Masuk“You serious?” Nell scowled at him. “You’re the money guy, Silver, the guy who literally counts the goddamn silver. You think that doesn’t matter? You think the club doesn’t need someone honest and smart keeping track of the bank accounts and expenses?”
“Oh, we do, for sure. I’m not saying that it’s not an important job. It’s just not a super-glamorous one.”
“You mean like being an Enforcer?” Nell snapped. “Would that float your boat a bit better, tough guy? Beating the shit out of people who have pissed off your Prez? Doing worse to them if they’ve really pissed him off?”
“Hell, no,” Silver replied, stung. “I haven’t got the temperament for that. Or the stomach. Ice, Cain, and the twins have got that shit covered anyway, and I’m not even remotely interested in joining their Enforcer team, even in its more watered-down current version. But I guess… I don’t know. I don’t think of monthly club reports as all that much fun, is all. I mean, I already do endless paperwork for the garage, and now I have to add in time for Satan’s Bar and for Blue Dragon Ink once the parlour is rebuilt and up and running again. Plus any dues, or repair expenses on motorcycles, all that stuff. I guess I’m just realizing that it’s a lot. And honestly, Nell, I don’t have a ton of formal accounting experience. Thank Christ Wolf is looking for a new in-house accountant right now, because I need all the help that I can get.”
“If you have an accountant, then what would your job actually be?”
“Mostly collecting all documents from Zoe for Blue Dragon, and Scars for Satan’s, and adding my own from The Garage, then kind of getting it all ready for the accountant. Centralize it all, I guess, and get any missing pieces that they ask for. Handle all the expense reports for them to check, help with tax stuff and payroll stuff. Mostly be support and a bit of a flunkie and extra set of hands – and I’m cool with all of that. I can’t handle the serious stuff and don’t want to learn anyway. I’ve got no interest in being an accountant. I’m collecting mountains of paperwork right now but have no idea what a lot of it means.”
“Who was your Treasurer before?”
“Beams.”
“OK. Well… why can’t he train you and help you out until the new hire? Where’d he go?”
“Fucked off last week to join Dawson and his asshole Blood Crew.”
“No.” Nell was appalled. “Another defector?”
“Yep. Beams makes it a grand total of thirteen guys who have left The Road Devils. Well, fourteen if you count The Blood Crew President, Dawson Kinney himself, the guy to start the splinter group and recruit his ex-Road Devils brothers.”
“I still can’t believe that Dawson did that. Nobody just walks away from an MC, and they sure as hell don’t start a rival club.”
“Kinney did.”
“Yeah. But he’s a prick.”
“No argument from me.”
“Silver?” Nell sounded oddly tentative. “Question?”
“Yeah. Shoot.”
“How come Wolf hasn’t kicked Dawson’s ass to the other side of the goddamn planet? I think that if any of my Gunner’s boys had done what Dawson and his new MC have done – broken faith, lied to their brothers, started a new club, picked up all their former MC’s contracts – then Gunner would have had his MC riot and rampage until the streets ran with blood. Wolf Connor is no shrinking violet, and he’s sure as hell no angel… no way he’d have a major problem taking a life or two, if it came to that. So – why hasn’t he made a statement that way?”
Silver levelled her with a look and Nell blinked. The man had the most incredible eyes that she’d ever seen in a human face, like pure moonlight rippling on water, or a gently rolling Irish mist with flashes of sunlight, and his name was well-deserved. Nell had never known that eyes that color actually existed on earth, not until she met Silver Bennett.
Those eyes weren’t light and bright now, though. No, they were cold and hard, like gunmetal or slate. They were the gray of the deepest, darkest northern winter… and despite being a woman not afraid of much, Nell shivered. She’d never before seen Wolf Connor’s fierce, ferocious gray wolf-eyes staring back at her from under Silver’s golden hair… but here they were.
It was a side to Silver that Nell knew had to exist. After all, he was a full member of an ex-one-percenter MC, which meant that he’d done bad, awful things, but she’d never seen even a glimmer of it.
She saw it now, though.
Shit. Pushed it too far.
“You saying that my President is a fucking wimp, Nell?” Silver asked softly. “You actually calling Wolf Connor a pussy? Saying that by letting things go with Dawson since he left, Wolf has shown weakness?”
“No –”
“Anyone else think this too?” Silver looked over at the far corner of the room, where about ten members of The Howling Highwaymen MC were standing. The Road Devils had always been on good terms with those guys, but if they were running down his President, Silver was ready to call them out on it and he’d do it here and now, to hell with being outnumbered. “People talking about Wolf losing his edge?”
