The Heck I'll Change Desire?

I'm here now in mom's office, I'm looking out the window because I want to see the entering students of our school, I also want to see Cristof enter the school gate.

"Our dear Bam, are you waiting for someone to come in? You've been there for a while now" I immediately looked at mom and smiled at her

"Yes, I just want to see him enter the school gate," I said a little shyly

she immediately stood up from her seat and came to me, "Is that Cristof? My Berries, don't starve yourself, go to the gate and wait there, remember the more you distance yourself from your mate, the more hungry you will be to be with him," said mom and grabbed my hair then kissed me on the forehead

I immediately took a deep breath, "but mom when I get close to him sometimes I can't help but get hurt and cry, then dad doesn't like him" I said calmly which made her laugh softly,

"It's not because your dad doesn't like him, you should not like him, Bam your dad just doesn't want to see you cry and hurt, as you are destined to be the Alpha of Ulrika's Clan it is your responsibility to follow what you want not what those around you want or your parents want if you are hurt and crying because of him but you are happier with him and he fulfills your desire, the wrong is not him or you," said mom which made me wonder,

"Then what's wrong?" I said to her while looking into her eyes, "that's what you need to know, just remember to be a good Alpha in your clan sometimes you have to step back and look at the event again, in that way you will know what you want to do and what you should do, and remember that your happiness is the happiness of your clan, your confidence in yourself is your clan's confidence in you and when you are weak your clan is weak too, do you understand Bam?" Mom said to me as she immediately returned to her table and sat in her chair

"What are you waiting for there? Go to the gate and wait for him there, your desire is the desire of your clan, remember that only you can answer your questions and only your mate can help you to answer your questions yourself" Mom said smiling as she turned to me

I was about to go out when the door opened and dad came out, "My Bam! Do you know how much I miss you? I miss you so much," dad happily greeted as he came closer to hug me, "Darling, Bam needs to hurry don't disturb him first, you are spoiling our daughter too much so his mate is saying that we are still babysitting the destined Alpha of Ulrika's clan" mom said to dad while her hands were closed

dad immediately snorted, "That's not what he said, he said we are babying the next Alpha of Ulrika's Clan," dad said seriously causing mom's eyebrows to furrow, "That's the same meaning, Bam you can go, I'll take care of your dad," Mom said seriously as she excused me to go

I just kissed Dad on the cheek and left mom's office,

while walking I was still thinking about what mom said

I just thought about why mom tells me not to starve myself and the more I stay away from Christof the more I will be hungry to be with Christof

can that happen even if I'm human?

maybe I'm really a werewolf? and not a human,

hey, what are the things I'm going to say to myself, first I said what if I'm really a werewolf, then now I'm telling myself that maybe I really am a werewolf,

why is it that I was not considered the child of my real parents, then whoever else is not my real parent still considers me a child, the world is really messed up

I don't know if the world doesn't want me or if the world wants me

"You're blocking the way Berries" I immediately woke up to my senses when I heard Cristof's voice

I immediately looked at him, I didn't expect to be hurt by the coldness of his eyes

again

I'm still hurt

I can not understand myself

"When do you plan to leave in front of me Berries?" he said seriously which made me step back, "Sorry," I said and looked in another direction which made him take a deep breath, "Look at me Berries," he said making me look at him

I was very surprised when he kissed my forehead, "I find it hard to control myself when I talk to you, the monster that hides in my body wants to claim you, he wants you to moan badly, but I don't want to" he said seriously and I didn't intentionally look into his eyes

all I really see is coldness

You really don't like me very much

I remembered when I told him that I couldn't look at him but his answer was that it was okay, he doesn't care about me anyway

now I know

he was surprised to see me smile

"Thank you, I understand now," I said with a smile that caused him to wonder, 

he was about to hold me when I stepped away from him, "You don't want me to be a mate right? I don't know why you're mad at the real you, but I only know one thing, you're pathetic Cristof, you're taking your anger out on me, maybe that's why dad doesn't like you because he sees that you don't care about yourself, and for sure you don't care about your clan either, do you know that your desire is what your clan desires? I just learned that a while ago, now I understand, I can look into your eyes without getting hurt, do you know why? my desire has changed and it's not you anymore" I smiled and said

