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ANARA’s POV
"Hurry or we'll be late."
"But the event doesn't even start in an hour." The second voice was breathless, panting.
I scrambled to my feet and hurried over to the window just as the first voice said, "I can't wait to see the decorations in the pack"
"Who cares about the decorations? I can't wait to see Princess Lyra's dress for the occasion. I heard real diamonds were sewn into her”
This was followed by a scream as the girl who had spoken first pointed at me.
"It's just her," she spat out.
The look on the girl and her friend's faces were the same: disgust. I pictured how monstrous I was with my face pressed up against the glass of the single minuscule window in my room. The taller of the two girls took the other’s hand and they scurried off as if they were scared that if I gazed at them for too long, I would taint their fine clothes. I retreated and waited till I couldn't hear their feet step any more.
I waited a couple of minutes more, to be sure that no one else was coming, before I went out of doors.
It was a moonlit night, and you could almost smell the excitement and anticipation. In the distance, at the top of the hill, there were a thousand pretty lights, strung up all around the grounds, columns and pillars of the pack like fairies. The east wind brought in the scent of the delectable food they were making for the feast. I cupped my hand over my belly when I sensed a pang of hunger there. Maybe I can scavenge some of their leftovers when they finish eating.
"Out of the way, you!" growled a voice from behind me. I dodged to the side quickly as a portly, red-faced man laden with heavy trays hurtled past me. He turned back once to glare at me and muttered a few choice swear words. Again, my eyes were drawn to the pack where a banquet would be held in about an hour from now, in celebration of my sister, Princess Lyra's first shift.
The girl had said Lyra's dress was stitched with real diamonds. I sighed as I ran my hands over my own threadbare clothes that had seen too many washings. It was hard to believe sometimes that Lyra and I were sisters, twins actually. The vast difference between us was laughable, if I had been able to laugh at my own plight, that is.
Lyra lived in the sumptuously furnished pack. I lived in a little run-down house on the pack grounds with a tiny window, a leaky roof and walls whose large cracks I covered regularly with stiff pieces of cardboard.
Lyra was pampered, and was given everything she wanted. I did my own laundry, got my meals from the kitchen along with the workers in the pack. I almost always got food after everyone else had eaten. This meant I usually got scraps, burnt, unwanted portions, or most times, no food at all.
And all this ill, unfair treatment stemmed from an ancient prophecy of the Nightveil pack. This prophecy had changed my life for the worse, and so I had it etched in my brain. I closed my eyes. Even now I could see every word of that prophecy written in an old book with yellowed pages which I had read obsessively over and over again, as though by doing so I could change what was written in it.
'Let the prince and peasant, the highborn and lowborn of the Nightveil pack beware. Let them heed the signs and the portents for it is written; two children, twins, will be born. The one shall be full of light, laughter and love, a leader who will bind and unify. Its dark twin shall seek to destroy, to kill and ruin. Its powers and influence shall grow until Nightveil is buried in dust and ashes…’
And so after my mother had given birth to Lyra and I she had come up with the idea of hiding one of us until our destinies were clearer. She figured the people of Nightveil might have plotted to kill one of us because of the prophecy. Personally, I thought she was right. Fear made people do terrible things. I, Anara Valen was the twin who had been hidden. Only few people knew my identity. I was happy and well cared for. Things dramatically changed after my mother, the queen, died under mysterious circumstances. My father turned against me. Lyra did too. My father had somehow become convinced that I was the evil twin spoken about in the prophecy. I was alienated, forced to live the life of a servant on the pack grounds. I was miserable and alone until...
A smile curved my lips as I remembered the day I turned 16. The day I owned my wolf, Seraphis. She was not the regular kind of wolf others in the pack had. She was unique, powerful, a wolf who had inherited the wisdom and memories of the Valen family's generation of wolves. The first time I had phased into my wolf form, I had been so excited, but even now, Seraphis's warning rang in my ears.
'Don't tell anyone you own your wolf now,' she had said. 'Keep it a secret so they don't make things tougher for you.’
It was advice I had immediately heeded.
Now, my wolf stirred as she caught a scent I had never perceived before. It was not a scent of food or of anything I could place. I strained to stay put, but whatever was emitting that scent tugged so intensely at me that my legs were moving me along; past my house, down the trail to the pack gardens where a hundred different flowers blossomed. The garden’s sole dwellers were two forms that were, it seemed, shaped to fit one another.
I realized three things simultaneously; The figures were kissing. One of them was my sister. The man she was making out with was my mate. Before I could even hold myself back, I gave out a noise that was part-whine, part-moan.
The couple separated instantly. I was so focused on the tall blond man who was looking straight at me, horror written across his face, that I didn’t see anything else. His nostrils flared and I knew he could scent it as well, that smell that informed him what we were to one another.
'Mate,' Seraphis purred.
My heart beat so fast in excitement, then began to beat in dread as he gave me a once over.
"You?" he said in a deep voice that matched his build. "How the hell are you also my mate?”
