Cave dance

How could I still have feeling for him. The bond was suppose to break once I fell in love with Luther. It's not suppose to still be here. He rejected me. It was suppose to go away after so many decades of not being around Christopher. My emotions will never get better now. I can't reel them in. He doesn't even remember me and it still hurts.

How is this happening. I've seen Christopher multiple time but it was always under the influence so did me seeing him Sober do something that messed everything up. My soul had to latch on to the one God who doesn't want me. It's not like I can kill him either. The moment I do I will break. He latched onto my soul the moment I used magic on him. I should've never did that spell. Now unless I give myself up my soul will be forever his.

I left a hour ago and Im still not calm. Unless I give him back his memories and get him to take back what he said I'll never be calm again. It's like my soul went crazy the moment I seen him, it needs him