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MONICA
I was tagged the cheap slut who lost her V-card within one month of being deceived by the school's hottest boy. I'd brought shame onto myself because I was foolish enough to think love ever existed for girls like me. "That was easy, bro! We gave you two months but you were able to get into her secret chamber within a month," one of Damian's friends laughed, shaking hands and bumping his shoulder with Damian. Damian pulled back, a proud smirk sitting pretty on his handsome face. "Told you I would hit within a month," he chuckled, his words breaking me into a greater despair than I already was. He turned to the other jock, Dominic, one of his close buddies I knew when I hung out with him. He was leaning against the wall. "Care to drop my twenty grands now?" Damian demanded. "Yeah... you won the bet so... you'll get your alert—" Dominic twirled his latest iPhone between his fingers then tapped on the screen for a few seconds. "Now," he completed, an amused look settling on his face as he stared at Damian and a beep was heard across the hall causing the boys to cheer even louder. I gasped, my knees giving out but I was quick to support my balance with the rail of the staircase. I was nothing more than a bet to Damian...twenty thousand dollars was all it took to have access to my virginity. The other students passing by me where I stood frozen gave me looks of disgust. "I wonder how Damian could fuck that." "Her moans sounded like she was singing an opera," a brunette girl who was standing with a blonde girl, I assume was her friend let out a mocking laughter that rippled across the hallway. My eyes watered, how could I have been so dumb? So fucking dumb! The whole school echoed with my moaning sound that was leaked and pictures of the white bedsheets stained with my blood. I summoned courage, at least just this once, and walked up to Damian to confront him, I shouldn't have but I just wanted to look him in the face to confirm how he was a devil in disguise. His group of friends became mute surprisingly as they saw me approach. "Ho-how could you?" My lips quivered as I stared at Damian. His eyes flickered at me but he didn't say anything. I sniffed, batting my eyes to stop the tears threatening to fall. "I had high hopes..." "Monica—" he tried to move close to me but I stepped back away from his reach. "... hopes that you were different, I guess I was stupid to think that you were," my voice cracked while I fisted my hands tightly by my side. "Of course, you were," A shrilling voice said behind me and I turned my head to see who it was. Zoey. The almighty queen bee of the school and together with her were her three minions. "You're very stupid to think Damian would ever look at trash like you or want to spend time with you," she continued and her girls laughed in support. "I mean have you looked at yourself in the mirror?" Oliva scoffed, her glossy lips curling downwards like she'd tasted something sour. Their laughter felt like knives, stabbing right into every tiny hole in my skin. I wanted to shrink, to fold myself into nothing, but my feet sadly stayed rooted. Zoey's eyes swept over me like I was a stain on her designer shoes. "She probably doesn't even own a mirror," another one of her shadows giggled. It was Ava Martin and I watched her twirl a strand of hair around her finger like she had nothing better to do than bully me. My throat tightened, heat climbing up my neck. "I didn't do anything to you," I whispered. Zoey smirked, stepping even closer to me. So close her perfume began choking me as much as her words. "Existing is enough. Don't get it twisted, honey. Damian regrets it just as much as you do, I heard he got his entire body exfoliated three times after bedding you. If not for the bed he wouldn't even look your way because you reek of poverty and trash." She dragged the word out like gum stuck to the bottom of her shoe. I glanced at Damian maybe he would have an ounce of regret for what he had done to me but his gaze lacked emotion like he couldn't care less about the situation he had put me in. I couldn't believe it, this was the same Damian I had gone out on a date with. The one who stared at me so lovingly I'd melt. The one whose touch set my entire skin ablaze. Unable to withstand the shit show any longer, I turned to leave but then Ava held me back. Zoey tilted her head back and laughed then she walked to him, pressing her lips against his right there in front of everyone. The boys cheered, some whistled, and I just stood there swallowing my shame like glass shards. I couldn't breathe anymore. I forcefully yanked my hand away from Ava's and I turned, shoving past a couple of kids who muttered things I didn't want to hear but heard