lucas got up and went to answer it. I didn’t see who was on the other side. There was a muffled voice, Alpha Lucas responded, then wheeled in a tray completely filled with an array of food. The moment the aroma hit my nostrils, my stomach was growling. Alpha Lucas glanced at me.
“How is your stomach right now?” he asked. “Any nausea?”
I swallowed and shook my head. It was mostly honest. The truth was, I had gotten used to the nausea a long time ago. A lack of food often caused the state. So, right now, food sounded incredible. But I didn’t want to seem too eager. So I waited for him to give me permission to make a plate.
“Would you prefer to eat at the table?” he asked as he picked up an empty plate from the server. “Or would you rather rest there?”
“Oh… um…”
I was caught off guard by his question. It had been a while since I had been given a choice. I looked toward the door, thinking about how he hadn’t even let them bring in the cart. I didn’t think he would like the suggestion to go downstairs. My eyes drifted to the window. Wishing for some fresh air.
“Sutton,” his deep voice gently regained my attention. “Tell me what you want.”
“I… I’d like to go outside,” I said, trying not to sound as nervous about the request as I was.
“Okay,” he replied plainly. Setting the plate down, he disappeared through the bathroom door. A moment later, he came out with a garment draped over his arm. Coming to my side of the bed, he held up a thick robe. “There’s a table on the balcony. It’s a little chilly to go out in your night clothes. You should put this on.”
The care and consideration in his voice was shocking. Terrifying almost.
If I had never experienced anything like it before, maybe it wouldn’t have been. But there were times, in the beginning, when Mason would show the same hints of kindness. But it was a game. Just another way to toy with me.
Alpha Lucas held out the robe, looking at me expectantly. I was suddenly finding it hard to breathe. And it wasn’t because of the broken rib. I needed space. I pushed passed him quickly, putting a few feet between us.
“Why are you doing this?” I demanded. “What do you want from me?”
Alpha Lucas sighed, lowering the garment he had been offering. He looked at me with contemplation, but there seemed to be kindness in his eyes.
“Right now, I want to have a meal with you,” he said gently.
“And then?”
“That’s up to you,” he said. “But I think we should talk at some point.”
I chewed the corner of my lip anxiously. What choice did I really have? I didn’t have the strength to fight him off. At least he seemed to be interested in letting me heal. Dr. Callahan was nice enough, but he was still her Alpha. There was only so much she could do on my behalf. Either way, I would need some time to figure out a plan. So, I might as well stay on this man’s good side.
Alpha Lucas raised the robe again tentatively. I reached out and took it from him, throwing it on quickly. A smile played at his lips, but he moved before I saw it turn into anything more. He went back to the food server, which had him passing closely by me. Our shoulders almost grazing, wafting that wonderful smell of his my way again. I breathed it in involuntarily, unable to help the impulse. A fluttering in my stomach erupted unexpectedly and I felt my cheeks flush.
“There are slippers by the bed. I’ll start you with something light,” he started to speak. “You don’t want to put too much or anything too heavy on your stomach yet. I doubt you’d be able to keep it down for a while. Luckily, we have the best cook in the pack here.” He produced a full plate of fruits and steamed vegetables and delicious-looking fish in front of me. “Here. Don’t try to eat it all but eat what you can. I’ll be right out to join you.”
All I could manage was a nod. I felt like someone else was controlling my body as I opened the balcony door and stepped outside. I was immediately greeted by the cool air and sun shining on my face. I couldn’t help but close my eyes and take a moment to revel in it. After a few deep breaths, I looked to find the small metal patio table that was located to the right of the glass doors. I took a seat, setting my plate in front of me and my hands in my lap, waiting for Alpha Lucas to join.
As I looked at the plate, I started to think about what I would do once I got my strength back. It would go a long way if he kept feeding me like this for a little while. I would have to get an idea of what to expect once I was healed.
Alpha Lucas took his seat, taking up a surprising amount of space in the small area. He was larger than I thought. But he managed to make enough space I could avoid touching him.
“Eat, Sutton.”
Taking my fork, I took a bite of fruit. It was fantastic. My hunger took over and I quickly made it through half the plate within a few minutes. It wasn’t until I started to slow that I realized he was still watching me. Swallowing, I took the opportunity to speak.
“You didn’t answer my question before,” I said softly.
He didn’t reply. I looked up to find him staring at me expectantly.
“Why are you doing all of this?”
