Chapter 2: Appetite

Emma’s pov

I looked around and realized how this all looks.

I looked at a naked Matt who was getting his ass kicked and I wondered what happened.

 What the hell happened here?

What is all of this?

He left, he left, and I am sure of it.

 I said goodbye and closed the door, then what the hell happened after?

I quickly got off the bed and ran to Conan.

If I don’t stop him then he will kill Matt, “could you stop it,” I yelled.

He stopped and looked at me, Matt started gathering his clothes and getting dressed.

I watched as Conan took off his coat and then put it on my shoulder.

He had tears in his eyes and wouldn’t even look me in the eyes.

“It’s not what it looks like,” I said, and he scoffed a little at this.

“So, you were just playing hide and seek in our bed? Is that why there are two used condoms on the ground?” he asked me.

His eyes then landed on Matt and he went after him again.

“In my house, how dare you do this in my house and my bed? And that too with my wife?” he asked beating the crap out of him.

I ran to him and held his hand which made him stop.

“Please stop,” I said, and he stopped but he was still shaking from the anger.

“But Matt I also have questions. You came here last night, I remember, and I told you that Conan wasn’t here. I asked you to leave and you asked for a cup of water. You had the water and you left, then how on earth did we end up in bed together?” I asked Matt.

“How on earth did we end up in bed together and that too naked?” I asked him.

I tried feeling my body, I could feel it and I just knew it by listening to my body that nothing happened.

Then why am I naked and why are there used condoms on the floor?

“Stop acting like a saint, you are the one that seduced me last night. I am only a man, when a hot woman throws herself at me I will obviously do something about it,” he said, and Conan punched him again.

“Don’t say such disgusting things about my wife,” he roared and then he looked at me.

“Are you telling the truth Emma?” he asked me, and I nodded.

“Yes, he left, and I am sure of it. But after that everything is blank,” I said, and he nodded.

He looked at Matt and I watched as he punched him one more time and then dragged him out of the room.

He closed the door behind him and then went to the closet and came back with a dress.

He took off the coat and I watched as he helped me put on the dress.

All this time I watched his actions, I noticed how he didn’t even look me in the eyes.

I know how this looks, but why did Matt do this to me?

Why would he frame me for such a disgusting thing?

He helped me put on a scarf and a coat and then socks and shoes.

“Let’s go,” he said, and I didn’t object and followed him out.

Matt was gone by that time and Conan opened the car door for me and started driving.

I noticed that he was heading to a hospital, and I didn’t say anything to him.

We got there and he got a nurse and I watched as he looked at me.

“I think my wife was raped; can you do a rape kit?” he asked her.

She nodded and walked off somewhere, and I looked at Conan.

“He didn’t rape me; I think I would know if something like that happened. Nothing happened,” I tried to explain, and he looked at me.

“Okay, then there has to be an explanation to why you lost your memory.

Maybe he didn’t touch you, but there must be drugs in your system.

Or maybe whatever he gave you must be numbing the pain or something,” he said.

Even then he still wasn’t looking at me in the eyes.

I nodded and the doctor came and did all that was necessary and then left.

We sat there in silence for an hour and the doctor came back.

“There is no sign of forced entry and there are no drugs in your system,” the doctor said.

“No, that doesn’t make sense. Then why don’t I remember what happened? Did you check thoroughly?” I asked him.

“Yes ma’am, I am certain of what I found,” the doctor said and then walked out.

I looked at Conan and I couldn’t find the words.

“I swear, I didn’t have sex with him. I never seduced him,” I said, and he looked at me and he seemed speechless.

“There are no drugs in your system. You were naked in bed with him and there is no sign of forced entry,” he said and then hit the wall.

“I am happy, I am happy that he didn’t wrong you in any way.

I am happy that he didn’t violate you and that you won’t be tormented for the rest of your life.

But that also breaks my heart because it means you allowed him.

You let him touch you in ways that only I am allowed to touch you,” he said, and I shook my head.

I can’t bear to see him in pain at all.

“Conan, I swear that I don’t know what happened. None of this makes sense,” I said, and he just chuckled but it was filled with pain.

He just got up and left, the doctor came back after some time.

“Your husband asked me to give you some STDs shots ma’am,” he said.

I looked at him.

“Doctor, are you sure that there were no drugs in my system?” I asked him and he nodded.

“Yes, I am certain of this ma’am. The only drugs on your system were contraceptives and nothing else,” he said, and I looked at him confused.

“What do you mean contraceptives?” I asked him and he nodded.

“Yes, it seems you have been taking them regularly,” he said, and I looked at him confused.

“Doctor are you sure? I don’t take any contraceptives,” I said, and he shook his head.

“I am certain ma’am,” he answered, and I frowned at this.

Why would I take contraceptives when we have been trying to conceive for about 6 months now?

Conan and I couldn’t wait to start our own family so why would I do that?

Actually, first things first.

I need to find out why Matt did this to me and why he is lying about all of this.

I got dressed and headed straight to his office and he was in.

 When I walked in, he smirked and raised a glass of whisky.

“Here comes my affair partner, I am surprised you can walk after the hot night we had,” he said, and I scoffed.

“Cut the crap okay, both you and I know nothing happened,” I said and then frowned.

“But I want to know, why are you doing this to me?” I asked him and he frowned.

“Stop it Emma, we have been doing this for months so why are trying to feign ignorance now?” he asked me.

“No, ENOUGH Matt. You are destroying my life; don’t you think that I deserve to know why?” I asked him and he just sighed.

“I don’t owe you anything, security come and take her out,” he said and just like that I was dragged out.

I sat outside of our house for hours in the cold just thinking about all of this.

What does he have to gain for doing all of this?

Why me?

Why is he hell bent on ruining my life?

I walked back home, and the next few days were nothing but dark clouds.

Conan didn’t even sleep in our bed nor ate at home.

I also lost my appetite, I got tired of crying and sat at the balcony. The cold was kind of numbing the pain.

I didn’t even hear him but knew he was there when a warm blanket covered me.

“I forgive you; I know that it must have been a mistake. I can’t lose you, so I will forgive all of this. It will take time for things to go back to normal, but we can work on this,” Conan said.

I looked at him, he wasn’t looking at me in the eyes.

We sat there for hours in silence until the lights were on and I could see the Christmas decorations he had put in place.

This was supposed to be the best Christmas of my life.

It was supposed to be the time of our lives, we should be kissing in the snow.

The next few weeks were just as bad, he slept in the same bed but the distance.

He sat with me at dinner but hardly touched his food and I also didn’t have my appetite.

Who would have an appetite in such a situation.

I don’t even have the power to open my mouth because I know how it looks.

“I will be back in an hour,” he said and then kissed my head before leaving.

I looked at the calendar.

We were happily counting down the days till Christmas and now we now a few days away from Christmas.

That’s when I realized something, I missed my period this month.

And I have been vomiting a lot, my body feels a little heavy now and I am lazy and always sleepy.

I thought it was because of the stress, but is it possible that I am pregnant?