The day was tough for me. I have gone through another battle again, and not so thankfully, I survived. But as I recall my encounter with my parents while looking at the high and mighty building of the Cruz Empire, the guilt is beginning to drown me once again.The movement of my hand never stopped ever since I settled on the pavement near the drainage a few meters away from the building. The pain that was caused by the stunt I pulled earlier was making me sleepy and dizzy.But the pain doesn't even match what my heart is feeling right now. The regret, pain, guilt, and grief all came in together submerging me into a deep ocean of darkness.“For real?! We are going to have a baby?! I'm going to be a Daddy?!”Another ruthless smash on my heart hit me when his excited voice filled my head. I could also feel my excitement during those times. But unlike him, mine was mixed with worry.Because I've always considered that everything could end like this. At first, I
I woke up with an intense pain that I felt in different parts of my body. I no longer remember at what point I fell asleep in the mixture of fatigue and pain I felt before I ended up in this situation.I kept my eyes closed when I heard two people talking from a short distance away from me. They are two but I am familiar with only one voice. I have no clue who was the other one. But upon hearing the words she’s saying, I came to I identified her profession.Even with my eyes shut, I knew where I was. The coldness of the room, the intoxicating smell of medicine, and the familiar mattress where my back rests steadily. I knew that I’m at the hospital.“She has bruises on most parts of her body and I think it came from bumping excessively to hard objects. And there were cuts on her wrist also. From what I’ve seen from it, this wasn’t the first time that she did this to herself. I saw a lot of healed wounds,” the doctor explained, probably to the man who brought me here."Is she suicidal o
"I'm going home," I announced, not minding his intimidating stares at me.He did not answer immediately. He just kept on staring at me without opening his mouth to speak. Maybe he's still in confusion about everything that I blabbered earlier.He sighed first before speaking, finally. “I’ll settle your bills. Wait for me here, I will take you to your house. ”"Great, because I don't have a single penny to pay for my fees," I replied sarcastically.He shook his head before storming out of the room.When I was sure he was gone I hurriedly arranged my hair and the crumpled t-shirt I was wearing yesterday. Despite the difficulty of moving due to the pain, I managed to be presentable again as if I hadn’t slashed last night.The only thing I was thankful for was the fact that I'm not in a hospital gown. I will no longer have difficulty getting dressed and will be able to escape immediately. I don't want to prolong the minutes that I am staying with him.Less connection, less attachment, and
"I went to your house last night and you weren't there. Your CCTV said that some rich people took you. You are still alive because I am still talking to you, what happened?” Katiya said without even stopping on the other line.“CCTV? What CCTV?” I asked in confusion.“Your neighbors. They knew everything about you.”I shook my head. Of course, they never left their eyes on me.I was just looking out of the window and just zone out. I have been with this stranger for more than two hours now. And I don't even know how to address him. Great.“Where are you?” Katiya asked again.“I’m heading home,” I answered.“And those who created a scene in your house?”“My parents. And yes, I'm still alive, obviously,” I replied to her questions earlier. “I lost them already. Not sure when I’d be able to live peacefully for the coming days, though.”“You know I just need a word, Prescilla. I could make them pay in an instant. Just tell me,” Katiya said without any hint of remorse.“Stop it, Katiya. T
“What else do you need? ” Katiya asked while pushing the cart for me.We're at a mall supermarket a few blocks from my apartment. I was supposed to go alone but Katiya surprised me with her presence behind my door. She seems to be making sure I'm still alive after the encounter with my parents.I silently looked at the cart she was pushing. There were lots of things inside that were mostly composed of table cloth, a lighter, and packaging tape. There is also a rope that was two meters long.Only a few spaces of the cart were occupied by foods and beverages that I needed for my supplies. I also have no plans to stock up on food because I plan to leave my place after what I’ll do two weeks from now.I didn't want to stay there any longer because my parents were unlikely to return to pick me up again. I don't want any more physical pain when I run away so I'll be the one to move away so there's no more trouble."That's fine. Everything’s in," I replied.She took her eyes off me before le
I could feel my eyebrows meeting at the center of my forehead as I stared at the man sitting now on the chair in my apartment. It was my only seat, and he sat on it as if he owned it after entering the place I was renting.He sits comfortably on the hard chair with his legs crossed and his elbow resting on the table as he lays his temple on itI don’t know why he came here. Unannounced at that. If I could remember it correctly, I made it clear to him that I don't want any more of our interaction and connection.I was surprised by his presence when he was the one I opened the door for earlier after I put away the things that Katiya and I had bought. I wasn't expecting anyone, much more this man. I didn't even invite him to enter my apartment but he invited himself in. And before I could even realize it, he's already inside and sitting.“What are you doing here?” I asked with a knotted forehead.I took an Indian seat on my bamboo bed because there were no other seats available. I only h
Flashbacks of my memories with Harris immediately filled my head. I was still in the parking lot, but I was already overwhelmed by the happy memories we once shared.Our images came into view as if they only happened yesterday. How he took care of me as I entered his car. How he would carry the groceries all with his vacant arm possessively wrapped around my shoulder. The sound of our laughter echoed in my head when I announced my pregnancy to him, in the same parking lot where I am currently standing.I couldn’t help but ask myself. If those were the days we were happy and content with each other, was something wrong? When did it start to go wrong? Or even at that time, it was destined to cut short the momentary fun for us? Or if it just so happens that on other occasions I find out things that have ignited everything, will the problem between the two of us continue?The first step I took weighed the same as the growing pain in my chest. It
I slowly looked at him with hopeful eyes. My heart was still hopeful to hear the words I wanted from him. But minutes passed, and with every tick of the clock the heaviness I am feeling inside doubled.His silence is the answer. From the way, he looked away and how his face paled, I knew that he would never say the words that I wanted to hear.And it's hurting me so badly thinking that he was never truthful about our relationship. Or if only he was truthful enough, the chances are more likely that the lie would still prevail. May it be in the form of words or actions.“Your answer is still no, right? Am I correct?" I asked in pain.“Priscilla...” she called in a soft voice.“What we have is bound to come to an end. I know that, and you definitely know that.” I gently touched his face with my one hand and made him look at me. “You wanted a way out. It was part of your plan to leave me. It just so happened that I go