It had been a strange day. I had thrown myself into my work in the garden. I admit that I was hoping for a distraction after my failed attempt to leave, but it ended up giving me time to think. My mind kept going back to Lucas’ comment about my life — about the life I deserved. I couldn’t remember a time I considered what I deserved from life. Two weeks ago, I didn’t even know what I wanted, let alone what I deserved.I started to analyze my behavior. First, from the night before, then over the past few weeks, then over the time with Mason until it escalated to my entire life. I found myself in tears a few times. I thought about my mother and the memories of her I still had. While I had been questioning so much of my life, including that part of it, I was reminded of one thing that I was always certain of. My mother loved me. For whatever reason she hid our past from me, she believed she had good reason and that it was what was best for me at the time.But that didn’t mean it was rig
“She is none of your concern,” I replied, aiming to not sound defensive.While an Alpha’s command still affected him, I wasn’t able to compel him into silence like the rest of my pack members. His loyalty to me only lasted as long as the Royal Council deemed it so.Soloman Avenwood had been sent to the Ironpaw Pack as the ambassador not long after I had taken over. While the royal family no longer appointed the pack Alphas themselves, they still had an influence in the governing of the packs. However, for the most part, as long as we paid our taxes and didn’t try to kill each other, they left us to our own devices.Soloman was older and a bit traditional at times, but I liked him well enough. But that only meant we had a working relationship regarding pack business, not that I was ready to trust him with Sutton’s safety.“Alpha Lucas, if you have any hope to avoid a border war at this point, you are going to need my help,” Soloman stated.“And if Anders’ has already assured that war i
Things were still tense between Sutton and me the next day. It was upsetting that she tried to leave, and there was no denying that the incident with Daisy played a role in that. It would have been one thing if Sutton was angry about an affair that never happened, but it was clear that she was using it as an excuse to doubt herself. Then to sneak off in the middle of the night…That wasn’t who Sutton was. That much I knew for sure. Just as well as I knew she wanted me. Sutton wanted to be with me. That’s why she was so hurt by Daisy’s confrontation. Sutton just needed to admit it to herself.I went to the sunroom in the afternoon. Sutton was standing in the backyard, her back to the house. She’d spent most of the day out there. I hadn’t planned on giving her space today. Neither had Rhonen. After our run last night, he was ready to claim Sutton completely. The fact that he was beginning to sense her wolf didn’t stem that eagerness. It was possible he would sense her more than Sutton d
Lucas took my hand. Without a word, he pulled me through the house and out the back door. Stepping around supplies and yard equipment, he led me to the missing section of fence and into the woods.“It’s never been explained to you why our wolves are so important to us, has it?” he asked as we reached the edge of a small clearing.I shook my head. “They give you power,” I guessed. “Make you stronger than others.”“No,” Lucas said. “That’s a product of our existence, yes, but that’s not what makes us lycans. The truth is, it’s not something that’s easily explained. Nor easily understood when you haven’t experienced it yourself.” He turned to me, hooking my chin with his fingers. “You’ve only seen how a lycan can use his wolf to do terrible things. All you know is the darkest parts of our nature, Sutton. Let us show you something better.” He took a few steps back, breaking physical contact but keeping his eyes locked on mine. “Don’t be afraid.”Before I could say anything, he shifted. It
I was tired. Hell, I was exhausted. And sore. And emotionally raw. I didn’t have it in me to keep discussing everything that had happened. I didn’t think I could question my entire life any more than I already was.Twenty-four hours.That’s all it took for what little I had to fall apart. Less than that really. Last night I had started to let myself believe things could work here. Then I met Lucas’ family. I watched the way his aunt and uncle were together. I saw the love and devotion there was between them, which is saying something since Rodney Danvers didn’t strike me as a particularly emotive individual. But more than that, I saw how kind and open and patient they were. They were good people. I couldn’t imagine someone with a cruel heart being raised by those two individuals in that environment.I still didn’t want to believe that. But I really needed to stop considering what I wanted to believe. I needed to start facing reality and making decisions based on what I knew was true.
I had loaded Sutton up into the truck and started the long drive home as soon as possible. It was a quiet drive despite my attempts to get Sutton to speak to me. I gave up after half an hour. I tried to focus my mind on the Dawn Stalker issue.Things were escalating quickly. I would have to confront Alpha Anders about his actions. Ordering a team to cross my border after I denied permission is an act of disrespect that I couldn’t let go. And if I didn’t act, he would know I was hiding something. He’d push harder to confirm it was Sutton. That couldn’t happen until she was ready to accept me as her mate.“What did Jaden have to dispose of?” Sutton said quietly.I wasn’t expecting the question. I didn’t realize she had heard the conversation with the state she was in at the time. Regardless, I didn’t know how to answer.“It was the Dawn Stalker prisoners, wasn’t it?” she pressed.“Yes,” I said somberly.“So, I’ve killed them too.”“No,” I replied quickly. “Don’t do that, Sutton. Don’t c