LOGINThe lights hummed.
Not loud. Not soft. Just there—constant, buzzing, wrong. They pressed against her skull, vibrating through bone and thought alike, like they were trying to keep her awake even as her body fought to disappear. Somewhere, far away, a machine beeped in uneven intervals. Too fast. Then too slow. Then fast again. Someone was speaking. A woman’s voice. Controlled, but threaded with strain. “Blood pressure’s falling again.” Another voice followed, deeper, clipped, professional. “She’s not responding to fluids.” A third voice—sharper this time. Urgent. “We need to move faster.” Move faster. The words drifted toward her, bumping into one another without meaning. She tried to grab onto them, but they slid through her mind like water through open fingers. Her body felt… heavy. Anchored. As if gravity had increased without warning and pinned her down from the inside. Something twisted low in her abdomen. Pain flared—hot, sudden, terrifying. A breath tore out of her chest, sharp and involuntary, and her fingers curled weakly against the sheets. “There—did you see that?” “She moved.” Gloved hands pressed against her stomach. Not rough, but firm enough to make her want to cry out. Cold seeped into her skin. Antiseptic. Plastic. Latex. “Miss,” someone said gently, close to her ear. “Can you hear me?” Miss. The word echoed. Miss what? Her name hovered just out of reach, like it was waiting on the tip of her tongue but refused to be spoken. She knew she had one. She knew it mattered. But every time she reached for it, pain pulled her back under. Another cramp ripped through her, stronger this time, dragging a sob from deep in her chest. “She’s bleeding.” The room seemed to freeze around that single word. Bleeding. A pressure built inside her, heavy and wrong, as if her body was trying to rid itself of something it couldn’t protect. Fear surged—not sharp, not clear, but deep and instinctive. No. The thought came unbidden, raw and desperate. No, no, no— “She’s pregnant.” The voice was quieter now. Careful. The air shifted. “What?” someone asked. “There’s a fetal heartbeat,” the voice continued. “Faint. But it’s there.” Heartbeat. Something in her chest clenched painfully, as if her body recognized the word before her mind did. “How far along?” “Six weeks. Maybe seven.” Silence stretched—thick, heavy, loaded. “And the bleeding?” “Significant.” Her breath came shallow now, uneven, like her lungs had forgotten how to do their job properly. Darkness pressed in from the edges of her vision, curling inward. “Miss,” the nurse said again, firmer now. “Stay with us. Please.” Stay. She wanted to. God, she wanted to. But the pain surged again, white-hot and relentless, and her body arched weakly off the bed before hands restrained her gently but firmly. “No—don’t let her move.” “She’s hypotensive.” “We’re losing her pressure.” The words blurred together, stacking on top of each other until they became noise—too much, too fast. Then— Nothing. “Her pressure’s unstable.” “And the pregnancy?” “If we don’t stabilize her, there won’t be anything left to save.” The truth of it sat heavily in the room, ugly and unavoidable. A shoe scuffed against the floor near the doorway. “I can tell you her name.” The voice cut through the tension like a blade. Not loud. Not rushed. Just steady. Everyone turned. He stood just inside the doorway, tall enough that his head nearly brushed the frame. He looked out of place in the sterile brightness of the emergency room—too solid, too real. His skin was a deep, rich brown, stretched tight over a body held rigid with restraint. He wore dark clothes that looked slept in, wrinkled from hours spent pacing or driving or waiting for something that refused to come. His eyes were what held them. Dark. Almost black. Rimmed red, like he hadn’t slept in days—or like sleep had abandoned him entirely. They were locked on the bed, on the woman lying motionless beneath the tangle of wires and tubes. “Iris,” he said. “Her name is Iris Morris.” The nurse frowned slightly. “You’re sure?” “Yes.” No hesitation. The doctor studied him more closely now—the clenched fists at his sides, the tension pulling his shoulders forward, the way his chest barely rose when he breathed. “And