He moved his arms around her small body now, just held her close, reassuring himself that she was safe and whole. A bit of damage, definitely some monsters and ghosts, but still… she was here. He could work with that and everything else could be coped with over time and together.Against his body, she took a deep breath, exhaled. “Silver?”“Yeah, Jolene?”“Take me home. Please.”“You mean my place, remember?” He held her away from him, looking into her eyes. “You can’t stay at your place again until we get the bedroom sorted out.”“I remember,” she said. “And that’s what I meant when I said home.”He held his breath, wondering if he was understanding what was going on here. “You mean – you want to stay with me? Even after I get the bedroom sorted out?”“Silver,” she said in mock exasperation. “Don’t you know that my home is where you are?”“No.”“Now who’s not very bright?”“Hey,” he said. “You ask to move in with me and then you say that I’m kinda dumb?”“Yes.” She smiled at him, smi
“Revenge? For a citizen? For a crooked lawyer under federal investigation?” Silver scoffed. “No way, sweet thing. They don’t give a shit about anyone outside of their own MC’s and I’m not totally sure they even really care about their brothers. They’ll be after Wolf and Scars for something, that’s for sure, but who knows what. And frankly, if Viking’s doing his magic trick of making a body disappear, Crusher and Dawson can suspect us all they want, but they can’t prove jack-shit. They know they have no leverage.”“But will they care about proving anything?” she asked. “Aren’t they the types that just do what they want, regardless of proof?”“What can they want to do to us?” Silver said reasonably. “Nah. They’ll come at Wolf with accusations, he’ll deny everything and there will be bad blood. There’s already plenty of that, though, so all that will happen is we’ll all go back to quietly fucking loathing each other in our respective clubhouses, and carry on as usual.”“Really?”“Really.
“Silver –”“I don’t know, I swear to you. I’ve never known. Viking’s never told anyone how he does what he does, whatever the hell that is. I don’t know if he dumps the bodies in another state, or if he disintegrates them in a vat of acid, or if he chops them up into fifty pieces and scatters them in different lakes and rivers across Canada. I don’t think he’s told any of us, as far as I can tell. Except maybe Wolf and I wouldn’t even count on that, to be honest. I’d imagine that the deal is that the less anyone knows, the better, and no one person knows everything. If I ever got picked up for something, I’d have no idea where the bodies were buried – or even if the bodies still existed.”“No body, no crime, right?”“Exactly. That’s why I think that Viking’s made sure that there aren’t any to be found. If you really want to know what happened to your asshole ex, you’ll have to ask Viking – but don’t expect him to tell you, baby. I don’t think he ever will.”“I’m OK with that.”“Yeah?”
“So you know that for almost five years, that man made me not trust my own thoughts, my own eyes, my own memories. I didn’t have the first clue what I really believed or wanted, what I liked and enjoyed. He made me question every single thing that I thought I knew, to the point that I questioned my perception of reality and my own sanity.”“I know, baby.”“So let me tell you this clearly and with zero confusion: I wanted to kill him. I made that decision all on my own, with perfect understanding and knowledge about the consequences. I made a choice and I made it a long time ago, long before Wednesday night. I’m asking you to please let me stand by what I decided and did. Don’t try to rewrite what I wanted, or what happened, or ask me to lie about it. Please, Silver. Please try to understand that expecting me to live a lie or a fantasy as the truth is asking me to live the way that Brian expected me to… and that’s the one way that I can’t live anymore. I won’t.”Silver was horrified. “
Jo swam towards consciousness slowly, resisting it a bit because this dream world was so soft and warm, so safe and quiet. But a part of her knew that there was something important waiting for her in the world of awareness and even though it was dark and awful, it couldn’t be avoided forever. It wasn’t going anywhere and it would wait.It was waiting.“Jolene. Hey, baby.”She groaned at the slight pain in her head but forced her eyes open at that wonderful, rough voice calling her baby. She was sure that she’d never get used to it, certainly never take it for granted.And there he was, in all of his silver-blond gorgeous glory, sitting next her bed and looking all ‘I’ve been up all night’ sexy. Not many men could look hot with messed-up hair and dark circles under their eyes and a wrinkled t-shirt, but damned if Silver Bennett didn’t look smoldering and dangerous. Meanwhile she, on the other hand, undoubtedly looked like six kinds of hell. Maybe seven.“Hi,” she managed then coughed a
“And then I looked up,” Silver said slowly. “Jolene had his gun – I guess it had been up on the bed, but I didn’t see it – and she was pointing it at his head and he was blubbering and crying for me to help him. She told me to get away from Brian and when I asked her why, she said because she was going to finish this. She said that he deserved to die but it wasn’t going to be on my conscience, and when I begged her to think about this more, she said that she’d thought about it for long enough.”“Damn,” Zack said quietly. “It was a done deal for her.”“Yeah. Yeah, it was. And even as I tried to talk her down, I knew that. It was this weird and surreal moment where I was standing between them and hovering over him, like I was almost physically protecting him from her, but not because I wanted him to live. It was because I know what it means to take a human life – even a fucking worthless, piece-of-shit one – and I wanted to spare her that, even if she was sure that she wanted to do it.”







