Legacy

Legacy

Growing old without a complete family mold the real me.It made me realized a lot of things.It made me think that maybe, it was really me who is the only one believing in myself.

It made my heart stronger than a stone because i thought i should'nt let anyone hurt me because in the end, it will be me, alone, who will be with myself.

"I'm dying," Mahinang sambit ni Dad habang sabay kaming kumakain sa hapag.

He gets sick more often, maybe because of aging but day by day, it's getting worse.

My mom and dad separated with each other when i was twelve years young.They always argue back then and they decided to end their relationship as if they don't have a child, they don't have me.

I was aware of what's happening back then.But i could'nt do anything.I just kept the anger inside me thinking why they did'nt even think if i will be affected by their decision or not.

My mom asked me to choose,that was the most scariest question i've ever heard from her.Who do you wanna live with?

Wala akong ginawa kundi ang ikulong ang sarili ko sa kwarto ko para maiwasan ang tanong na halos sumira sa buong buhay ko.Gusto kong buoin nila ang pamilya namin ngunit ni isang salita ay wala silang narinig sa akin.I want them to realize what they are doing.

We are rich, famous, loved by others because of my dad's successful business since before, that's why i don't understand why did they need to separate from each other.

I just realized that mom already left me to dad as if i'm nothing, that i am not aware of our situation that time just because i'm too young. She left our house without even talking to me properly.

Hinayaan ko syang umalis, as i should.Even if i love her a lot.Even if i needed her most of the time.

Who would'nt?

Everyone needs their mom with their side.To cook for them, to be taking care when sick, to attend meetings in school,to find your clothes that you could'nt find but you want to wear, and to feel love.

"Armando, huwag mong sabihin 'yan," Jasmine, my step mom said.

When my mom and dad separated with each other, I found out that dad had a child before I was born. Dad left him and made my mom pregnant, so I was born.And now, he is married to a woman with four children.

What a good life he have.He had two wives since he did'nt marry the first woman he impregnate.And now he have six childrens including myself.

I chewed the meat inside my mouth slowly as i took a glance at Jasmine.

"As if you're not happy that he's going to die," I sarcastically murmured.

Nakita ko kung paano nanlaki ang dalawang mata nya at halata ang gulat sa muka niya.

"S-Stella!," Sigaw nito.

Itinaas ko ang isang kilay ko habang pinag mamasdan siya sa tabi ng aking ama.

"You have no right to talk to my mom like that!"

Grisha, Jasmine's first born daughter faced me with her dagger eyes as if she want to kill me because of madness.

"Stella.," Buntong hininga ni Dad.

Hindi ko siya tiningnan o sinulyapan man lang.

Mag mula nang dumating ang baliw nyang asawa dito sa bahay kasama ang apat nitong anak ay lagi nalang nila akong pinag mumukang masama sa harapan ni Dad.Lagi nilang pinapalabas na sinasaktan ko sila at nagiging masama ako sa kanila.Ofcourse, my wonderful dad will believe her and her childrens because believed that Jasmine was kind.

That's why i made sure that while i'm still alive and living here,they will experience living in hell.I mean it.

"Why?I am one hundred percent sure that they will be happy to see you dying because of the rich legacy they will receive," I said,confidently.

Ngayon ay halata na ang inis at galit sa muka ni Dad, sobrang galit.At syempre ang baliw nyang asawa sa tabi nya ay halos manginig na ang buong katawan dahil sa galit.

I will be glad to see her die because of anger.

"Stella!"

Dad could'nt controll his voice anymore.

"But don't be so confident," I said.

"You- Dad!look, she's too much!," Grisha exclaimed.

My lips rose.

"You won't get any of our wealth," I promised.

Pinanood kong mag silabasan ang galit nila sa kanilang nag titimping muka.I stood up and crossed my arms while looking at them intently.

"You will all be kick out in this house after he die-"

"Stella!"

Dad stood up and faced me angrily.

Nawala ang ngisi ko.

"Go back to your seat and shut up!," He yelled.

"And don't you dare talk to your mom like that!-"

"I have no mom," I cutted him off.

I have no mother.

This does'nt feel family at all...

Mariin niyang isinara ang kaniyang mga mata at nakikita ko kung gaano niya sinusubukan mag timpi at habaan ang pasensya.

I saw layla, the second child of Jasmine grinned before dad could open his eyes.

"Bitches," I said and show them how disgusted i am.

Nag mulat si Dad at saka tumikhim bago bumalik sa kaniyang pag kaka upo.

"Sit down, Stella," He said in a controlled voice.

Hindi ko sinunod ang gusto niya.Nanatili lamang akong naka tayo at hindi umaalis habang tinitimbang ang presensya nilang lahat.

They look at me as if i'm being too much that it made them look shocked.

"Sit down, Stella Amaria," Dad said once again.

This stupid old man who made me suffer for life and made me experience how to live without feeling love even once.

"I'm sitting here because i want to," I said before i sat back on my chair.

Whatever.

He cleared his throat.No one dared to speak.

"I'm done eating."

I told him so he'll know i have no reason to stay here anymore.

