Chapter Twenty- Four : Mistake

Amanda's P.O.V 

  What was I thinking? I should have known he only wanted one thing from me, and he succeeded in it. It's like I'm under his spell, even when I was pissed off with him for answering his phone and still thrusting into me, I couldn't resist him or my urges. What the hell is wrong with me? I miss him so much; I always feel a pull towards him. Did he have to break my heart all over again? 

  I am walking down the hallway towards my locker. I look round and see Sage is at his locker, he keeps giving me the 'I want to fuck you' look. I'm speechless. How can he be so horny and always ready? Damn. He does look sexy. I bite my lip, trying to stay in control, but those eyes are killing me big time. He is all over Vicki, he has been parading her and other she-wolves in front of me ever since the last time we were together in that classroom. It's killing me seeing him with them.

  I feel so fucking sad. I have been replaced. I feel so heartbroken, but I'm not going to give in, no way. If I do he'll think he can have me in secret and publicly be with the whores he has hanging off of him. I just need to get out of this hall and away from him and his slut. She is grinning and loving on him, but he is staring right at me, licking his lower lip and giving me that look, like he wants me to watch. I'm not going to do it, I'm so sick of this shit. 

  I get to my locker, and I suddenly feel eyes on me. Get out of there, Amanda, just get in your locker, get your stuff and leave, I think to myself. I am feeling very uneasy, just then I am turned around.

  "What are you looking at humi?" Vicki said, I just stared at her. What the fuck? What the hell is her problem? 

  "Nothing much, why?" I snorted, looking her up and down. I feel so proud of myself. Sage is just glaring at me, what the hell is his problem? They need to leave me alone. I need to get away from this shit, but they just keep pulling me back into it. I hate the fact that I still want him to be with me and no one else, but he is just a big player and I don't need to be anywhere near him. 

  I hate him, I love him, but I don't want to get hurt again. I am so confused by my feelings; this is why I have been avoiding him ever since. I don't want to be second best or third or last, I want to be his first and only choice. I stare right back at him and her. I don't want to go through this again. I am done. He's never going to stop flirting with other girls and it's driving me crazy.

  Sage and Vicki are making me feel very angry. I don't want to feel this way. She is clinging to his side, touching and stroking his hand with her fingers. I feel like I want to run away and cry, but I won't, I'm going to stand my ground. I was about to tell him to go away and leave me alone and to take his slut with him, when I saw my friends coming around the corner towards me.

  "Where have you been? Baby girl." Gabe, Vanessa and Guy said in unison, looking at me.

  "You know, trying to get in my locker, but this THING is not letting me," I said, thrusting my thumb at Vicki. She growls at me, but I don't bother acknowledging her. You can keep that to yourself, girlie. You'd better step away from me bitch. I thought to myself.

  "Ok lets go, Amanda." Guy said as Vanessa linked arms with me. 

  "Yeah, ok, lets go," I said, smiling. As I walk past Sage I purposely bump into his shoulder and leave. I hope you are listening to my thoughts, Sage. 

  "I will always remember and love you, but right now if you can hear what I am thinking...leave me alone. I am sick and tired of you shoving your whores in my face. You're a coward, and it's too late to get me back. I will never have your heart; you set it free for everyone but me. You always hide me away in the dark, I keep begging you to pick me and only me, but you don't care." I think to myself, hoping Sage can hear me and that he is listening to me.

  I drag my teeth across my bottom lip and walk away. I look back at him, and he is glaring at me, breathing fast, he definitely heard my thoughts. I felt powerful and dominant. I kept thinking about Vicki, Steph, and whoever else he was fucking that week, those bitches are nothing compared to me. I walk away arm in arm with my friends, the ones I call family, the ones I call my brothers and sisters. I can't stop smiling when I am with them; they are there for me. I am so glad I have them in my life. I feel safe and loved. 

  As we walked together, I started thinking about that time when Vanessa and I finally became friends, we had our problems in the beginning, but we are good now, hell, we are great now. We are so close. She had her suspicions about me and Sage being together, and when she asked me about it, I just slumped down at her feet. She held me and rocked me back and forth, as I told her everything until my crying and tears went away. She knew this whole time, and she never told a sole, she kept it to herself. 

  "It is our little secret. Right here in front of me is a wonderful girl who deserves happiness and we are going to make sure you have fun; you deserve to find love. Don't worry about him, he knows he made the biggest mistake of his life. I saw the way he has been looking at you when you're not looking. He is fascinated by you, he always has been." Vanessa said, wiping my tears away. I give her a look of disbelief. She notices and continues.

  "Why do you think I was always mean to you? At the time, I felt like you were taking my man away from me. I know now that you're not like that. You are innocent, and he took advantage of you." Vanessa said. She grabbed my face gently and faced it towards hers. I looked her in the eyes.

  "I am so sorry about how I treated you. I hope in time we can become closer and maybe even sisters." Vanessa said she is more and more in love with Guy, and he is with her as well. It's beautiful. 

  "He'll come crawling back to you, trust me. Get him jealous." Vanessa said, a smile forming on her face.

  "Who would I get to make him jealous?" I said, looking at her.

  "I have a friend….no, not like that, a really good friend from across town. I'll tell him all about you and let him in on the plan. What happens after that is up to you, girl." Vanessa said, I was a bit shocked when she said she had a friend, but she soon corrected me. 

  "Yes, let's do this," I said, happy about our plan. I just hope it works and brings Sage to his senses. I snapped out of my daze just as we reached the double doors to go outside to meet Duke, who had something important to tell us. He sounded excited and nervous.

  We finally met up with Duke by the trees out front of the school, he looks so happy he can't stop smiling.

  "Oh my God, oh my God, you are not going to believe this…" Duke said, jumping up and down on the spot.

  "What? What's got you so happy?" Vanessa asked him. His smile was contagious, we couldn't help but smile with him.

  "I have a date…" Duke said.

  "Who's the lucky guy?" I ask.

  "It's my mate. Derek." Duke said, smiling from ear to ear.

  "Oh my God, that is great news. I'm really pleased for you." Vanessa and I said in unison, congratulating him. It looks like things are finally starting to look up for my friends; hopefully, it will start getting better for me, too.