I'm still hurt because I don't know, maybe it's because I learned to love him because he's my mate, but now I don't really know, "I like the way you smell now Berries" he said and tried to come closer, I immediately sneered at him, "Of course, because you can't smell my pain anymore, you know what I mean Cristof right, don't worry I won't spread it" I said seriously then left him dumbfounded

Unexpectedly, tears welled up in my eyes

I feel a lot of chest pain right now and I don't know why

tears won't stop in my eyes

while walking they started looking at me

the world really hates me

"Why is the destined Alpha of Ulkira's Clan crying?" I immediately looked at the speaker

It's the guy with light blue hair and when I remember he stole my first kiss, "Sorry I forgot to introduce myself, I'm Geri Nyx the Alpha of the Nyx's Clan" he said and smiled, "and the one who stole my first kiss, Am I right? I didn't know that the Alpha of Nyx's Clan was suspicious" I said seriously making him laugh

I immediately looked into his eyes

It's warm and he looks comfortable, "It's not because of that, because I saw that you talked to Alpha Cristof," he said with a smile which made me smile, "so you also think that he might be the reason why I'm crying?" I said smiling while wiping my tears

I noticed that he put his hands behind his back, "Berries, you know that the desire of the Alpha is the desire of his Clan, right?" He said seriously then started walking, I immediately started walking too, "So? What does that have to do with me?" I suddenly asked him, "Be My Luna, I promise to protect you from anyone, even my friends" he said with a smile that made me laugh

he immediately stopped, "Why? I'm serious" he said as he walked towards me and I stopped walking, "I'm sorry, you're weird because you asked me to be Luna and not Mate," I said to him seriously reason for him to close his arms

"Berries, when you become the Luna of my clan it means that you are my mate, and that is the desire of my clan, but the truth is that it is my desire, I just want to take them with me because they are important to me, Berries can you be my Luna?" he said seriously which surprised me

how did we get to this?

how did it happen?

I immediately swallowed my saliva, "Geri, I don't know what to tell you, I don't even know why this is happening, you know that Cristof is my mate" when I hesitated, he laughed,

"I'm just correcting you, former mate, you changed your desire, didn't you? I know because your smell changes, Cristof doesn't know that because he experienced different types of your smell, but we? You can't fool us, you can choose who will be your mate, Berries or Bam? I thought you were just a Human, I didn't know that you had the blood of a werewolf running around you, tell me, how did that happen Bam?" he said making me startled

I was confused by what he was saying, "What are you talking about? I don't know why my desire changed, all I know is that I understood Cristof and I no longer feel hurt when I look into his eyes because that's why I have the blood of a werewolf "I said seriously with a serious look on his face.

"Well I don't care about your secret or your family, if you don't want to be my Luna, I will make sure that I will be your mate," he said and started walking, "First rest, then get ready because you really smell good not only I can smell that, everyone can because you gave them a chance to be your mate, I know you knew that before you changed your desire," he said and turned his back on me

I do not know

why doesn't he believe that I don't know?

do I look like a liar?

I don't know how my desire changed

Maybe I need to ask my dad and mom, maybe they know something

I was going back to mom's office when I met Cloud, "Strawberries? I'm really looking for you," he said happily, which made me wonder, "Why is Alpha Cloud looking for me? Do you need anything?" I asked him with a smile. "ah wait, that's just Berries" I added when I realized he added my name,

he immediately laughed and scratched his head, "Ah, I'm sorry, but can I just have Strawberries? That's my favorite," he said shyly, which made me wonder even more, "So you like me? Are you all tripping on me?? at first, you four threatened to spread my secret, and now? What's the what? Do you really intend to destroy my life?" I said calmly because honestly, I can't be nice anymore

I really can't take it anymore, after what Cristof did, "If you can say that, it only means one thing, you're the one I smelled so fragrant, Strawberries once I gave a chance to be a mate, I'm really doing everything to get that." he said with a smile then brought his face closer to mine,

he immediately came to my ear and whispered, "I can kiss you better than them" he said which surprised me, I immediately pushed him softly, "What are you saying? Do I look like I'm chasing a kiss?" I said to him seriously causing him to stand up straight,

