Se connecterI shouldn’t have been thinking about him.
But I was. And it was irritating. “Are you even listening to me?” Lila’s voice cut through my thoughts, sharp enough to pull me back. I blinked, realizing I had been staring at nothing for the past few seconds. “Hmm?” I said, picking up my cup of coffee like I had been fully present the whole time. She narrowed her eyes at me from across the small table. “Wow. You’re gone.” “I’m not gone.” “You are. And I know exactly why.” I took a slow sip, avoiding her gaze. “You don’t.” “Ethan Blackwood.” I almost choked. Lila leaned back, folding her arms with satisfaction. “I knew it.” “I am not thinking about him,” I said quickly, maybe a little too quickly. She raised a brow. “You just reacted like someone said your full government name in public.” I exhaled, setting the cup down. “It was one conversation.” “It was not just one conversation,” she said. “You rejected him.” “Yes.” “You rejected Ethan Blackwood.” “I heard you the first time.” She shook her head slowly, like she still couldn’t believe it. “Do you even understand what you did?” “Yes,” I said, my voice calm. “I said no to a man I don’t know.” “You said no to a man who’s not used to hearing it.” “That’s not my problem.” Lila leaned forward slightly, lowering her voice. “Men like him don’t forget things like that.” Something about the way she said it made my chest tighten just a little. I pushed the feeling away. “He’ll forget,” I said. “He has better things to do.” Lila didn’t look convinced. But she didn’t push further. Instead, she changed direction. “So,” she said, tapping her fingers lightly against the table, “are you going to tell me what’s actually going on with you?” I frowned slightly. “What do you mean?” “I mean,” she gestured at me, “you don’t just randomly show up at high-profile events, reject billionaires, and then act like everything is normal.” I sighed. She wasn’t wrong. “Nothing is going on,” I said at first. She didn’t respond. Just stared at me. Waiting. I looked away, then back at her. “Okay… something is going on.” “Obviously.” I hesitated for a second, then reached into my bag and pulled out the envelope. Her eyes immediately lit up. “What is that?” I slid it across the table. “Open it.” She didn’t waste time. The moment she saw the letter inside, her expression shifted from curiosity to shock. “Ava…” she breathed. “Is this real?” “Yes.” “You got it?” “Yes.” She looked up at me, eyes wide. “You got the job?” I nodded slowly. For a moment, neither of us said anything. Then— “Oh my God,” Lila said, nearly jumping out of her seat. “Ava, this is huge!” I couldn’t help the small smile that formed on my lips. “I know.” This wasn’t just any job. This was everything. An opportunity I had been working toward for years. The kind of opportunity that could change everything about my life. No more struggling. No more barely making ends meet. No more wondering if I was ever going to move forward. “This is insane,” Lila continued. “Do you even realize what company this is?” “Yes,” I said, my smile fading just slightly. “I do.” Because that was the part I hadn’t fully processed yet. The name at the top of the letter wasn’t small. It wasn’t just any company. It was one of the most powerful corporate groups in the city. Whitmore. My fingers tightened slightly on the edge of the table. “I start tomorrow,” I added. “Tomorrow?” Lila’s eyes widened again. “That’s fast.” “I know.” “Are you ready?” I paused. That was a good question. Was I ready? I had wanted this for so long. Worked for it. Pushed myself for it. So why did something feel… off? “I have to be,” I said finally. Because this wasn’t optional. This was necessary. The building was even more intimidating in daylight. Tall. Glass. Impossibly sleek. The kind of place that made you feel small before you even walked inside. I stood across the street for a moment, staring at it. This is it. Everything starts here. I adjusted my bag on my shoulder and took a breath. Then stepped forward. Inside, everything was polished. Controlled. Efficient. People moved with purpose, like they had somewhere important to be at all times. I walked up to the front desk, trying to keep my nerves from showing. “Good morning,” I said. The receptionist smiled professionally. “Name?” “Ava.” She typed something quickly, then nodded. “Welcome. You’re expected.” That did nothing to calm my nerves. “Take the elevator to the top floor,” she added. “Someone will meet you there.” Top floor. Of course. I nodded and turned, stepping into the elevator. As the doors closed, my reflection stared back at me. Calm. Composed. But my heart was beating faster than it should. This was it. No turning back now. The elevator doors opened. The space was quieter up here. More… controlled. Like even the air behaved differently. A man approached me almost immediately. Sharp suit. Sharp eyes. Observant. “You’re Ava,” he said. Not a question. “Yes.” “I’m Adrian.” His tone was neutral, but there was something about the way he looked at me—like he was already assessing, already forming conclusions. “Follow me.” I did. Down a hallway that felt too quiet, too important. Until we stopped in front of a door. Adrian turned to me. “He’s expecting you.” Something about that sentence made my stomach tighten. “He?” I asked. But Adrian had already opened the door. “Go in.” I hesitated for half a second. Then stepped inside. And froze. Because sitting behind the desk— Calm. Composed. Watching me like he had been waiting— Was Ethan Blackwood. My boss. My breath caught. And the worst part? The look in his eyes said this wasn’t a coincidence. Not even close.Home was supposed to be my escape. It had always