This Is Too Hard

My father looked as though he was about to actually pass out at the thought of telling me the truth. I stood there quietly crying, and more than anxiously waiting for him to tell me why I couldn't just marry Lucas in order to not be taken. He held his breath for way too long, which quickly infuriated me. He stood there staring off into space for a really long time. He looked as though he was a million miles away at the moment, and I felt as though I was going to fucking explode right then and there.

I waited as long as I could, trying my best to give him time to get his shit together, until I just couldn't wait anymore, my temper had gotten the best of me.

"Just tell me!" I finally shouted at him, while clenching my fists and stomping my foot like a spoiled child, snapping him back from his thoughts. He blinked his eyes manically for a second, and then he came back to our conversation. Tears started to quietly fall down his worried cheeks again, all on their own, and his face instantly