Chapter 9

I look up into his eyes Alpha Zeke, yes he replies.

I'm sorry he looks at me and crosses his hands over his chest.

For he replies?

I scratch the side of my head and sigh for all of this I'm the reason there's a rift between us upon meeting I'm the cause of all my problems and of that I am aware.

I'm not asking for your forgiveness I'm not deserving of it.

You've known me all of an hour but I can feel the weight that I've placed upon your shoulder.

I can't have you thinking some how it's a fault of yours it's not.

I'm not favored by the moon goddess and the things I love most have all been snatched from me.

 Pointing at myself this is all I have to offer but we are a package deal if your decision doesn't include my child it will not include me.

I'm prepared to suffer the lost of losing you for my weaknesses but I can't punish an innocent child who didn't ask to be here.

I know I've just said alot and we are suppose to be giving each other time.

I just needed you to know I'm sorry for my actions but I'm most proud to be blessed to be a mother!

 I'm willing to do it alone, and I'm willing to lose my wolf  also,I'm willing to let go of the other half of my soul to make this up to you.

You sure have summed it up pretty well for me huh. He says looking sternly at me.

I down cast my eyes.

So your saying no matter what my decision is you will accept it and that will be it? Yes I reply  looking back into his eyes.

I can accept anything that doesn't separate me from my child.

your willing to lose your soul and your wolf by accepting my rejection?

I nod my head eyes glossing over and swallowing to keep the tears at bay.

He pushes the lock of curly hair behind my ear and an electric zap passes between us.

I lean into his touch but  he pulls away and the warmth soon disappears.

My tears have subsided and I'm refreshed with a rush of calmness.

I blink my eyes open an Alpha Zeke is wearing a big smile you should head in Lynette.

I will go and talk to Alpha Chris and this evening I will Stop back by to check on you either I or my beta,I nod in understanding and walk up the stairs.

I watched as he starts up the mountain until his back was no longer in view.

Walking in I take a look around the cabin and gasp is beautiful.

 All these thing look hand carved unique with a signature design on each piece.

The wall has minimum art but that's OK I won't be here long enough to make drastic changes heading towards the back of the cottage I find the master bedroom and notice my things are there and already put away I smile and sit on the bed.

Laying down I think of everything that has happened to me, and shake my head.

I can't believe that the one place I decide to seek refuge would land me in the lions den of my mate or that he would be so fine.

Turning to my side I close my eyes and grey is all I see and as I gaze into his stormy Grey eyes I'm at peace for a moment and everything surrounding me seems small.

He didn't reject me so that's a good sign right I say as I ball up on the bed,and with that I fall into a deep sleep resting peaceful for the first night in awhile.