anyway. Slut. Whore. Cheap. I didn't stop running until my knees buckled against the cold metal seats of the stadium bleachers. I collapsed onto one, clutching the railing with trembling fingers, sucking in shaky breaths. Before I knew it, the sobs I had been carefully holding back ripped out of me, ugly and loud. My face was buried in my palms as hot tears slid through my fingers, dripping down until the fabric of my jeans was damp. "Stupid, stupid, stupid," I kept mumbling between sobs. "How could I be so stupid..." The more I said it, the heavier it pressed on me, like the word itself was piling stones on my chest. I thought about my dad, mopping floors while I was in an elite private school. I thought about how proud he was when he heard I got the scholarship and how I promised him I'd make him proud. And here I was, the janitor's daughter turned into the biggest joke in Havenstone High. I hated it. I hated myself. I wanted to disappear, to erase the last month, to rip Damian out of every memory I'd let him stain. "I figured you'd be here." A familiar voice suddenly rang out. I lifted my head to find Julian, my bestfriend. His familiar crooked grin was there. In his hands, two cans of soda, condensation dripping down the sides. Our soda. The one thing we always shared when the world sucked. I tried to wipe my face fast, but my cheeks were still streaked and swollen. "Go away, Jules," I croaked. "Yeah... not gonna happen," he said softly, climbing up the bleachers until he dropped beside me. He cracked one can open before offering it to me. "Thanks," I muttered, keeping my eyes down as I took it. "Anytime," he answered, sipping from his own can. He didn't push me, didn't ask a million questions like other people would. He just sat there with his shoulder brushing mine, eyes fixed on the empty field like there was a game happening only he could see. "I'm so stupid," I whispered finally, the words spilling out again before I could stop them. Julian turned his head slightly. "No. You're not stupid. You liked him, that's all. You gave him a chance because you thought he was worth it. That doesn't make you dumb. That makes him trash." I blinked at him, more tears spilling anyway. He always knew the right thing to say. "Although," he added with a teasing side-eye, "I did warn you about him." A broken laugh slipped out of me. "Yeah, you did," I admitted, wiping my nose with the back of my sleeve. Julian's smile widened just a little. He seemed satisfied, before he looked back at the field. He tapped his soda can against mine gently. "It's okay to cry. Don't lock it all inside. Let it out." I didn't argue, instead, I rested my head on his shoulder. He didn't move, just let me cry into his shirt until it was damp with tears but he didn't complain. "Thank you for staying by me," I whispered Julian shifted suddenly, standing and facing me. "You done crying?" he asked, folding his arms like he was deciding for both of us. I frowned, confused. "Yeah... Why?" He smirked, the kind of smirk that always meant trouble. "Because it's time for revenge." "Revenge?" "Yeah," Julian nodded, eyes lighting up. "You're not gonna sit here and let Damian and Zoey drag you like this. You're gonna make him regret every second he didn't see your worth." "How? I'm nobody, Jules. I'm literally the janitor's daughter. He already won and there's nothing I could ever do to get back at either of them." I whispered feeling so much pity for myself. "Oh, there is a way to make him pay," Julian said convinced. "How?" "By making him realize he lost a valuable asset he should have cherished and it's time to have a makeover."MONICAI freeze. My dad is standing by my bedroom door frame, arms crossed, eyebrow raised like he’s been listening the whole time.Julian’s voice comes through the phone, loud and dramatic. “Yes you did! We’re going to Montauk!” I can’t help it. “We’re going to Montauk!” I repeat again, pointing at my dad like he’s part of the chant now.He rolls his eyes. “You children are reckless.”“Dad,” I whine.“You’re not stealing a person's jet.”“It’s not stealing,” Julian yells through the speaker. “It’s character development!”My dad actually snorts. “Julian, I can hear you.”“Hi Mr. Lee!” Julian says sweetly. “We aren't stealing anything. His son is borrowing it and we're just tagging along.”“That’s not comforting.” I walk closer to my dad, lowering my voice even though Julian can definitely still hear. “We need this,” I say. “All of us. It’s been a lot this semester.”He studies my face like he’s trying to read between the lines. Maybe he sees the exhaustion. Maybe he sees the growth. M
