Chapter 64

Lillian

  I stared at the piece of paper on my palm. There was a huge lump in my throat that refused to disappear no matter how much I swallowed.

  I should have known this would happen. I was too careless. In fact, I knew this would happen but overlooked it.

"I think we should go to another hospital and take another test," Jade spoke, she was as confused as I was.

  We made the doctor do a pregnancy test again and the results came out the same.

I was pregnant!

I was pregnant for Zayden!

" The results would be the same, you are only going to waste money for another test." The doctor countered.

Jade looked at me, a confused expression on her face." Do you know what this means?"

I swallowed for the hundredth time again, still unable to find my voice since the doctor made the announcement.

"How ....how long?" I managed to voice out.

"12 weeks old, still in your first trimester. I'll advise that now that you are aware, there are some do's and don'ts."The doctor continued.

He reached for the side table and brought out a small book that read 'Pregnancy Journey for new mothers.'

" Obviously, this is your first time being pregnant. This will help along with some other instructions I'm going to give."

I honestly wasn't listening. Instinctively I placed my hand over my tummy, emotions rushing through my veins.

I'm going to be a mom! Not how I planned it but, it doesn't feel so bad.

From the corner of my eyes, I could see Jade intently watching me while also paying attention to what the doctor was saying.

When he was done talking, he left us. Jade came to sit beside me on the bed.

" So I'm guessing, you want to start a family with him? Is that how it's going to be now?"

I sighed." That's how it's going to be."

She groaned, gripping her hair violently." You were supposed to leave him after the contract ends!" She started pacing the room." You were supposed to take a chunk of money and then get divorced! This was not the plan, Lillian!"

"I already told you, I wanted to give us a chance. Maybe things would work out." I shrugged.

She was back at my side again." Work out? You're fucking pregnant and 12 weeks gone! That means you got pregnant immediately after the wedding. You were supposed to not get pregnant!"

I rolled my eyes, I got her point, but I honestly felt she was overreacting.

" What's done is done! Besides, we already planned on taking our relationship to the next level, so eventually, getting pregnant was inevitable."

She crashed on the bed, her chest rising and falling quickly.

" Things have changed, Jade; I wasn't expecting things to turn out this way, even after bragging that I'd make sure it didn't, but...Zayden is a good person, trust me." I spoke softly.

Maybe it was the pregnancy hormone or just my head playing tricks on me but right now, I felt that bubbly feeling in my tummy. And the feeling was overwhelming and, at the same time, exciting.

That got me wondering how Zayden would react to the news of my pregnancy.

" You talking like someone who's in love." Jade spat, a disgusted look on her face.

I chuckled." I think I might be."

She sighed heavily, pulling me in for a hug." My best friend is going to be a mother! If this is what you want then I'll support you."

My chest warmed up." Thanks, Jade, for everything."

" You're welcome. So are you going to tell him immediately?" She asked.

I furrowed my brows" Nah, not yet. I'm going to surprise him."

She nodded agreeing with me. We ended up going shopping mostly for fruits and veggies. Too bad no more wine for me till I give birth.

We got home late and fatigue immediately kicked in. I hadn't had a proper rest after our flight so right now, it felt like I was going to disappear.

Zayden was back home and I just couldn't keep a straight face around him. I noticed that he was stressed out and tense but didn't think much about it.

He was a hardworking man, probably tired. We lay in the bed together, with my head on his chest and legs wrapped around him.

"Are you okay?" I asked, raising my head to look at him.

He stared back, an unknown emotion in his eyes." Yeah, just tired."

" Do you need a massage?" I got up immediately not waiting for him to respond, I tugged on his shirt.

" Why do I have to take off my clothes?" He groaned.

" Because it's more effective if it's skin-to-skin contact," I said cracking my fingers.

He only sighed and took off his shirt. I could never stop drooling at his body. Lean, muscular abs stared back at me.

A smirk appeared on his face when he caught me staring." Like what you see?"

I rolled my eyes, biting back a smile."it's just flesh and bones!"

He chuckled." Then, why are you drooling?"

I pushed him to lie on his stomach and straddled his back." Forget about my drool and relax.

" You don't have to straddle me you know?" He spoke, his voice dying down on the mattress.

I raised a brow, giggling." Why? Are you scared you won't be able to control your hyperactive hormones?"

He raised himself a little, a smug look on his face." That hyperactive hormone is what's been making you scream when we make love."

My cheeks flushed in embarrassment." Yeah, whatever."