"Fix your atittude-"

"Get out of my house first," I cutted Layla.

I faced her so i could fully see her reaction.She shut her mouth off and rolled her eyes.

"Sinabi kong mamamatay na ako, at ngayon may lakas pa kayo ng loob na umasta ng ganito sa harapan ko??," Hindi makapaniwalang sambit ni Dad.

Hindi ko alam at hindi ko maintindihan kung ano ba anh ini expect niyang gawin ko o sabihin ko pag katapos niyang ianunsyo na mamamatay na sya.I don't care if they all die in hell.

I could live without him, i could live without anyone.Everyone here is annoying, the only reaon that made me stay in this house is because i don't want his wife and childrens to be satisfied here living with his riches.

"I am dying,and before i die and give you all my legacy..," He paused and look at me before he swallowed hard.

"I want you to give me a grandchild."

I almost fell down from my seat to the floor because of what he said.He is definitely talking to me!this old hag!

"Wow..," I almost whispered,amused.

I slowly shook my head while looking straight to his eyes.

"Pag katapos mong sirain ang buong buhay ko, gusto mo naman sirain ang sarili ko para lang sa kagustuhan mo?," I asked.

Tumayo ako at mag kasalubong na ang dalawang kilay ko.

"I said what i said, Stella.Kung gusto mo ang pamana ko, give me a grand child first-"

"Why don't you ask these stupid daughter of your wife to give you a grand daughter?," I said in a loud voice.I almost yell.

"Stella you are already twenty two-"

"Shut up!"

Sigaw ko saka ko nilingon si Jasmine.

So this is what he want?to have a grand child before he dies?he want to experience how to love a grand child when he can't even take care of his daughter properly??

How pathetic.

"Stella."

Dad stood up too.

"If you want to die then just go and die!don't make me do the thing i don't want," I said before i almost walk out but then, i need them to hear something from me first.

My eyes are buring in mix emotions, pain, anger, and a little bit of sadness as i look at Jasmine and her stupid daughters.

"I will make you all suffer as long as i'm alive.I won't let you have this mansion freely and peacefully!You won't get anything from us!," I yelled before i walked out and go straight to my room.

How dare him be fooled by that woman!

Is that one of his plan?make them have his properties and money easily after he died?meanwhile,i need to be pregnant first before he give me those?

Ipinag babato ko ang mga unan na nasa kama ko dahil sa inis na gusto kong ilabas.

I won't make them satisfied.I wont do what they want.

Nanatili ako sa loob ng kwarto ko hanggang sa hindi ko na namalayan na nakatulog na pala ako ng mahimbing.

"Stella, may sasabihin ako sa'yo," Dad said in morning.

I am sitting on the couch while scrolling on the screen of my ipad and eating pizza peacefully.

"Don't talk to me," I said without even taking a glance on him.

I heard him released a deep sigh before he sat on the sofa infront of me.

"We are going out of the country tomorrow," He said but it did'nt shock me so i remained calm and silent.

"Do you,by any chance,want to come with us?," He asked, hoping for me to say yes.

I raised my head to see his poker face with hopeful eyes.

"For what?," I asked even if i'm fully not interested.Who would want to come out of town with him and his second family.

"To enjoy, to have fun as a whole family while i'm still here, alive and breathing..."

As he said those words,i felt something that touched my heart but i did'nt mind it as usual.

Maingat kong kinuha ang tissue na nasa lamesa saka ko ito marahang ipinang punas sa aking kamay.

"I will be happy to be alone here," I said confidently and once again, i heard him sighed as if he expected me to answer like that but still could'nt accept it.

"Stella, i know i've done a lot of damages in you ever since you was a child.I wanna take it all away from you before i die.I want to have no regret when i die."

I stopped from what i am doing before i glanced at him.I could'nt speak.I was too stunned that i became speechless.

Through his eyes, i can freely see those emotions that his face could'nt express.I can see longing, pain, and hope.

They never cared about me, ever since i was a child.I am always the kid who's lost and can't tell them how much hurt i am whenever they act like they never think of what will i feel in their every actions and decisions.

I am still the young Stella, who always expect something i want to happen that's why i always ended up being disappointed.

"You can't take all the pain you've caused me as if it's just a little thing," I said in a serious tone while looking at his face.

"You can't even do something to your stupid wife and her demonic childrens when they are framing me up to something i never did, just to make me look bad," I said in a hard tone before i stood up.

He quickly stood up too.

"Stella..."

As if he's giving up.

"And if you want to die, just die.Don't ask me to give you a grandchild when you could'nt even take care of me when i was a child."

I saw pain crossed in his both brown eyes after i said those words.

I ignore it even if i felt guilty, somehow.

I just left him and walked out of the inside our mansion to the fountain infront of our mansion.

"Madame Stella-"

"Leave me alone."

I cutted off the maid that was about to come near me, maybe to ask me if i need something.They always do that.These lousy maids are acting like they care about me but i always here them talk shits behind my back.They always talk about my bad atittude and the way i am proud exposing it to everyone.I don't even care.Not even a bit.