Chapter Two
The rest of the day went by pretty quickly considering I didn’t actually do much. Ryan had come home about half an hour ago, I made him dinner and he left me alone, so far, so good. I made an excuse to go to my room and he didn’t ask any questions.
I decided to just watch some tv until it was late enough to go to bed. This was literally my life and it fucking sucked. I turned on Netflix and just found a random documentary to keep myself busy.
It was only about 20 minutes in when I heard Ryan come up the stairs and I paused the TV and froze, Silently praying and begging that he wasn’t going to come in. I listened carefully, trying to work out where his footsteps were going. I hadn’t even realised I was holding my breath until I heard his bedroom door close and I let out the biggest gasp.
Christ, I nearly suffocated myself!
I unpaused the show and snuggled down, getting comfortable. I knew Ryan, once he had gone to his room, that was it, he was in for the night and now I could really relax. As I laid there, getting snuggly, I found my eyes glancing over at the open computer.
I had managed to forget all about those emails all day, but now I’ve noticed the computer again… It was all I could think about. I shook my head, telling myself to have some god-damn self-control.
...but the more I tried not to think about it, the more I couldn’t STOP thinking about it.
No, I refuse to go over there and read the rest of the emails. None of them left were from Alexander so what was the point?! I turned over onto my stomach and pulled my pillow under my body so that I could be more comfortable.
Staring at the TV, I could feel my eyes getting heavy and smiled. I was getting sleepy and that was good because it meant the sooner I went to sleep... The sooner it was another day down.
…. And right now, life was all about just surviving day-to-day.
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I felt myself roll over in my sleep and it woke me up. Sure enough, when I opened my eyes, I was staring at the ceiling and instantly closed my eyes again.
I was wrong… I wasn’t safe…
I felt the familiar tug and pull as Ryan started removing my clothes and it was like my body went into automatic mode. I became numb and only moved when I knew I had to. I had learned over the years to just ‘’cooperate’’ and it will be over sooner.
I turned my head and looked at the wall. Every time, my eyes went to the same spot and they didn’t move until he was done…
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I laid in bed, I hadn’t gone back to sleep after Ryan left last night. I never did after. I wasn’t afraid, I just... Couldn’t. It was like my body wouldn’t let me.
I heard him leave and still didn’t move for another half an hour or so, but when I eventually did, I stipped my bed and put clean sheets on before heading to the bathroom for my daily morning shower.
I hissed in pain as I climbed in but as soon as the water hit me, it was like everything that happened before that moment was instantly washed away. It still surprised me sometimes how I could ache and hurt for the whole day afterwards. You’d think my body was used to it all by now…
I washed myself and then my hair and then it was time to get out. Much like yesterday, I found myself wrapped in a towel, sat in front of my computer but this time, even though I was so curious as to what else Jemma or dad needed to say... I just couldn’t bring myself to turn it on.
I sat there for a good 20 minutes before getting up again and just going to get dressed.
Bounding down the stairs just as the postman slipped some letters through the door, I picked them up and just dumped them on the table by the door before heading into the kitchen to make myself something to eat.
I hadn't even had time to look for anything before the phone started ringing. I grabbed it quickly and answered it before checking to see who it was.
‘Hello?’ I tucked the phone between my ear and shoulder and set about making myself a sandwich.
‘Harley? Oh thank god, listen, we need you to come in and cover a shift, we are completely swamped and David phoned in sick!’. I rolled my eyes, annoyed. Something David did often, and it was always ME that was asked to cover his shift. I suppose... It's more money at the end of the month.
‘Yeah, Ok, but I can’t get there for about an hour or so’.
‘Ok, Ok, Just hurry!’. My boss hung up before I could say anything else. I finished making something to eat and headed back upstairs to find my uniform.
I wasn’t all that annoyed. It kept me busy, but a bit of notice other than ‘’just hurry’’ would have been nice, But I suppose that wasn’t works fault.
Once I had eaten and gotten dressed, I headed out to work, hoping it would only be for a few hours, but you never know. You could be rotated to work 4 hours and end up staying all day.
I just had to tell myself ‘’money, money, money’’... and that’s what I just kept repeating in my head over and over again on my way to work...
