Burning white is all I see, uninterrupted, everything around me like I'm a room of nothingness. The white burns my eyes as if looking at a flame for too long. This isn't death, I've had several near-death experiences and this isn't death.
What was I doing beforehand? Ah yes, I had laid my head down for a night's rest. It must be another one of those dreams I have, this time yet it's a different setting than the last few. Where is the small girl then? I can't see her, perhaps I should call out for her.
"Help, please I need to remember!" I call out, one of the first things that come to mind. Spontaneously saying it, almost like an automatic response, little control over my words. This white, screaming colour, yet so basic and simple, marring my eyes.
My eyes rushing around to find something, anything but this empty whiteness. "Help, help! It's freezing cold." A familiar and soft voice says, it's t
My eyes flutter open, a moment of peace before the immense pain of the freezing cold whiteness consumes my body. I close my eyes and clench my teeth, taking a moment to get used to it. Calming down a bit once the pain subsides.With the sound of a knock at the door, I sigh out at the pain in my arm, why me, why is this happening, I need to find the source. Throwing my legs over my bed, I make my way over to the door and open it."Good morning deary, are you feeling any better?" Matilda asks the morning light glowing on her brown skin. I nod, "Yes, your soup did help quite a bit." I say with a gentle smile, she seems to light up a bit. "That's lovely to hear, I have a letter for you." She says handing me said letter."Well thank you." I smile at her, she nods, "Alright then, breakfast is almost and then after the other schools arrive for the festival. Do you feel well enough to go help them to their rooms?" She asks kindly with slight worry.
I can hear the horse clattering and wheels coming up to the school as Pheonix and I get closer to the main entrance. I straighten my shirt sleeves, walking to the main door.My shoes ecko-ing through the halls, you can hear people going in out their dorm rooms. Friend groups going down the stairs to see their friends arriving in the carriages.Making sure Pheonix hasn't fallen behind, I open the big wooden front door of the main entrance. Heads turn in my direction, you can hear the chatter already rise. Girls swooning and whispering over me, I ignore it as I always do.Yet there are some that whisper about Pheonix, I hear them say they like a man in a dress. I see him get flustered. New rumors start thinking he's a new lover or saying I fired my last one. You see, my last servant didn't follow me around, she was old and preferred to stay out of the spotlight.Walking over to the first principal I see. I hold out my left hand to shake, keeping the right b
This is the last week of term one, of this school year. Nevertheless, it still feels as tho this quarter has been going on incessantly. I take one big, dragged, and shaky sigh as I stare up at the roof of my room. The lump in my throat attacks my airways over and over.Tears burn my eyes, on the brink of full-on crying. All the memories from me and my mom come flooding in for the millionth time today. Gripping the sheets as I try not to weep, I can't, not now. Crying is weak, after everything I've been through, I am not weak.Yet, I miss her more than anything in me. She was always the one keeping me going. I would do my best to make sure I could go on a vacation and see her. Yet now I only have myself as a reason to get up in the mornings...For some clarification, she died about two years ago. She had an unfortunate case of malaria. I was at her side, her last words being "I love you," as she squeezed my hand. I could feel t
The air is thick with tension. No words are spoken and the inside of my check is chewed to shreds. My eyes glued to the floor as the silence rings in my ears. So loud, so so loud, overbearingly loud. Forcing my thoughts to scream like sirens in my head. The thoughts I've been running from, hiding from. They face me down and now that I have no choice to listen...They're silent. As silent as the sea, loud waves crashing against large rocks of enormous sizes.I've only been to the beach once, for a school trip. The sea loomed over us when stood there in awe. I'd only heard stories before, but no words could describe it. The silence, not a single passing stranger. The village roads were always so busy and the castle walls were no different.There on the beach, it was quiet of people but load by nature. Ocean waves fracturing against the salty earth. The seagulls crooning their unpleasant songs. The splashing of fish and crabs clacking the pinchers. Almost beautiful
Swords clashing and men grunting block out the constant irritants of my father's rants. The smell of sweat and blood heavy in the air. Starring at the ground in utter defeat once I've hit the ground with a hard thud once more. My small, pale body covered in dirt and bruises. My legs covered in turf marks.The dirt and dust burning my wounds, the salty sweat of mine doesn't help either. Tears threatening to spill, I lift my arm and wipe off the sweat from my forehead.Being snapped out of my haze when I feel a force of contact hit the back of my head. My head thumps in pain, my pounding in my ears. "Boy, are you listening to me!" My father yelled in rage. He continues screaming, "Look me in the eyes when I'm talking to you!" I lift my head in silence to look at the king standing in front of me. His face is red and drenched. His teeth are crooked and his face grotesque to look at.
I place my hand on Kathleen's soft cheek, wiping away the tear. "Kath-" I try to say her name again in the hopes to save both our lives but fail, making the problem worse. Feeling as my oxygen is completely cut off. Darkness creeps on my vision, Kath's angelic face being the last thing I see as I return to my memories flashing before me.I open my eyes to the sight of an old woman, a crooked toothed smile spreads across her face when she sees me awaken. "I'll inform master you're awake," she says in a gruff voice. She then scurries off, hunching over. Her form reminds me of a monkey almost.That's rude of me to think, I groan and try to get up and run but to my displeasurement, my frail arms and legs are strapped to a wooden table. The feeling of leather scraping and ripping up my arms encourages me, even more, to stay down.I lay there for some time trying to think of ways to get out. Anxious fantasies that remind me more of
I feel the cold hands of Kathleen's intertwine with mine. The icy feeling soothing the burning of mine. The burning that I've been feeling for so long now, the one that's been agonizing me for the longest time. Her cold hands bring my hand to a bearable temperature after so long of burning.Finally, I feel the relief I've been craving for the longest time, it almost brings my breath back. Closing my eyes again, savoring the feeling.Hoping that her cool but calming embrace is the last thing I feel as I leave this earth. I know that all the memories from our time before may be gone, but I remember this feeling. This feeling of puzzle pieces finally fitting together and like my whole world finally has meaning when I'm with her. Blessed and complete bliss, this feeling I can't forget.It's been two years. They've trained me to become a killing monster. After the rabbit, it was a pig. Which I, now think is pathetic, took a week to kill. Almost dying from hunger
Maids scurry all about, working hard to preparing for the big feast tonight. I sigh, annoyed beyond belief when another one walks right into me. Everyone around stopping at the loud noise, the maid scurries around trying to pick up the candles she dropped. I walk past her with one step, speeding up my pace to Attilia's room.Angrily pushing the door open, a smack heard as the handle hits against the wall with a strong force.Seeing Attilia standing by a table discussing with some of his main men the plan, I walk over to him. "Attilia, is everyone ready?" I ask, my voice echoing and bouncing off the walls. "Yes, everyone is stationed and ready." He says shooing the men out of the room."And the necklaces?" I ask, the wheels turning in my head as I become more focused on the task at hand. He nods, opening a velvet jewel box. In the box are two necklaces. One is a king's crown and the other a queen's crown. I smirk, looking at them an