been. A place where things made sense. Where I didn’t have to think about anything beyond what was right in front of me. Simple. Quiet. Controlled. But tonight… none of that worked. I dropped my bag on the couch and kicked off my heels, exhaling as I ran a hand through my hair. Silence filled the apartment. Normally comforting. Now, unsettling. Because the quiet didn’t clear my mind. It amplified it. Every word. Every look. Every moment I had tried to brush off. “You feel it.” I closed my eyes briefly. No. I wasn’t doing this. I walked to the kitchen, pouring myself a glass of water like that would somehow reset everything. It didn’t. Nothing did. I leaned against the counter, staring ahead. What was happening to me? I had dealt with pressure before. Handled complicated situations. Maintained control when things tried to spiral. That was who I was. So why… why did this feel different? Why did it feel like s
By midday, I had already read the same document three times. And retained almost nothing. That alone was enough to irritate me. I didn’t get distracted. I didn’t lose focus. That wasn’t who I was. And yet… here I was. Staring at numbers that blurred together because my mind refused to stay where it should. “Ava.” I looked up, already knowing. Lila stood there, arms crossed, expression knowing. “You’ve been on that same page for ten minutes.” “I’m reviewing it.” “You’re staring at it.” “I’m thinking.” “You’re spiraling.” I sighed, leaning back slightly. “Can you not diagnose me right now?” “I can if it’s accurate.” “I’m fine.” “You’re not fine.” “I’m working.” “You’re distracted.” “That’s temporary.” She tilted her head slightly. “Is it?” I didn’t answer. Because I didn’t know. She stepped closer, lowering her voice. “Did something happen in his office?” “No.” “Ava.” “It was work.” “That’s not what I asked.” I closed the fil
I didn’t sleep well. Again. It was becoming a pattern I didn’t want to acknowledge. Every time I closed my eyes, my mind replayed the same thing… His voice. His words. Be careful about what you’re pretending not to feel. I turned in bed, exhaling sharply. This was ridiculous. I wasn’t pretending anything. I just knew better. That was the difference. By morning, I was already tired. Not physically, mentally. And that made everything harder. I got ready in silence, choosing something simple, clean, controlled. No room for distraction. No room for error. By the time I arrived at the office, I had already made a decision. Distance. That was the only solution. No unnecessary conversations. No private meetings. Strictly work. Nothing else. It was simple. It had to be. “Ava, you look like you fought someone in your sleep.” I glanced at Lila as I set my bag down. “I’m fine.” “You say that every time you’re not fine.” “I just didn’t sleep wel
The office felt different after the morning meeting. Not in a way anyone else would notice. But I did. Because I was trying too hard not to. I stayed at my desk longer than usual, reviewing documents that didn’t need reviewing, replying to emails that could have waited. Anything to keep myself anchored. Focused. Untouched. Unaffected. “Ava.” I looked up. Lila again. Of course. “You survived the early meeting,” she said, sliding into the chair across from me without asking. “Barely.” “That bad?” “No. Just… long.” Her eyes narrowed slightly. “And?” “And what?” “And you’re avoiding something.” “I’m working.” “You’re deflecting.” I sighed softly, closing the file in front of me. “What do you want, Lila?” “The truth.” “You can’t always have that.” “I usually do.” A pause. “Did something happen this morning?” I hesitated. Then shook my head. “Nothing important.” “Which means something definitely happened.” “It was just a meeting.”
By the time I got home, my mind was already preparing for tomorrow. 8 a.m. meeting. Early. Too early. But necessary. I set my bag down, slipped off my shoes, and headed straight for the shower, letting the warm water wash away the tension of the day. Or at least. That was the plan. But even standing there, eyes closed, trying to relax… my thoughts drifted back to him. Again. That steady voice. That look. The way he said my name like it meant something more than it should. I opened my eyes, exhaling sharply. No. This had to stop. I wasn’t going to let this turn into something complicated. I stepped out of the shower, got dressed, and forced myself into a routine, dinner, a bit of work review, then bed. Simple. Controlled. By the time I finally lay down, I was exhausted enough that sleep came quickly. But not peacefully. Because even in sleep, there was no real escape. The next morning came too fast. My alarm rang, and I groaned softly, reaching out to silence it
The rest of the day passed in a strange kind of tension. Not loud. Not obvious. But constant. Like something just beneath the surface, waiting. I kept my focus where it belonged, on my work, on deadlines, on anything that didn’t require me to think about him. And for the most part, it worked. Until it didn’t. “Ava, you’re doing it again.” I looked up from my screen. “Doing what?” Lila leaned against the edge of my desk, arms crossed, watching me too closely. “Thinking too hard.” “I’m working.” “No,” she said. “You’re overworking. There’s a difference.” I exhaled quietly. “I have deadlines.” “You always have deadlines.” “And I always meet them.” “That’s not the point.” I leaned back slightly in my chair. “Then what is?” Her gaze sharpened just a little. “You’ve been off all day.” “I’m fine.” “You’re not.” I didn’t respond. Because arguing with Lila when she got like this was pointless. She tilted her head slightly. “Did something happen?” I hesitated. Just f