you are to her?” the doctor asked. A pause. Long enough to be noticed. “I’m family.” The word settled into the room, unanswered questions trailing behind it. The doctor nodded once. “She’s pregnant. There’s been heavy bleeding. We’re trying to stabilize her, but she’s at risk of miscarriage.” The man’s jaw tightened. His eyes flickered—just once—to her abdomen, then back to her face. “Can I see her?” he asked. “She’s unconscious.” “I know.” “She may not—” “I know,” he repeated, softer now. “Please.” The nurse hesitated, then stepped aside. “Just for a minute.” The curtain rustled softly. He didn’t move at first. Seeing her like this—so still, so pale—hit him harder than he’d expected. Harder than the news. Harder than the fear that had clawed at him the entire drive here. She looked… breakable. Tubes ran from her arms, machines blinking steadily beside her. Her hair was tangled across the pillow, her lashes dark against skin drained of color. Her lips were parted slightly, breath shallow, uneven. He crossed the space between them in unsteady steps, one hand gripping the edge of the bed as if the ground itself had turned unreliable. “Iris…” Her name fractured on his tongue. He sank into the chair beside her, long frame folding inward, shoulders caving under a weight he’d been holding back for far too long. “Oh—God.” His hands hovered over her, trembling. He didn’t know where it was safe. Didn’t know what he was allowed to touch. Didn’t know how much she could feel. Slowly, carefully, he reached for her hand. Warm. Still warm. The relief shattered him. A sound broke loose from his chest—raw, broken—and tears spilled freely now, streaking down his face as he bowed his head over her knuckles. “You scared me,” he whispered, voice thick. “You always do this. You disappear when things hurt too much.” He let out a shaky breath, something between a laugh and a sob. “And I’m always the one trying to find you.” Her fingers twitched. Just barely. His head snapped up. “Iris?” Nothing. He swallowed hard, nodding to himself like he understood. Like he wasn’t asking for too much. “I know,” he said hoarsely. “You don’t have to wake up yet. Just—stay. Stay with me.” His grip tightened, careful not to hurt her. “I’m here,” he whispered. “I’ve got you. Both of you.” The machines continued their steady rhythm. Outside the curtain, voices murmured. Plans were being made. Decisions hovering just out of reach. Inside, the man who walked in as a stranger stayed exactly where he was—holding her hand, anchoring her to the world—refusing to let go.She turned her head toward him.“Chris.”He looked up immediately. Too fast. Like he’d been afraid she’d change her mind.“I need you to declare me dead.”The words landed cleanly. No shaking. No hesitation.Chris stared at her.“What?”She didn’t look away. “I need you to make it public. Say I didn’t make it. That I died from the injuries.”His mouth opened, then closed again. He leaned back slightly, like she’d reached out and shoved him.“No,” he said. “No, that’s—Iris, that’s insane.”“Mia,” she corrected quietly.His jaw tightened. “Whatever name you want to use. I’m not doing that.”She inhaled slowly, carefully. Every breath still felt like a negotiation.“You have to,” she said.“I absolutely do not.”“You do.”“No,” he repeated, firmer this time. “I won’t lie about you being dead. Do you have any idea what that means?”“Yes.”“You’re asking me to erase you.”She smiled faintly. Not happy. Not sad. Just… certain. “I’m asking you to protect me.”“By killing you off?”“By lettin
The decision arrived the way most things did lately—without ceremony, without asking whether she was ready.Two doctors stood at the foot of Mia’s bed. One older, hair threaded with gray, eyes careful. The other younger, clipped, efficient, already half-thinking about the next patient. A nurse hovered near the door, tablet hugged to her chest.Chris stood off to the side.He hadn’t moved since they started talking.“We’ve reviewed the scans again,” the older doctor said. “There are multiple fragments of glass embedded in the abdominal cavity. Some are dangerously close to the uterus.”Mia’s fingers tightened in the blanket.The younger doctor continued. “Because you’ve declined termination, our options here are limited. We can stabilize you temporarily, but the surgery required is highly specialized.”“Where?” Mia asked. Her voice sounded distant to her own ears.The older doctor hesitated, then answered, “England. There’s a maternal trauma unit equipped to handle this kind of case wh