"No, but your body? We're aware, yes," he said then touched my cheek, "Do you remember me holding your arms when the four of us threatened you? When I first saw you, I immediately knew you had Werewolf blood, they didn't smell that, do you know why? Because someone cursed you, so I thought I might be your mate and that's when I was sure that I could be your mate but I found out something from Cristof and we thought he was your mate, but He can't smell that you're a werewolf so I thought I still have a chance" he said then ruffled my hair, I couldn't believe what he said, I was about to ask when suddenly a familiar voice said,

"Oh, so that's the way it is" I immediately turned to the speaker and was surprised to see Geri,

"Hi My Luna, sorry if I follow you, the truth is I just want to hear your parents talk, but I don't think so I'll hear the truth from our friend," Geri said smiling and walking with Cloud,

I immediately heard Cloud's heavy breathing, "You didn't ask a question, did you? So Geri, can you stop Strawberries, you're scaring him," he said, waking up and I swallowed.

Actually, Cloud is scarier because he said he can kiss better, and then he knows that my body needs that and then he knows that I'm cursed, who wouldn't be afraid of that?

"Hah? It's even more believable that he's afraid of you, so how did you say that Bam is cursed?" Geri said seriously, causing me to look seriously, "Yance tell me to find a vampire and do everything to drink their blood because Bam is important to him, that's the only thing I could say because if I said too much he will hate me and that's not what I want," Cloud said with a sigh that was the reason for Geri to remove her arm from Cloud,

I was even more surprised and confused, what does Yance have to do with this? I wanted to see him even more, and Geri suddenly giggled, "That's why, well I don't want to make him angry either haha! Who would want to make that werefire angry, Interesting" Geri said with a smile that was the reason for me being confused

I don't know what they're talking about. I don't know if I have the right to ask questions about myself. I'm confused, "What, when will I pick up Yance at the airport?" I asked shyly,

The two of them looked at me in surprise, "Cristof didn't tell you? Actually, only Cristof knows, right?" he said seriously as Geri turned to him, "But he told me, you know--"I'm not done with that I should say, "Cloud!" Cristof called and when he cut off what I was going to tell Cloud, Cloud immediately approached Cristof, the truth is, where were they hiding suddenly they appeared,

Cristof looked at me and I immediately looked in another direction, "Ohh...you changed your desire but he is still the one your heart wants, tsk tsk tsk...what you did was dangerous, my Luna" he said seriously Geri, which caused me to be annoyed with him,

"Strawberries!" Cloud called me as an excuse to calm down a bit, I immediately turned to him but I was surprised Cristof smiled at me, "What's wrong with you!" I said with furrowed brows which surprised Cristof and Cloud, but Cloud immediately noticed that I was looking at Cristof so he turned to the side,

Cristof immediately came to me with a smile, "Sup! my beautiful mate, do you know how much I miss the smell of your pain?" he said with a smile as he touched my chin, "Why are you surprised? Do you want me to guess what your new desire is?" he said then came to my neck and inhaled my scent, I immediately forced myself to calm down which caused him to laugh softly, "You badly don't want me, to smell your feelings? I'm going to tell you Berries, not because your desire is not to let me smell your feelings, I can never smell them anymore, and not because I can't smell them I'm not the one anymore your mate" said Cristof seriously which was the reason to surprise me,

is that really my desire?

because if yes, I'm a fool

"Cristof, we also smelled the pain you're talking about, so don't think too much, it's not good for your behavior," Geri said seriously and moved me away from Cristof, I immediately looked at Geri, "Thank you," I said softly and smiled I said, "Anything for you my lady," he said causing me to grin

Then Cloud came to me, "I hope you'll be patient with Cristof, by the way, next week you're going to pick up Yance, okay Strawberries, leave us here because it might get hotter if you stay here" he said laughing Cloud, I immediately went and looked at Cristof again,

he immediately smiled and came to me and kissed me on the lips, I immediately pushed him, "What are you doing" I said seriously which caused him to smile and pinch the tip of my nose, "You missed my kiss, didn't you" he said I was surprised,

I immediately looked at him evilly, "Are you crazy!?" I said and didn't think twice to run

while running I couldn't stop touching my lips,

maybe his lips are my favorite taste, "Stupid, of course, I miss it" I said and smiled