Never Again 🌷 “The energy that exists between people when they feel seen, heard, and valued; when they can give and receive without judgement; and when they derive sustenance and strength from the relationship.” Brené Brown ~•~ E V E L Y N• |FIVE YEARS AGO| Knowing someone was the process of three phases. When you were in the initial phase, you knew basic things about the person, but you knew nothing about the personality. And when we crossed that phase, entering into the middle one while trying to understand the personality, there came a lot of misunderstandings, fights, trust, issues and dilemmas. It happened with everyone. Once you sailed through that phase, you'd start knowing that person within as you had all the learning, which you had gained in the middle phase full of trauma. Crossing the middle phase, we'd start knowing a person in true senses like habits, behaviour, thinking process, reactions in particular situations etc. You might fall in love with that perso
Never Again 🌷 “In a sea of people, my eyes will always search for you.” ~•~ E V E L Y N• As I finally got my monthly check, Kat could not stop bickering about having dinner in her favourite restaurant. And, on top of it she thought, outing would take my mind off of some things. So, I agreed. The restaurant felt as if I had entered a dreamland, the happy chatter, the fragrances, the easy and natural colours. "Sorry ladies for being late." Said Mason and both of our heads jerked to him, throwing daggers at him with our eyes. "What?" He asked innocently, when he took in our angry faces. "One hour! You're one hour late, gentleman." Said Kat, pressuring the word 'gentleman' a little more as she eyed him warily, crossing her arms in front of her chest to which Mason leaned down to kiss her cheeks. "We thought you forgot, Mase." I said, giving him my best glaring eyes. "Forgot about dinner in such a fancy restaurant. Are you kidding me Angel?" Said Mason, winking at me. Seeing M
Never Again 🌷 “Spin me around, knock me off my feet, try to stay dry but you rain on me. You know, you can be my hurricane. Blow me away, pick me off the ground, try to stay dry but I just might drown. Honey, you can be my hurricane.” -Midnight Cinema ~•~ E V E L Y N• It was Saturday afternoon and I was at the grocery store getting supplies for the week ahead, well this was Kat's turn to get all the groceries and since Mason and Kat weren't getting their 'cozy-alone-time', I was incharge of doing the job today. While I was filling the cart with buns for the hamburgers and hot dogs, I heard someone sobbing at the other side of the shelves. Moving away from my cart, I walked towards the end of my side to turn towards the side from where I heard someone sobbing. There I saw a small boy, sitting on the floor while his head was resting on his knees. Moving forward towards him, I crouched in front of him. "Hey, sweetie?" I said, softly. The small boy heard me and he instantly wi
Never Again 🌷 “Somehow everything I own smells of you, and for the tiniest moment it's all not true.” -Snow Patrol ~•~ E V E L Y N• My heart was thudding in my chest, I had a doubt that I might get a cardiac arrest. He might be here any minute. I was so engrossed in my thoughts that it took me a few seconds to comprehend that someone was knocking on the door. Standing up from the couch, I ran to answer the door when the banging grew louder. It made me groan with irritation. How impatient he had become?! I hesitantly opened the door, revealing undeniably sexy looking Xavier as he was dressed in white casual shirt and denims, with a little beard giving him a mouthwatering look. But, he looked very angry. His eyes were a darker shade of green, it was mesmerizing. "Hey." I greeted him, but he didn't reply and just watched me. Why the hell was he angry? I was the one supposed to be angry, not him. "Where?" Asked Xavier, that was the only word left from his lips. With a tired
Never Again 🌷 “When someone is crying, of course, the noble thing to do is to comfort them. But if someone is trying to hide their tears, it may also be noble to pretend you do not notice them.” -Lemony Snicket ~•~ •E V E L Y N• Finally! I'm going to learn the truth. I sat on the couch at the far corner of the living room and watched Xavier pacing in front of me. I closed my eyes when the nervousness started to freak me out. "Xavier! Will you stop pacing? You're making me nervous." I said, and rubbed my neck subconsciously. Suddenly he lifted his gaze to me and said, "Fine! I'll tell you everything but in turn you have to promise me that you'll keep your mouth shut and won't utter a single word to anyone about this." He negotiated. "Why would I say anything to anyone? I want to listen to the truth. So start speaking, it's already past eight in the evening!" I said whilst glancing at the watch on his wrist. Now that I noticed, for a rich person, he only wore one watch. I shook
Never Again 🌷 “Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.” ~•~ •E V E L Y N• It was already past ten in the night, and Alex woke up an hour ago. That little kid came running barefoot towards his Daddy, wrapping his small arms around his calves and squeezing as tightly as he could. "Daddy!" He exclaimed in his cute little voice that would always melt my heart. "I miss you." That was all Xavier needed to hear. "I missed you too, buddy," he smiled and picked him up. As Alex slept straight for the whole evening, I thought he might be hungry so I ordered a pizza and asked Xavier to stay, while he was reluctant to agree but looking at his son's mischievously innocent face, he agreed. Right now, we were sitting in my living room, and I sat by Alex' side after ordering the pizza. "So, Alex, your dad was saying you're going to be in first grade this year? Are you excited?" I asked. "Yeah, Dad says I get to make a lot of new frien
Never Again 🌷 “There is only one happiness in this life, to love and be loved.” -George Sand ~•~ •X A V I E R• The elevator wasn't working today as it was under repair and each employee on our floor was sweating hard when I walked past them in the morning. It was not easy to climb thirty sets of stairs and it wasn't certainly easy to do it on a warm day like this. At moments like today, I was grateful for the cardio and stamina building exercises in the gym. Once reaching the office, I saw a leaning figure of Evelyn, breathing heavily in her office. The scene from Saturday night made an appearance in my memory, the way she interacted with Alex and all the lovely things he was talking about her. Alex not only inherited his aunt's eyes, but also some of her habits. I felt a tug in my heart seeing him with Evelyn, after five years of hating her with every fiber of my body, that night I felt a spark as if someone gave life to the bond that we had. But, I cannot fall for her agai
Never Again 🌷 “Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful. But not knowing which to do is the worst kind of suffering.” -Paulo Coelho ~•~ E V E L Y N• | FIVE YEARS AGO | Getting engaged was one of the most special moments of a person's life. You could see in your partner's eyes exactly how it felt when you're so in love that you want nothing more than to spend the rest of your life with that person. When you get engaged, your lives together become one. And, that was what I saw in Xavier's eyes. Love. A kind of love which wouldn't be reciprocated. With a burdened heart and moistened eyes, I looked at the ring. The diamond, although big, just did not feel like it belonged to me. Throughout the ceremony, my eyes kept wavering at Ethan who had an amused smirk on his face whenever he caught me stealing glances of him. If I could relate to any person in the party, it was him. We have so much to talk about. The kind of man I would want as my finance, with perfect looks, an eloqu