The room had gone quiet again.Not empty—never empty in a hospital—but settled into that strange pause between interruptions. Machines hummed. A cart rattled somewhere down the corridor. Voices rose and fell beyond the door, lives moving on while hers stayed pinned to this narrow bed.Mia stared at the ceiling, counting nothing.Chris stood near the window.He hadn’t sat. Hadn’t leaned. Just stood there with his hands in his pockets, shoulders stiff, like he didn’t trust himself to relax. The fluorescent light caught the side of his face—sharp cheekbone, jaw clenched hard enough to ache. His skin was a deep, warm, familiar in a way that made her chest tighten without permission. He looked taller than she remembered, or maybe she was just smaller now, trapped under wires and sheets and too many things she couldn’t escape.She broke the silence first.“Why are you here?”Her voice surprised her. Steadier than she felt. Low. Flat.Chris turned from the window slowly, like the movement co
Mia came back to herself in pieces.Not all at once—never all at once. First the ache. A deep, spreading soreness that made her feel like she’d been folded wrong and left that way. Then the sounds. Low voices. Shoes on tile. A monitor ticking out a rhythm she didn’t recognize but somehow knew was hers.Her eyelids fluttered.She didn’t open them.She listened.“…pressure’s holding for now.”“For now,” another voice echoed. Male. Tired.“We’ve done what we can medically. But the pregnancy is complicating things.”That word snagged.Pregnancy.Her breath stuttered, shallow and instinctive. A hand—hers—twitched weakly against the sheet.“Internal bleeding is under control,” a woman continued. “But if it spikes again, we’re out of options.”There was a pause. The kind doctors used when they were bracing for impact.“To save her, we’d need to terminate.”The word landed heavily.Terminate.Something inside her snapped awake.No.The thought came sharp and clear, louder than the pain, loude
The lights hummed. Not loud. Not soft. Just there—constant, buzzing, wrong. They pressed against her skull, vibrating through bone and thought alike, like they were trying to keep her awake even as her body fought to disappear. Somewhere, far away, a machine beeped in uneven intervals. Too fast. Then too slow. Then fast again. Someone was speaking. A woman’s voice. Controlled, but threaded with strain. “Blood pressure’s falling again.” Another voice followed, deeper, clipped, professional. “She’s not responding to fluids.” A third voice—sharper this time. Urgent. “We need to move faster.” Move faster. The words drifted toward her, bumping into one another without meaning. She tried to grab onto them, but they slid through her mind like water through open fingers. Her body felt… heavy. Anchored. As if gravity had increased without warning and pinned her down from the inside. Something twisted low in her abdomen. Pain flared—hot, sudden, terrifying. A breath tore out of her
Light came first.Too bright. Too close.It pressed against the inside of her eyelids like a question she wasn’t ready to answer. Mia tried to turn away from it, but her body didn’t follow. Something tugged at her from everywhere at once—sharp in her ribs, dull and throbbing in her head, a deep ache that felt stitched into her bones.A sound slipped out of her. Not a word. Just breath. Thin. Broken.“Ma'am?”The voice was distant. Female. Calm in that practiced way that never meant calm. It meant trained.She swallowed. Or tried to. Her throat felt raw, scraped clean. Her mouth tasted like metal and something bitter she couldn’t place.“Stay with us,” the voice said again.With us.Her mind snagged on the word. Us.She opened her eyes. Or maybe they opened themselves. The world came back in pieces—white ceiling tiles swimming into focus, a harsh light overhead, shadows moving where people should have been. Everything looked wrong. Too loud.Hospital.The word arrived slowly, like it h







