LOGINDespite being married by contract, Fiona Clarke believed her husband could love her as much as she had loved him from the first day she met him. But as soon as his first love returned to town, Sebastian Blackwood filed for divorce. Devastated, Fiona had to face a different direction in her life despite loving him silently. After all, she was there when he needed her most, but now he was discarding her as if she were nothing more than a surrogate wife. But Sebastian misses her and realizes that Fiona is the woman he always longed for, but it seems too late for reconciliation since a man of interest is comforting Fiona.
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When I was like this, in my husband’s arms making such good love, it felt like the rest of the world vanished before our eyes, and it was just him and me and the magic of our love. But that magic always shattered soon after the passion and desire faded, and we went back to acting like two strangers sharing the same bed. I saw Sebastian coming back from the bathroom, already wearing his pajamas, and the mattress sank beside me when he lay down. As always, he turned his back to me, as if the fiery, passionate love we’d just made minutes ago meant nothing to him; just a need, not because he truly loved me, and that hurt so much. I stared at his broad back for a moment as my heart sank deeper into sadness, then turned my back to him too, already realizing there wasn’t much I could do to change it. But in that moment, something so unusual happened that I thought I was dreaming. Sebastian hugged me. I felt his heavy arm over me, his large hand gripping my waist and pulling me toward him, then my back pressed against his body. My heart nearly leapt out of my chest. I mean, like any wife, of course, all I wanted was to cuddle with my husband, especially after passionate sex. I wanted to lie there quietly, feeling the warmth of his body as his arms enveloped me, but that never happened, so I had to settle for its absence. But today… today was different. My eyes darted around as I tried to figure out what I might have done differently to earn this, but nothing came to mind, especially since I always tried my hardest to please him. Could he finally be realizing that he loved me and wanted to make us work? He was holding me tightly with both arms, caressing my body as if he wanted to map it out. His heart beat strong and steady, and I nearly melted in his embrace. Sebastian I rubbed my forehead against his stubbled chin, feeling that sensation of pleasure spreading through my entire body. He finally wanted to give us a chance... Things could start to change; we could start being a real couple from now on, doing couple things like holding hands, walking our dog, or even having babies… “I needed to do this,” he confessed, his voice so low it was almost a whisper, still holding me tightly in his arms. I smiled widely My chest bursted with excitement. Then he said, “Fiona, I’m sorry. But I want a divorce.” I lifted my face to look at him, shocked. “What did you say?” “It’s time to end this,” he replied. I was frozen, my throat dry. It was as if time had stopped. “What happened?” “It’s Ross. She’s back.” Ross. That name was my worst nightmare, lingering in my mind like a ghost. She was Sebastian’s ex-girlfriend. And she was back… “She reached out to me recently. And you know she needs me,” he explained, but it wasn’t like he owed me any explanation, did he? I had always been the surrogate wife… “Yes, I understand,” I replied, then pulled away from his arms and lay back down with my back to him. He was also settling in to sleep as if nothing major had just happened. I suppressed the moan and sob that were about to escape and forced myself to close my eyes to hide the tears. But the tears couldn’t be controlled, streaming quickly and soaking the pillow. I was thankful we were facing away from each other so he couldn’t see me crying like the idiot I was. I always knew his heart never belonged to me, because throughout this marriage, all three years of it, he made it clear how much he loved her, his ex-girlfriend, his first love. Ross. The next morning when I woke up, I saw that my husband’s side of the bed was empty, indicating he’d already been up for a while. I sighed. Calling Sebastian my husband, knowing his rejection, was painful now. Still shaken, I got out of bed and went to the bathroom to try to wash my face. I groaned when I noticed my eyes were swollen from crying so much, and my blonde hair was all disheveled. That would definitely give me away. I didn’t want him to see that I’d been crying, not at all; I didn’t want him to see my weakness. So after a shower, I put on makeup to hide the puffiness and did everything to look presentable, to act like none of this was affecting me. “Fiona, come down for breakfast. I heard you wake up,” he called from downstairs. “I’m coming.” When I went down the stairs, I saw he’d already prepared breakfast, my favorites: eggs Benedict with smoked salmon on an English muffin, with creamy hollandaise sauce and a sprinkle of fresh chives. “The table looks beautiful,” I commented as I sat at the large table. “Thanks. I wanted you to feel better,” he replied as he sat down too. It was just the two of us, as always. This house had always been too big for just the two of us, but I didn’t mind because I was with my husband. But now, knowing he wanted me gone, it felt strange to even share a meal with him. It was like we’d become strangers overnight, and that only broke my heart more. After that somber breakfast where I couldn’t manage to exchange a single word with him, I went back to the bedroom to pack my bags. There