Going out for some air would refresh all of our minds a bit, not to mention that it would also make Hazel happy.
When we returned it was already quite dark, I would say everything went fine even though he had barely spoken no more than two words to me, it felt as though he was avoiding me.
Hazel's eyes were already drooping closed when the car drove to a stop. We entered the house and I quickly ran her a bath and tucked her in bed.
Some time later I noticed his presence behind me
"She's asleep " I whispered
He nodded slowly and took a sit beside the bed , his hand brushing over mine, I looked up wondering if it had been intentional, wordlessly we watched
HAYDENThe conversation with dad ended, I wonder how he got to know about everything despite being away.But then I didn't have to wonder for long, it could only have been one person.He wanted to meet them... Most especially his granddaughter.My face was settled permanently in a dark scowl.They weren't ready yet.Most importantly I wanted to spend every of my time with them. After our conversation this morning I felt a little change in me, it was a little sense of reassurance that had spread through my heartShe needed me... And she wouldn't leave me. I didn't want to ruin anything by disappointing her, getting her to know about our business and the sort of things we do may be too fast and might just scare her away.That was the fucking last thing I neededFuck.This was going to be way much harder than I would ever have thought.I wished the three o
GRACIE"Love me Gracie! " his voice cracked out filled with raw emotions that made his gaze seemed darker and stormy."I will..." I found myself whispering passionately.He made no move to touch me other from the firm grip that held me against his hard chest ....i could feel the tenseness radiating off his muscles....His laboured breath indicated that he was fighting an internal battle with himself . He was trying to hold himself back.I realized slowly that he was giving me an opportunity to choose if I wanted him or not ...the thought took my breath away and at the same time made me feel....needed and gave me a sense of freedom.His gaze held mine like a spell, like a dangerous, delirious kind of magic. I swallowed, my heart thrummed with anticipation and an inexplicable, unidentifiable hunger.The air got so thick , it became hard to draw in a breath.A hot pool of need spread from my lower stomach
GRACIETwo weeks went by in a blink of an eye , he really trying hard to be a better person to me and Hazel, but some days he would just snap, then apologize afterwards. It wasn't easy ,but I understood, I was willing to be patient until the day his demons were finally going to be let free..Although he fought it, I still feel it though, the darkness was still in there ... Still buried inside of him, waiting for the slightest opportunity to claw out of their temporary cage. He became more possessive than ever, like he would never let me out of his sight even for a minute , it elated me but at the same time I was scared.Some nights I would wake up to find him awake, his gaze studying me. But he's never hurt me. I knew he wouldn't....but I couldn't say for sure what would happen if I tried to leave, not that I would try to, but the anxiety that he was getting way too obsessed with me was distur
GRACIEMy gaze slowly opened to the bright morning light, the first thing I noticed was the empty space on the bed besides me.After our argument yesterday we haven't spoken to each other...Even through out dinner last night he appeared to be keeping his distance from me, I couldn't help thinking it was my fault that we were back to this stage once again.Last night he'd only entered into the room and lay down besides me when it was already so late, he probably had thought that I had fallen asleep, and this morning he was gone even before I could wake up.I closed my eyes inhaling deeply , how long was this going to continue?My ears caught the sound of water running and my attention directed at the closed bathroom door.I pushed away the sheets and made my way out of the bed, i don't know for how long I stood outside the bathroom door , I inhaled sharply then struggled for another a
GRACIEA huge mahogany desk separated us from the middle aged man who bore a striking resemblance to Hayden, though his eyes were not as deep as Hayden's, by what I presumed was due to age, the sides of his hair were streaked with grey, he stood tall , just about a few inches below Hayden. His presence demanding power despite his advanced age.His gaze followed us as we made our way further inside the huge study .My stomach tightened with just a hint of nervousness as he completed the distance between us, his gaze focused on all three of us"Father " he acknowledged with a slight nod of his head .I don't think he realized Hayden had spoken , his attention was solely fixed on Hazel who stared right back at him in open curiosity .I saw a hint of softness in his gaze which slowly transformed into a small smile ,that alone set me a little at ease."Hello dear child " He spok
GRACIE"That you're going to remember, and you'll begin to despise me once again..."The anguish in his voice tore at my heart"I'm afraid of that....so afraid " his whispered was tight and gut wrenching. His gaze burned with bright intensity against the dimly lit room.He gaze not only mirrored the deep anguish in his voice, deep down I think he hated himself , he despised that he hurt me but at the same time couldn't let me go....I held his gaze, inhaling and exhaling repeatedly to control my quivering insides.."Do you know when I left years ago , I had felt so lost.....like I had lost the only person who needed me, the only person who would always be there when I opened my eyes whether I wanted it or not... "My voice cracked tight as I remembered those nights filled with bitter tears , it still seemed like only yesterday.I rev
GRACIEAmongst Hayden and Hazel stood the person I had seen last six years ago.His elder brother SebastianI made my way towards them, my gaze traveled from Hazel, then towards Hayden, before it finally settled on him.I stared at him for a moment...he changed since the time I had last seen him , If not for his personality I would have thought he looked a little nervous, well he had every right to feel so considering what he did to me. "Mommy look, did you know I also had an uncle! " Hazel exclaimed breaking the silence.My gaze found Hayden's for a moment, the corners of his lips quirked slightly in the tiniest bit of a smile..... A real one, it made my breath hitched until Hazel spoke again breaking our little trance."So will you go with me to see my dolls now? I got a new one last week, mommy even sewed a new cloth for it " she spoke with a proud excitement Sebastian didn't return.He had a look the look of dismay that almo
GRACIE.I clutched the book firmly in my hand , still pondering on what had happened earlier. The woman had introduced herself as Melissa, if I wasn't mistaken she'd looked eager to speak to me, I had seen the look in her eyes, almost like she had found me familiar.Strange. We haven't met each other before today, also, she had looked like she was about to say more to me before another middle aged man had walked inside.They had apparently came together came together and she'd addressed him as father.It seemed they were close with Hayden's father because he had welcomed them himself. Just before they had disappeared inside the study she'd cast me a last lingering glance. Was i just thinking too much about it? She was just some random stranger, for sure I would have remembered if I have ever met her. With a small sigh I placed the book back on the shelf neatly , I still couldn't stop myself from wondering why she had introduced her