I wrote this chapter in pieces. every time i had some time. but i hope it flows well, because it's easier for me to writer chapters in one go. i am still in tenerife. getting sunburned way too often despite using factor 50. but I'm having fun and so is the rest. I'm a vegetarian, so that limits my options during meals, but i go crazy at the dessert buffer. i hope you like the chapter. thanks for being so patient.
Sierra’s pov “Thanks?” I heard Asher say. I was walking to Kate’s room to see if she had woken up, when I heard her say she was going to try and stop being in love with me. I couldn’t go in now, that would be really awkward. And why did it hurt? I wanted her to be my friend. “Maybe you don’t,” Grace said. “Can’t you tell me what I’m supposed to do? Can’t you tell me how I know if I have feelings for Kate?” “You have to figure that out for yourself,” Grace said, “but you’d better do it soon, because Kate might fall out of love with you if you take too long.” I stood in the corridor of the hospital, not sure what to do, when Asher came out holding Leia over his shoulder. “You heard Kate?” Asher asked, seeing me pace the hallway. Asher put Leia down and they walked towards me. I nodded, “yeah, I did.” “It didn’t fucking help that you said she was beautiful and almost kissed Kat.” Leia said. “I didn’t, -“ “Yeah you fucking did. But she is not going to wait for fucking ever for
Leia’s pov “I need to talk to Asher,” dad said. “ Don’t worry, I won’t fucking embarrass you.” I had no fucking clue what dad needed to say, but Asher was leaving tomorrow and I would rather have Asher spend his time with me, than with my dad. But I couldn’t tell him no. So reluctantly, I said. “Fine. He’s coming over in half a fucking hour.” Dad went out to feed the animals, while I waited for my boyfriend to come. It was so fucking hard not to panic, knowing he’d be leaving soon. Would I lose Asher to his mate or would he dump me after realizing, I’m really not that great compared to other women? I hated that he fucking had to leave. Absolutely fucking hated it. But there was fucking shit I could do about it. “Princess, are you freaking out again?” Asher said, walking into the farm. I pouted. “Do you want me to remind you how much I love you and that I will visit every weekend?” My dad came in, “you can tell me. I’ve actually wanted to have a fucking talk with you. The both
Kate’s pov I had the best dream ever while I was in the hospital. I guess it was the drugs, but it felt so vivid. Sierra kissed me and asked me to wait for her. She would never do that. And I would never tell her how I felt. I would never be this open. I hadn’t told Leia about my dream. I would probably, at some point. But she was dealing with enough. Asher just left last week and I knew she was trying to be strong for him. She was driving me insane though, because she had made it her mission to help me walk again. I was doing physical therapy and I was getting more feeling in my legs every day. But I lacked strength and my back hurt, trying to walk hurt. Honestly it really hurt, so I had to take things slow. School had started and I hated, absolutely hated using my wheelchair. But I wasn’t there yet. I could use a walker for two steps, but that was it. And I wanted to do well, my last year. I wanted to have good grades so I could go to college. No idea what I wanted to study yet.
Sierra’s pov “Hey Sierra, Thanks for your letter. I’m sorry for waiting so long to reply. Honestly, Leia kept me really busy. But that’s not the only reason. I thought writing would be easier than talking, but I have made maybe ten drafts before finally giving up and writing this one. Leia and Asher convinced me to just write. Let if flow or whatever. Well, Leia used a lot more curse words when she said it. That I shouldn’t think, but just write. So here goes nothing. First of all, I am happy that you were able to finalize an alliance. I guess it’s good practice, considering not all packs will be happy with a female Beta. I hope you don’t mind the extra pressure of proving yourself. But I know just like your dad, you’ll be able to convince anyone to like you. I did some research about the Black Lupus pack and it doesn’t surprise me that they aren’t used to female Beta’s. A lot of their rules and rituals seem a bit outdated, but to each their own I guess. As long as they don’t mist
Asher’s pov The weekend with Leia was great, but saying goodbye was just as hard as the first time. Luckily I had Sierra to distract me, because she was just telling me about accompanying my niece to the movies. “Promise you won’t tell your aunt? Because if Sue finds out I told you, she will never trust me again.” I rolled my eyes, “should I pinky swear?” Sierra slapped my arm, “you’re her nephew, you sure you want to hear it all?” I sighed, “I don't really care. Just tell me.” Logan laughed inside my head, “don’t lie, you love gossip just as much as your parents.” Sierra smiled, “so, your so called ‘innocent’ niece, is the female you. Her dad is worried about her, saying she shouldn’t date? Scared of her friend, ‘the player,” she said, using air quotes. Goddess, she was really dragging this story out. She had mindklinked me in the weekend and told me she had some exciting to tell me on Monday when I was back. I thought it would be about work. Sierra was dedicated, a bit too m
Kate’s pov Asher has been back here every weekend and Leia lights up those weekend. I’m proud of her though. She could have felt down and not done anything about it. But she’s going to therapy, hanging out with me, working at the farm. She says keeping busy keeps her distracted and it’s working. There are still days that she’s doing less than fine and I can usually tell because she’s forgetful or really moody or she calls in sick and spends the whole day in bed. But we all have bad and good days I suppose. I have been writing with Sierra and after that first letter, I wrote all of them without thinking. It’s not easy and the thought of seeing her again makes me so anxious, because next to Leia, Sierra is the only one that knows me really well now. I am trying to be more open in general. With my parents it was always a bit easier, but I’m trying to take it to the next step. Especially now that Asher isn’t here, it’s much easier to talk at the table, simply because I'm the only chil
Leia’s pov “I am so fucking tired, Ash. Why the fuck did you have to wake me up in the middle of the night.” “You weren’t complaining then,” Asher said, smirking. He came in late last night and went straight to see me. I was sleeping fucking deep, but not deep enough for Asher to wake me up and screw my fucking brains out. “I missed you so fucking much, but I wanted to look nice for you on my birthday. Not like a freaking zombie that hasn’t slept.” I told Asher. “Princes, take a nap. You still have time. I will leave you alone, because if I take a nap with you, we won’t sleep.” I sighed and went back to my bed. It felt so much fucking better, knowing Asher was here. I was working so fucking hard to not feel like shit all the time. I knew being a feminist and all that fucking stuff, that I shouldn’t let my happiness depend on someone else. But Asher knew me. He saw through my bullshit and he always knew how to calm me down. Being with him was so fucking good and he made me forget
Sierra’s pov “What the hell is wrong with you!” Grace growled. I ignored her and focused on listening to what Emma and Jara where talking about with Kate. “.. so maybe you could join? Especially now that you’re walking?” Kate looked over at me and then back to her aunts, “yeah, that sounds nice!” I walked closer when aunt Emma spotted me too, “Sierra! O you missed it, it was so freaking cool. Kate just stood up from her chair and dove into the pool like a mermaid or something.” I smiled and pretended to be fine. “That does sound cool. I’m sorry I missed it. Traffic was crazy.” Kate shrugged, “it’s okay.” But I could tell she was lying. It wasn’t okay. She had looked so beautiful diving into the pool and I almost gasped when I saw her stand up. She looked like a goddess. But I still couldn’t make myself go into the party. Even when Grace threatened to shift and take over, I kept my distance. I stood like a weirdo in the bushes, watching the party from afar. “And what the hell i