MONICAThis semester felt like ten different lifetimes stitched into one and now it’s just… over. Finally. I can breathe. I’m sitting on my bed staring at my ceiling like it’s supposed to clap for me or something, like there should be fireworks or a soundtrack playing in the background because I survived it, because I made it through heartbreak and humiliation and gossip and glow ups and love triangles and everything in between and somehow I’m still here, still breathing, still in love. Which is insane because I thought love was supposed to die after betrayal but apparently mine didn’t get that memo. I fell in love, got betrayed, got bullied in hallways by girls who smile with their teeth but not their eyes. And with Julian's help, reinvented myself in the middle of it all, learned how to hold my chin higher, how to look people in the face without shrinking, and somehow it all ended with love still sitting in my chest like it never left. That’s the crazy part.I roll onto my side a
ZOEYI fake it so well it almost scares me, the crown sliding back into place like muscle memory, like I never took it off, like the weight of it hasn’t been crushing my skull all night. I joke louder than everyone else, I throw my head back when I laugh, I sip and sip and sip like alcohol is just another accessory, something glittery to match the dress, and when they start a stupid game I win it on purpose, not even subtle about it, just to remind them all that I still run things here, that I still decide the tone, the pace, the rules.“Of course Zoey wins,” Jordan says, half annoyed, half impressed. I grin. “I don’t lose.” They cheer. They clap. Ava hands me another drink. I take it. I always take it.But Gabriel doesn’t come back.That’s the thing that breaks something under my ribs like a crack you don’t notice until you breathe too deep. I keep waiting, eyes flicking to the doorway every few minutes, pretending I’m not counting, pretending I don’t care, pretending this isn’t eati
GABRIELI feel lighter. That’s the first thing that hits me, not happiness exactly, not relief in a fireworks way, just this quiet sense that something unclenched in my chest when Monica said in another life and meant it, when she smiled through the ache and didn’t ask me to choose or confess or undo anything, and I hate that it took letting her go to finally breathe but here I am, breathing anyway.She stands first, brushing imaginary dust off her dress, eyes already softer, calmer, like she made a decision without telling me, and says, “I should go back. Damian might get worried if he can’t find me.”“Yeah,” I say, nodding. “Yeah, you should.”She hesitates like she wants to say more, then doesn’t, just gives me that look she’s always had, the one that says she knows me better than I want her to, and then she walks away, footsteps fading into noise and light and everything I’m not part of anymore.I stay seated.I don’t chase. I don’t follow. I don’t even stand. I just sit there sta
MONICA“What?”“If you can't handle normal rich kids parties then you should've stayed home. Better than hiding.” My jaw tightens. “I’m allowed to use the bathroom.”She laughs, sharp. “Relax. I’m not attacking you.” Then, casual, careless, like she’s tossing out a spare thought, “You always act like you have a target on your back. Relax girl, no one gives a fuck about you.”I don’t take the bait. I stare at the paper towel dispenser like it owes me money. That bothers her. I can feel it.She pushes. “Must be exhausting though. Always being the good girl. The fixer. The one everyone loves.” I clench my teeth. Still say nothing.Her smile fades. Her eyes sharpen. “Pretending that you don't even notice you have that effect. Even though we both know that... you have feelings for Gabriel too,” she says suddenly. The room tilts as my stomach drops.I turn to leave.“Don’t,” she snaps, grabbing my arm, fingers tight, nails digging just enough to hurt. She pulls me back, face inches from min
MONICAThe party keeps moving like nothing cracked, like Julian didn’t just blow a hole straight through the center of it, music loud again, bass rattling cups and ribs, people laughing too hard, dancing too fast, trying to outrun the secondhand discomfort hanging in the air. I stay where I am for a while, watching faces, watching Dominic disappear into bodies that pretend not to see him, watching the DJ pretend nothing happened, watching everything lie to itself.I think about going after Julian. The urge hits hard and fast, like muscle memory, because I always go after him, I always check, always try to make sure he’s okay, always patch him up with jokes and hugs and snacks and fake confidence when he’s bleeding emotionally because that's what he does for me too. But this was different and so I don’t move. I know that look. I know that kind of anger. It needs space. If I chase it, it turns cruel or collapses. Julian needs air, not comfort, and I hate that I know that.My mind slide