was no reason to stay since he didn’t want me anymore. When I came downstairs with my suitcase ready, Sebastian was already waiting for me. “Did you cry?” His gaze was oddly concerned. Not because he was showing concern for me—Sebastian had always been kind to me—but I never wanted just his kindness; I wanted his love… “No,” I shook my head, my voice a bit hoarse. He looked at my suitcase. “Fiona, you… don’t have to leave so quickly.” I had no reason to stay. He asked for a divorce, showing that no matter how hard I tried, I’d never be the most important person in his heart. I couldn’t fool myself anymore. Even though Sebastian was kind, thoughtful, and caring toward me, he didn’t love me. His true heart was always reserved for his first love. I had to go now. I was afraid that if I stayed longer, I’d break down and ask Sebastian why he couldn’t see my love and treat me as his wife. “I already called my mom; she’s waiting for me at home,” I said. He didn’t try to hold me back, just let me go. Since the Uber I’d called was already waiting outside, I realized I was really leaving. The moment I stepped out of the house, my heart ached even more. Three years were, after all, just a dream. The joyful times we spent together and the happy moments we created vanished. I walked to the taxi with Sebastian by my side, and he helped me put my suitcase in the trunk. I could barely look at his face, afraid that if our eyes met, I’d collapse in tears right there and beg him not to let me go. As I was about to open the door and get in the car, he asked a question, looking into my eyes. “By the way, who’s Eli? I’m sorry for wasting your three years. He must be very important to you.”Fiona POVAfter my mom left, the house stayed with that nice lazy Sunday silence. Sebastian locked the door, picked me up in his arms as if I were a feather and carried me to the TV room sofa without any effort.“Today you don’t get up from here,” he said seriously, but with that sideways smile that disarms me every time. “Only rest, movie, lap and kiss. Medical and husband’s order.”I laughed, nestled into his chest, head on his shoulder, legs over his, thick blanket covering both of us.“As you wish, husband,” I answered giving him a long and affectionate kiss. Then I snuggled more into him and stayed watching the movie with him until late.Sebastian even went to make popcorn and brought soda so we could enjoy our time together in peace and more relaxed.He put on some random romantic comedy, one of those we’ve seen a thousand times, but that always makes us laugh at the same time.The sunlight came in weakly through the window, my mom’s banana cake smell still lingered in the house
Third POVWhen they woke up the next morning, the sun was already coming in strong through the windows, lighting the room with a golden and warm light that seemed to wash away any leftover shadow from the night before.Fiona opened her eyes slowly, body still heavy from good sleep, head resting on Sebastian’s chest that rose and fell calmly.He was already awake, stroking her blonde hair calmly, kissing her forehead from time to time, arm firm around her waist as if he would never let go. The two smiled at the same time, without needing to say anything, just the look saying everything.“This is the best thing in the world, really. Being able to wake up with you by my side,” she said to him who smiled more.“Ugh, I’m so in love with you that my chest even hurts,” he said.Fiona stroked his chest. “A good pain, a pain of love.” She gave him a calm and serene kiss.A nice smell came up the stairs and invaded the room. Fresh coffee, bread toasting, scrambled eggs, something sweet baking,
Third POVFiona woke up suddenly, chest rising and falling fast, whole body cold with sweat, bitter taste in the roof of the mouth.The nightmare was still stuck in the mind like spider web. She saw Eli on the stretcher again, blood on the face, the paramedics running, and her scream echoing without leaving the throat.It was always the same dream from which she could never get rid of, that dream that always left her heart tight and made her have a terrible day after appearing. She hated that.Breathed deep several times, tried to calm down, reached out to the side of the bed looking for Sebastian’s warmth, the touch that always brought her back.But the place was empty. The sheet cold.She sat up fast, heart racing again, eyes looking in the dark. The faint moonlight came in through the open window, drawing the room in shades of blue and silver. Sebastian was there, standing, back to her, looking out at the night. His silhouette looked like a statue, tense shoulders, arms crossed,
Third POVHours after the accident, the doorbell rang at the Blackwood mansion.Sebastian opened the door and found Sofia there, face pale with worry, small bag in hand, eyes already watery behind the big sunglasses, even before entering.“Hi, Sofia. Good you came,” he said, giving her a brief hug.“Oh, dear. I wish I could have come even earlier… Where is she?” She asked already anxious.“There on the couch waiting for you,” Sebastian said with a small smile, making room for his mother-in-law to pass.When Sofia saw her daughter sitting on the living room couch, wrapped in a thick blanket, a teacup in slightly shaking hands, she ran to hug her hard, as if she needed to feel she was really whole.“Mommy…” Fiona cried to her mom, hugging her back.“My daughter… my God in heaven… you’re really okay?” She ran her hands over Fiona’s face, hair, arms, looking for bruises, checking every inch with scared mother eyes.Fiona moaned weakly, hugging her back, voice still hoarse from crying. “
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