My mind flashes back to the red asterics on Simon and Ajax’s head and anger flares, it’s fire burns out the chills and suddenly I’m a the door yelling.‘Don’t you dare’‘Don’t you speak about my son you psychopathic monster’, my breathing picks up again, but not from fear this time,It was from the burn in my veins, the fire in my mouth.‘You’ve changed’, it was like he didn’t even hear me,‘You’ve become to dependent and it wouldn’t end well’‘I like this change’, I fired at him,‘I like the person I’ve grown into, and I’ll be damned to listen to a coward on how to live my life’, I bite out my blood at boiling point.‘Life was beautiful with you and I’, the monster had the guts to sound tortured, to sound like a victim,‘Even you darkest moments were made beautiful because I was there’.‘Christ!!!’, I was stunned, speechless for a while,‘How delusional can one get’, I ran a hand over my forehead, anger raising my temperature degrees higher.‘There was no you and I’, I spelt it out f
My hands felt weak on my phone screen, each bang echoing with my name called out through the door,How did I spend months without any idea?How could I not have known?‘Tina, can you open up please’, at first it was begging, pleas meant to placate me,‘Tina, open up before I break down the door ‘, then threats, meant to scare me into submission,But I was way past that stage, I slid down the door, my legs going weak, as Simon picked up the phone,‘Heeeyyy’, Simon’s excited voice brought tears to my eyes,‘Heyy’, my voice shook in whispered greeting,‘What’s wrong’, he asked immediately, noticing my distress,‘I..I’m’Tears flowed fast halting my words, stopping me from stringing a sentence together,‘Tina, what is happening’, alarm rang in his voice so I swallowed my tears down opened my mouth to the only sentence capable of leaving my mouth,‘Can…can you come…’‘I’m on my way’, the sentence was not fully out of my mouth when I hear his footsteps slapping down the marble tiles in his
Terror, ice cold in it’s grip, wrapped around me as I make a run for it,Chills dripping down the base of my spine, my heart in my throat as I cross the remaining five steps towards the door,I’m right in front of it, dread pulsating through my blood at an all time high, my hands outstretched for the handle seconds earlier,A scream tore through my throat as I felt his hand close around my bicep, yanking me towards him,Breath built up in my throat, another scream bubbling up,Adam slapped a hand around my mouth, sealing it, pushing that blood curdling scream back down my throat.I clawed at his hands, dread beating a violent rhythm in my heart, but he wraps his around my shoulders, ignoring my nails against his skin as he dragged me back in.Still I struggled, dragging my feet, stretching my hand out to grab onto anything that would give me an advantage,Yet he dragged me, against my struggles, his heavy breathing echoing in my ears.My legs go weak, pain exploding in my right leg, a
I blink repeatedly, my breath quickening as my heart stopped in my chest,I looked around the room that was devoid of Adam but it held secrets that made the temperature drop to chilling degrees,My hand goes to wrap around me as I stood still, battling the ice settling into my soul as I stared at the left wall of Adam's bedroom.The wall that was once covered up with a mirror was now bare and I could see the secrets it held,The mirror was pushed to one side which made the horror so clear to see,My nails dig into the fabric of my sweatshirt and I take shaky breath after another, hoping the wall of pictures I was staring at was not reality,I hoped it was a dream, maybe even a nightmare, but not reality,‘Please, please don’t be real', I begged, throwing my pleas to the cold room and hoped I would blink and they would be gone.But my nails pressing into my skin, painful even through fabric was proof enough that I was very much awake,My mouth drops open as I stare at pictures of me, o
A laugh escapes my lips when Simon bolts from his chair the moment the clock strikes 5,He takes a look at me and a smile fills his face,‘I guest I’ll be leaving first today', he grabs his jacket, sliding into it in seconds,‘I’ll call once we get home', picking up his suitcase he walks towards me and places a kiss on my forehead,‘I love you', my breath gets stuck in my throat and my mouth flops open and close as I searched for the right reply,‘I…’, it was the second time he said those words and yet, saying it back seemed impossible,‘I’ll….I'll call you', yet Simon smiles at my alternative, he places a kiss on my forehead again and bounds out of the office.A smile lights my face as I watch him go.Seconds later it fades, my happiness overtaken by fear as I put my things together.I walked out of his office, uncertain, walked stiff as a rod as I rode the elevator down and contemplated a decision which seemed now like nothing but a moment of weakness.Between relief and s
‘I can’t let you leave’, he repeats and tiredness that I masked with coffee comes creeping back,‘I done with this', I bite out through bone deep tiredness that made me forget cool headedness ‘I’m tired of this fighting’‘This back and forth with you Simon', ‘Aren’t you tired?’, I throw the question at him even when his mouth stays sealed while I spoke.I'm tired of this all so I'm going to leave'‘I'm going to go and you can just forget all of this happened'‘Just pretend that the last few months was a dream, a figment of your imagination’,Still he doesn’t speak so I turn away from him, run my hands through my hair,‘I'll write the letter again', I take his silence for acceptance, his drooped shoulders for defeat.But I feel his hands enclose around my arms, both hands holding onto me with a light touch,It’s just impossible Tina’, he whispers refusal again, and my eyes snap back to him, a biting remark on my tongue.‘You should have thought of that last week, before I