  A comfortable silence fell in the room while my hands worked their magic on his muscles. They were stiff but I managed to stretch them out.

Starting at his clavicle, I worked my way to his vertebrae.

He groaned, closing his eyes." That feels good."

A triumphant smile appeared on my face. I continued for the next fifteen minutes and flipped him over. I was about to start massaging his abs when he grabbed my hands.

" No! I think your work is done here. Except you want some other work." He crooked a brow.

I wanted it, but I forgot to ask Jade if sex during pregnancy was safe. So I'll have to refuse.

Carefully, I climbed down from him and lay by his side. He cuddled me in his arms, and we both lay there.

I was almost falling asleep when he broke the silence.

" Lillian?"

I hummed.

" I...I have something to tell you."

My eyelashes fluttered open, sensing the distress in his tone.

I met his gaze and what I saw made my heart squeeze.

" What's that?" I managed to force out of my lungs.

He swallowed, then his hand came up to the small of my back and then travelled up till they were on my cheek.

He opened his mouth to speak but then his phone rang. He hesitated but eventually left the bed to pick it up on the nightstand.

It was obviously work because he always used that tone when he was talking about business. The call ended a few minutes later and he returned back to the bed.

" What were you going to tell me?" I asked, curiosity getting the better of me.

He paused, his eyes staring deep into my soul before suddenly a small smile crept on his lips.

" You know when we first met?"

I nodded." Yeah, you were a jerk."

He chuckled." And you were annoying. Very annoying sometimes I think of putting your head on a stick!"

My eyes widened." What the fuck?"

He shrugged." I didn't like the fact that you always challenged me was attractive. And you were that one employee who wasn't scared of her boss. Even if you are, you didn't show it."

I rolled my eyes, pride causing my head to swell." I knew all hot-headed  humans like you had a weak spot."

His finger trailed on my cheekbone." I imagined you in my bed but what I never imagined was falling in love with you."

My heart skipped 5 and a half beats. A faint blush appeared on my cheeks." Well, I never wanted us to be a thing. You're the worst but I guess some things are inevitable."

His eyes widen a fraction." Wait...what? "

I smiled. I don't know if it's too early to say it back, but I don't care anymore. I'm not going to hold back and just enjoy this feeling while it lasts.

" I'm sorry, Zayden Kent, but I might have fallen in love with you and all your never-ending flaws."

His expression was priceless. I wished I had a camera to capture this moment.

He opened his mouth to speak and then closed it right back. He then sat upright on the bed, his brows furrowed together.

I couldn't help it,I had to laugh.

" You...you..you love me?" His voice cracked.

I nodded."And your flaws too and your bad personality, all of them."

Honestly, he didn't have any bad personality. His only issue was not being able to control his anger, and then his dark sense of justice; his hands were stained with blood.

" Jesus Christ!" He hissed running both hands through his hair.

I chuckled." Come on, it's not a big deal."

He shook his head." The last person that said that to me was my mother and I was still a child. So, yes it is a big deal!"

My heart ached and swelled at the same time. I promised myself that moment to remind him every day how much he was loved. He needed it, and he obviously wanted it.

I sat upright, scooting over to him." I don't care what kind of man you are." Placing both hands on his face, I continued."You don't have to change yourself for me. I love you the way you are as long as you don't try to snap my neck when I make you mad!"

We both laughed at what I said. I placed a kiss on his forehead, his nose and his lips." I love you, Zayden."

The next second, he wrapped his hands around me. Pressing me tightly against his chest that I lost my breath for a brief second.

" Say it again."His chest was heaving up and down and I could feel the slight trembling of his body.

I smiled." I love you, I love you, and I love you."

He released a low growl." I love you more." He whispered on the crook of my neck.

My chest warmed up, and I was happy. I wanted this, he wanted this.

We needed each other to fill the void our traumas dented in us. In a way we were similar.

I lost my parents and got my life messed up in a foster family and with Tyrell. I grew up in an unloved home, I had no one.

He lost his mother and got shut out of the world and manipulated his whole life because of it. He didn't have a childhood. He had no one, but now he's got me, and I've got him.

We've got each other.

" I don't want to let go right now but duty calls." He said but his hands still remained around me.

" Yeah, duty calls. I'll be going to bed anyway."

He finally let go." I would have finished it earlier but I couldn't find my laptop."

My eyes widened like saucers, and I sucked in a breath.

Shit!

Shit!

Shit!

I completely forgot about that laptop and guess what?

Zayden is going to get mad! For real!