CALISTA
“Are you certain about this Roman? I've known you since you were a little boy. Such.. err.. sudden decision is not in your nature at all.” Roman's resolute voice echoed in the near-empty cathedral, “Yes, Father.” “And you child? Are you certain of this?” The priest questioned me. “Yes, Father,” I replied, my throat thick with nostalgia. It was strange to be in the presence of a priest again. I was born into the Catholic church, and my family, like many other mafia families, were strong followers of the Catholic faith; growing up, I had a profound love for the church; the grace with nuns carried themselves, the early morning refreshing mass, and our daily prayers. My fondness became too much, and one day, over dinner, I blurted out how I aspired to be a nun. My mother's mouth was opened in shock and my father turned beet red with rage. As the daughter and only child of a capo, I had duties to fulfill, duties that could not be understood by a five year old child After that day, my father limited my access to the church until eventually, I lost all interest. Even after he died, I couldn't bring myself to go back; it was a painful reminder of everything I had sacrificed to be the perfect daughter. “Very well.” The priest gave us a small smile. His brown eyes were warm beneath the spectacles he wore. For some reason, I couldn't place it; he reminded me of Santa Claus. “Since you both are certain, let us proceed. As you requested an immediate wedding, we will have to forgo some of the traditional ceremonies. We'll keep it simple." Roman dipped his chin in appreciation. “Thank you, Father.” I glanced at the man who, in a matter of minutes would be my husband. Our words from the bar replayed in my head. ‘There would be no meddling in each other's personal affairs. You have your life, and I have mine. There will be no romantic expectations, emotional support, or shared personal lives. We'll maintain separate lives, you'll be my partner in name only. I will protect you from the Orsini boy and you will stay safe within the Chicago territory’ A marriage of convenience with a stranger or an arranged marriage with a man I thought I knew? ‘What would you gain?’ I had asked. ‘You are giving me the greatest protection a Capo can give someone- your name, what would you gain from me?’ Romans's lips tilted by the side, and a smile hovered on his handsome, rugged face. He took my left hand and slipped the ring he pulled out from his smallest finger, and then he whispered ‘Everything.’ “Roman, take Calista's hand and face me.” the priest's words dragged me out of my thoughts. Roman took my hand in his. His big, callused hand covered my small one. He squeezed mine reassuringly, and some of my unease washed away. During our drive here, he had stopped at a shopping mall for me to quickly freshen up and change into a new dress. The dress was a simple white gown, hardly a wedding dress but given our situation, it was the best I could make do with. “Do you, Roman Cappellucci, take Calista to be your lawfully wedded wife, to have and to hold from this day forward, for better or for worse, for richer or for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish, till death do you part?” I searched Roman's face for a flicker of uncertainty, for him to bail out on me and laugh about this absurdity. “I do,” he replied with confidence. The priest turned towards me, reciting the same words he asked Roman. “I do.” Roman would protect me from Matteo. I could live a free and safe life in Chicago. I could even be happy again, even though our marriage was as fake as the smile I plastered on my face. “Then, by the power vested in me, I now pronounce you, Roman and Calista, husband and wife. You may kiss the bride." I tensed. Roman and I had come to an agreement that there would be no sort of romantic intimacy between us, but we didn't think about this moment. Roman's whiskey-coloured eyes held mine. He leaned forward and cupped my cheeks. There was an unreadable expression on his face as he brought his lips down to mine. Roman, ever so softly, kissed me, like I was a fragile doll that would break if he didn't take care. His lips brushed mine, and I felt his hot tongue brush over my mouth, seeking entrance; my breathing hitched; just as I was about to open my mouth so he could deepen the kiss, he pulled back, taking the warmth and sweetness of his mouth away. He schooled his face into that impassive mask again. I sighed, trying to get the taste of him out of my mind. He tasted like sweet nectar, and honey and everything manly. “Congratulations Mr and Mrs Cappellucci.” After signing on some marriage documents, Roman led me down the altar. He was quiet in a way that made me nervous. “What now?” I asked as he led the way outside. “Now, we help you get your revenge against your stepmother and the Orsini boy,” he said so casually we might as well have been talking about the weather. “My revenge?” I never talked about seeking revenge on Matteo and Maria - my stepmother. Roman's lips twitched at the side, but he smothered back the smile. Early morning sun seeped in through the tinted glass of the church, making the ends of his brown hair gleam. Roman looked at me with an alarming intensity in his amber eyes; I noticed a tiny gold fleck in them, and my mouth went dry. I have never seen a man so disarmingly handsome. He placed his hands on either side of my shoulders, drawing up to his full height. At five foot eight, I was in no way a short lady, but Roman's towering build made it seem that way. “You are now my wife Calista. Whether our marriage is based on convenience or not. And when someone messes with my wife,” he paused, a murderous gleam flashed in his eyes, but it was gone as quickly as it came, “they mess with me.” “But...but...” I stuttered for the right words. “But what?” “But that happened before we even met.” Roman ran his thumb over my shoulder blades. I stiffened, that single act was enough to send shivers all over my body. The good kind “It doesn't matter. If I have to find everyone from your past who has ever hurt you, I will. You're Mrs Cappellucci now. My wife.” I gulped down the foreign