Lose Everything

[Travis’ POV]

"Marissa," the name danced on my tongue as I continued to stand in place feeling my heart shatter into a million pieces. "Why?"

I stared out the window into the night, trying to make sense of what was going on. Marissa was gone. She was gone, not only physically but mentally too. How had one of the happiest moments of my life turned into something so fucking painful I was having trouble breathing? After all the time I spent trying to find her and then to get her to open up to me, how could this have happened?

Turning, I took in the shocked faces of our ceremony until my eyes came to rest on my beta, Chris. His face was impassive, but there was a satisfied gleam in his eyes as he hugged Trinity close to his side. Despite her attempt at looking shocked, I didn't miss the proud look that colored her features.

"You," I growled, feeling a surge of rage. "YOU DID THIS!"

Unable to control my emotions, I surged forward. I didn’t give a damn if she was a woman; it was her fault that Marissa was gone and she needed to pay! I was going to rip her to pieces with my bare hands and then make her repent for the rest of her fucking life!

"Hey!" Thomas yelped, rushing forward and stepping in the way, blocking Chris and Trinity from my sight. "Calm down, man."

"CALM DOWN!" I roared, beginning to fight the large man that was keeping me away from the person I wished to kill. "HOW THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO CALM DOWN?"

"Do you think fighting is what needs to be done right now?" Thomas snapped, trying to help me think rationally. "Instead, shouldn’t we be out there looking for Marissa?"

Look for Marissa...

"He’s right." Kim huffed, stepping forward and kicking me in the shin. "Every moment spent here acting like a complete idiot is a minute too long."

"R-right," I huffed, shooting another glare towards Trinity, who now had tears streaming down her face. "STOP CRYING!" I growled, causing her to whimper and position herself behind Chris. If I wasn't already infuriated, her pathetic act really would have set me off. How could she be so fucking hypocritical?

"Travis, watch your tone!" Chris hissed. "Don’t think I’m above kicking your ass."

"Try it!"

I watched as Chris moved forward, pulling his tie loose and then ripping off his shirt. As he grew closer, his hands balled into fists and he readied himself for an attack. 

"EVERYONE JUST CALM DOWN!" Thomas snarled, causing the entire room to fall silent. "WE ARE WASTING TIME!"

"Come on, Thomas." Kim sighed, grabbing Thomas’ wrist. "If these two testosterone-filled assholes want to fight, let them. We need to go find Marissa!"

"Yeah." Thomas agreed, letting me go. "Do what you want, man."

"What I want?" I repeated, trying to get my wits about me. "I want to..."

Before I could get the rest of the words out, Chris’ fist connected with my jaw, stunning me long enough to finally snap out of my rage-filled haze.

"Thanks for that." I smirked.

Taking advantage of Chris’ confusion, I lashed out, punching him in the solar plexus. Letting out a gasp, Chris collapsed on the ground in front of me as exclamations of shock and disbelief escaped those who were watching the whole ordeal.

"Consider this a favor." I chuckled, meeting Chris’ angry gaze. "Next time you step up to me, your punishment will be worse."

Finished speaking, I ripped my coat off and rolled up my sleeves. Turning, I fixed my gaze on the hole that Marissa had created and began to move, launching myself out of it. I braced myself as I fell towards the earth. When my feet connected with solid ground, I broke into a run, keeping my gaze fixed on the four figures that were quickly disappearing into the woods just beyond my pack grounds.

However, before I could close the distance between us, a loud boom sounded, shaking the ground beneath my feet. Whirling around, I watched as the bottom floor of the packhouse blew out, spraying debris and glass across the earth beyond.

A gasp escaped me as another explosion happened and another, causing the entire structure to collapse entirely in on itself.

"What the hell is going on?" Thomas growled, appearing beside me. "An attack?"

"Dammit!" I hissed, looking in the direction Marissa had disappeared and back towards the pack house. 

My heart began to race in my chest as I struggled with where to go. One part of me wanted to continue to chase after Marissa, but the other couldn’t just abandon my pack and those who may have survived the blast.

"Fuck! Kim!" I yelled, looking over my shoulder. "You and the others go search for Marissa. "I can’t leave my pack to fend for themselves!"

"Alright!" Kim called, quickly disappearing into the treeline.

"Let me help you." Thomas murmured, placing a hand on my shoulder.

"Alright."

Pushing aside the anxiousness I felt towards not going after Marissa, I ran towards the chaotic scene that was beginning to unfold in front of me. I watched as people began to scatter from the blaze that was now consuming the packhouse. Incoherent screams filled the air around us as those who made it out frantically searched for their loved ones.

Quickening my pace, I threw myself into the fray, taking count of those that were out and alive and those who were injured, while searching for my beta and delta. Even though Chris and I weren’t on good terms, I needed his help handling what was happening. If he had any sense of duty, he would help.

"Sir!" Ace called, emerging from the flames.

"Ace, what's the status of inside the building?"

"Destroyed." Ace responded, closing the distance between us. "Many died with the first explosion."

"Mmm." For now, I would have to focus on finding those who survived. After that, we take count of the dead and hold a proper burial for them, even if there wasn’t a body. "Have you seen Chris?"

"Chris and Trinity disappeared before the chaos." Ace responded. "I’m not sure where they went."

"And my grandfather and cousin?"

I didn’t need a response from Ace as his mouth turned into an angry grimace. It seemed that he too had a general idea of who was responsible for this attack. Dammit! Why didn’t I push more to prove their guilt before this? Thanks to my carelessness, too much was now lost.