Chapter Three***Hours Later***I walked in the front door and took my jacket off. I could hear football in the living room so avoided it. Ryan was home.Great.There goes any peace and quiet.I headed to the kitchen to see what I could make for dinner and was surprised when I saw Ryan sitting at the dining table. I figured he was watching TV. He just looked up at me, an unbothered expression on his face before he went back to reading the paper.‘Evening’. If I didn’t make an effort to talk to him after I've seen him, he would say I was being ‘’rude’’ and ‘’punish’&rsquo
Chapter FourI waited till Ryan went to bed… and then waited another hour or so until I was sure he was really asleep. I crept down the hallway and peeked into his room. He was snoring loudly, thankfully, he was definitely sleeping.Going back to my room, I looked at my bed. My suitcase packed with everything that actually meant something to me. I didn’t plan on coming back this time, so I didn’t want to worry about what I was leaving behind. On top of the case were my passport and the very little amount of money I had to my name…. And then the plane ticket.I had enough to get me to the airport and something to eat.I kept checking the clock, the flight out wasn’t for another 8 or so hours. I was defi
Chapter FiveI could feel my eyelids getting heavy. I had been up all night and I was so tired. I knew if I could make it one more hour, I could sleep on the plane. Jemma had replied and said she was glad I was coming and that she knew what time my flight was meant to land and she would be there to pick me up.I had asked her how many of the guys were locked up… apparently, all of them were which... Was shocking. I was with them long enough… and had enough experience with their ‘’rivals’’ to know that the whole MC being locked up in prison wasn’t good for business… legal or otherwise.I went and got another coffee before I headed for my gate. We left in about an hour which means we will be boarding any minute now…
Chapter SixPulling into the lot, It was strange not to see the massive row of familiar bikes. Sure, there was a couple, but I didn’t recognise any of them. It was weird being here knowing I wouldn’t be seeing Ron or Alex or Harry or Jackson or any of the other guys.‘After you left, the guys recruited some of the members from other charters’. Jemma told me randomly. ‘After Pulp and Newbie died, they needed some new members and then once all the drama over their arrest, they needed to make sure their turf would be safe while they were inside.’‘How is everyone else handling it all?’‘We’re all doing what we can. The girls have their own jobs so they are supporting their families r
Chapter SevenSomeone shaking my shoulder broke me out of my random dream. I groaned and refused to open my eyes, but whoever it was didn’t let up. For a minute, I forgot where I was and my mind automatically went to thinking it was Ryan. As soon as the thought popped into my head, I shot up and the shadowy figure peering over me, quickly moved back.‘What the hell?!’ I asked confused and disoriented. I didn’t even realise I had fallen asleep. I wasn’t even tired. The room was pitch black. I leaned over and tapped the base of the lamp on the bedside table, instantly lighting the room up with a warm yellow glow and I saw it was just Jemma.‘Sorry darling, I didn’t want to disturb you, but we ordered some dinner, you must be starving’. As
Chapter EightA few weeks have passed since I came back to PTV and not much has happened. Jemma and the girls go and see the guys every week. Even though I didn’t make it obvious, whenever they came back, telling me all about how well they were doing and how great it was to see them, I was bitter. Very bitter and very jealous.Jemma still hasn’t shared what her plan actually was for getting the guys out of prison or why she needed me to help her… which was strange because she said I needed to come back as soon as possible and it just feels like we're all mooching around, wasting time...I tried asking a few times but she just kept telling me she was waiting on some information and then she was going to share it with everyone. It seemed weird but I
Chapter NineWalking back, the heat was more annoying than pleasant now. I couldn’t help but think… How long had Jemma been seeing that man behind Ron’s back? Was it a recent thing or had it been going on for a while?I mean, I think I was proof enough that Ron wasn’t exactly faithful… at least he hadn’t been in the past, I couldn’t judge her, I didn’t know enough about their relationship, or care to for that matter, to do that.I was almost home when I heard a car honk and pull up next to me. I looked over and saw Jemma, smiling, waving at me. I debated just ignoring her, but she knew I had seen her now, it would just cause more awkward tension later on. I headed over to see what she wanted.
Chapter TenJemma’s Point of ViewAs I pulled away from my lover’s lips, movement in the distance caught my eye and I saw Harley as she walked away. Oh no, she must have seen us.Shit!‘What’s wrong?’ I looked at Allan, the panic must have been clear on my face, he let go of me instantly and turned around to see what I was looking at. ‘What is it?!’‘We were seen, that’s what’.‘WHAT?!’ I rolled my eyes at his over dramatic reaction. ‘Ron will chop my dick off and have me killed if he found out about us!’.