sensation spreading its way across my stomach. I tried to steady my voice when I spoke next. “So what do you plan to do?” Roman smirked at me, the sensation spread wider all over my body. “We're going to Evanston, to attend the Orsini's boy wedding.”CALISTA'S P. O. VThe silence after was as loud as the moans.Roman had pulled out and finished on my thighs, his seed dripped down between us. But his hands didn't leave my waist, his eyes didn't leave mine. We stood there, in my aunt's living room, naked, pressed against the wall.He didn't let me go.And I didn't move.I didn’t want to. I wanted to savour every second of this moment. Memorize every breath and pantRoman's fingers stroked my spine soothingly. I touched his face, just noticing that his stubble was overgrown than how he usually left it.There were even bags under his eyes, like he hadn't been sleeping too. “What about Coraline” I asked. The anguish and rejection I usually feel whenever I think of her weren't there anymore. Maybe it was the sex, maybe it was Roman baring his heart open for me, but I felt more secure now.“She'll disappear. She will never be an issue again.”A warm feeling glided over my heart like honey. “Good.”He pushed hair away from my damp fore
CALISTA'S P.O.VIt was all a misconception. I didn't know where that left us, even though Roman hadn't cheated on me, Coraline was a presence in his life. She had only been able to go into his study because he let her into our home in the first place Roman had only given me one answer, but I had a dozen other questions. Is he willing to make me the only woman in his life? Is he ready to open up his heart and tell me what disturbs his sleep? Can he love me back? Questions that tangle into a whimper as he kisses the slope between my breasts, featherlight kisses, the kind that told me he was still holding back. “I want you, Roman,” I whispered to the space in between us, my nipples tightening to tiny rocks. I didn't just want Roman inside of me. I wanted him whole, I wanted the man, the one whose heart cracked enough for me to see the vulnerability, the pain, and longing from being away. I want the Roman who cares for me. “Kiss me like you mean it.” I requested, my breath comin
ROMAN’S P.O.V.Callie cried in my hands.And I let her.I didn’t speak. I held my breath while holding her, like maybe I could squeeze the pain out of her body and transfer it into mine where different emotions were rushing in like a whirlwind.Relief was the first thing that hit me. It was thick and filled my lungs in a whoosh. Like that moment of finally coming up for air after nearly drowning. Seeing her again, touching her…. it felt like coming home. I've missed home.Then came the hurt.I didn’t know if it was mine or hers. Maybe it was both. Maybe this ache in my chest was from all the days of torture we spent apart, or from the sound of her crying like something broke inside her.And the third feeling….it was the hardest to contain.I wanted to hold her so tight she couldn’t leave again. Bury myself in her skin, in her soul. If I could crack my chest open and pull her inside me, I would have done so the moment she stepped in.I didn’t just want Calista close. I wanted her insi
CALISTA'S P. O. VIt was my first time on the streets of Toledo.Day nine. Nine days with my life playing before my eyes like it belonged to somebody else.I pulled Aunt Lena's coat tighter around me. “Come on Calista.” She said with a smile as we rounded around the street. “This way”I nodded my head once, following behind her wild locks of deep blue.Toledo didn't feel much different from Chicago. Maybe it wasn't the same, but it did feel like much to me.The sky was still grey, and the breeze was still cold. Buildings lined the streets, and people moved with the same hurried focus, coffees in their hands, children in tow, babies in strollers, cars honking, dogs barking, ducks quacking, people talking, feet moving, children singing, babies crying, wind blo.....“Are you alright Calista?” Aunt Lena's nasal voice snapped me out of my thoughts I blinked, my mind snapping back to time. “Yes, yes I'm fine,” I answered. “Where are we going again?”She smiled at me like she knew I was mo
ROMAN'S P. O. VI will bring her home today.I knew it deep in my bones that I would bring Callie home today, and when I did, there would be no more secrets between us, no more lies and unspoken feelings, and no more guest rooms.“Is that a...smile?” Alberto asked behind me, his tone slightly puzzled.I immediately schooled my face into the hard frown I was known for, my arms crossed as we watched the tech team shuffle nervously over thier laptops and monitors.It had been eight days of agonizing hell. Eight days of nothing. I had stood in Toledo myself, scanning the streets to see if she might just suddenly materialize, I paid people off, asked questions, got into clubs and bars using fake identities, searched for her, and had my tech team search every camera in Ohio's surveillance system to see if she was caught on them.Nothing.But I didn't lose hope; if I lost hope, that meant I'd lost her, and that was simply unacceptable.I waited with bated breath as we watched the tech team.
ROMAN'S P. O. V At first, it was rage.I had wanted to kill something. Someone. I barked out orders, stormed into the staff quarters, and started a ruckus; I stayed up at night at my gym, pouring my rage into the punching bag until I tore it. I had smashed my fist into a wall and left my knuckles bleeding; I would have set the world ablaze if it could bring her back to me.But that anger didn't last; It turned into something else. Regret, maybe. Grief? Seems like it. Whatever it was, it was a bone-deep ache that pressed me like a titanic weight. I could hardly breathe with it. It killed me with the indispensable need to feel her near me again, even if she won't speak to me, even if she won't smile my way, just knowing that she's here and knowing that she's safe, just breathing in the same space, I could try to be content with that.Now… as in this very moment, it’s something darker, not the darkness that burns; in a way, it's quieter. Like a deep void I've lost myself in. I don't kno