POV: KaelenThe winter pack gathering was the largest event the pack held each year, the one occasion when every member of the territory was expected to be present and most of them were, because the winter gathering had a specific character that the other seasonal gatherings did not have, a quality of taking stock and affirming continuation, the communal act of looking at the full assembly of yourselves and deciding you were still the same people you had been and were going to keep being them. He had stood at the front of the great hall for every winter gathering of his Alpha tenure, which was now many years of them, and he had found them meaningful without finding them surprising. He had not expected to be surprised by this one.Anara came through the doors of the great hall at the seventh hour of the evening with the child against her chest, wrapped in the pale winter shawl that had been their grandmother's and was now hers, and the great hall did something he had never felt it do i
POV: AnaraThe letter from her father had been sitting on the writing desk for three days. She had not hidden it and she had not displayed it and she had not mentioned it to anyone because she had needed three days to understand what she felt about it before she could decide what to do with it. She had read it seven times. Each reading produced a slightly different version of the thing it made her feel, which was not unusual for correspondence from people who were complicated, and her father was nothing if not complicated in the specific way of people who had once been capable of love and had let that capability atrophy through years of choosing other things and were now, apparently, attempting to restore it.She showed it to Kaelen on the evening of the third day.She handed it to him across the dinner table without saying anything and he took it and read it with the care he brought to all the things that mattered to her, not quickly, not with the quality
POV: AnaraShe had been prepared this time. The first full moon after the birth she had been caught off-guard by the quality of what the bond carried from him, the specific grinding effort of it, the full moon cost that the curse still extracted even now, weakened as it was. The second full moon she had been ready but had hesitated at the door of the east wing room because hesitating had felt like the respectful thing, which she had later identified as incorrect reasoning and had been annoyed with herself about. The third full moon she did not hesitate. She went directly to the east wing room the moment the bond told her where he was and what the quality of him was, and she opened the door and she went in.He was on the floor. Not unconscious, not in crisis, but with the specific quality of someone who was managing something at the absolute edge of what they could manage, holding the line through discipline alone, which was where she always found him on full moon nights and which she
POV: AnaraShe woke at two in the morning and his side of the bed was empty and cool, which meant he had been gone for a while. The bond told her immediately where he was, the specific warm quality of him that she had learned to locate in the bond the way you located a familiar voice in a crowd, and it placed him in the nursery, which was not unusual. He went there sometimes in the night. She had known this for weeks and had not said anything about it, the same way she did not say anything about several of the things she had discovered him doing that fell outside the version of him that the world had been allowed to see.She got up and went to the nursery doorway and stopped.He was in the chair with the child against his chest in the position he had developed in the first weeks, the specific arrangement of his arm that supported the child's weight and kept their head at exactly the right angle, which she knew he had worked out through careful iteration and had felt his satisfaction t
POV: AnaraIt had been changing since the birth and she had not said anything about it for three weeks because she had been trying to understand it properly before she put it into language, and she had learned that the bond did not always yield to language quickly and that patience with it was the better approach. But at dinner on a Tuesday evening she looked at Kaelen across the table and decided she had waited long enough and she said, without preamble, "The pack bond is different."He set down his fork. He had the specific quality of attention he brought to things she said that he had not been expecting and considered important, the quality of someone who was rearranging whatever was at the front of his mind to make room for whatever she was bringing him. "Different how," he said."Larger," she said. "More specific. I can feel individual people in it now with a clarity I did not have before. Not just the general warmth of the collective. Specific people. This morning I felt Elder V
POV: AnaraIt had been changing since the birth and she had not said anything about it for three weeks because she had been trying to understand it properly before she put it into language, and she had learned that the bond did not always yield to language quickly and that patience with it was the better approach. But at dinner on a Tuesday evening she looked at Kaelen across the table and decided she had waited long enough and she said, without preamble, "The pack bond is different."He set down his fork. He had the specific quality of attention he brought to things she said that he had not been expecting and considered important, the quality of someone who was rearranging whatever was at the front of his mind to make room for whatever she was bringing him. "Different how," he said."Larger," she said. "More specific. I can feel individual people in it now with a clarity I did not have before. Not just the general warmth of the collective. Specific people. This morning I felt Elder V
Kaelen"You are not telling me something," I said.She looked up from her correspondence. The bond had been carrying a quality for several days that I had not been able to name precisely, which was unusual because the bond was generally specific. Not distress. Not anxiety. Something that had weight
Anara"Say it," he said."Say what?" I said."You know exactly what," he said.We were in the bedroom on a Saturday afternoon with the curtains drawn and the room carrying the particular warm atmosphere of a room that had been fully decided upon. He was above me with the expression that had stopped
KaelenThe tree was exactly as I remembered it.That should not have surprised me and did anyway. The split at the base into three separate trunks. The particular arrangement that had made it the best climbing tree on the entire territory when we were children, because the split gave you a standing
AnaraHe came on a Tuesday afternoon.I was at the window above the entrance hall and I was not admitting to myself that I was waiting there on purpose, though Seraphis found this particular self-deception quietly amusing in a way she was not attempting to conceal from me.Kaelen was at the gate wh







