“It looks like you are pregnant,” the doctor said.I almost threw up right there and then. It was not something I wanted to happen. I did not want a child. I could never go through something like that.“I want to get rid of it,” I said.“Well, are you certain? You can take a few days to think about it, my lady,” he said.“I don’t want to think about it. Just get rid of it.”“Is its father a human?” he asked. “I need to know in order to make a medicine that would work.”I shook my head. “A vampire. Not an original vampire. My husband’s father is an original vampire.”“I see. And are you certain it’s his child?”“You heard the rumors,” I said.“I need to confirm this. I cannot endanger your life by giving you a medicine that won’t suit you.”“It’s his. I have been only with him,” I said.“I will bring it to you in seven days. Please rest and mentally prepare yourself.”There was nothing to prepare myself for. I never wanted a child and I never would have a child, no matter what. I did n
“How are you feeling?” Leo asked.“Fine,” I replied.“With all this going on… Are you really okay?”“Father will arrive tomorrow. I don’t know how to feel about that,” I admitted. There was no point in lying to Leo, who had been with me no matter what.“You will be okay. He won’t hurt his own child,” he said. “Have you decided what to do about your…?” He glanced at my stomach. We were sitting in my chamber. He sat on a chair beside the bed. I had barely left the bed since I was lightheaded most of the time. I did not believe it was because of the pregnancy, but because of the long sea voyage. “I don’t want it. I never wanted a child.”“You said Alexander wanted you to have Demian’s child as soon as possible. I must say he will be furious when he hears that you got rid of it. Demian too.”“Demian said he doesn’t want any children either. But yes, Alexander would be furious. It’s good that I don’t give a fuck about what Alexander thinks.”“Children are extra work. I’m glad you don’t w
I felt so small in front of Father’s blue eyes. I stared at the ground. I did not want to see what kind of look was in his eyes.“Tell me,” he said.My fingers were shaking. I clasped my hands together to stop my fingers from shaking.“Tell me,” he repeated. There was something in his voice that was scaring me.“I’m… I’m with child,” I mumbled.“Whose child?”He knew the answer. Why was he asking me this? It was not like whatever he heard was wrong.“Demian Silverclaw,” I whispered. I could not seem to get the words out too loud out of my mouth. I feared if I spoke loudly, Father would get only angrier.“A Silverclaw’s child. My own daughter,” he grumbled. Father was not yelling, but he might as well be doing that. It would be better if he just yelled. I could take it. But when he was talking quietly, he became even more dangerous. It meant he was angrier than ever before. “Did he force himself on you?”My legs were shaking too. I tasted bile at the back of my throat. I might throw u
“I cannot believe I expected help from him,” Rose murmured.“But you got help,” I said, not being able to keep the anger from my voice. It was not Rose’s fault. Yet, I could not help feeling anger towards her and everyone else.“Jade Star values kin above everything else,” Rose said. “Besides, I got his daughter back and even helped his son escape. He said he will give me shelter. He will continue to do so if I help him in return.”“How?”“I have to tell him all the secret paths leading to House Silverclaw and every secret chambers and ways,” Rose said.“And will you tell him?”“It is a deal. I will,” Rose said, although I could not bring myself to believe her. Something about her made me distrust everything she did.Since I was a child, I and all the other children were led to believe by our parents that all Silverclaws were monsters. They were dangerous and they lied all the time. They killed people without mercy. They killed for fun. I wanted to kill those monsters back then. Becau
I woke up and drank some soup and went to sleep. It was a routine I maintained for last couple of days. Perhaps it had been a week, or more than that. I could not remember. I did not have the energy to care about that. Honestly, I did not care about anything.It was hard to breathe. Every time I tried to take a breath, there was a sharp ache in my ribs and in the middle of my back. The two ribs would mend on their own, but it would take about eight weeks, the doctor said.I was instructed not to walk. But tonight, I had to walk. I had to go somewhere.I sat up, wincing at the sharp ache that vibrated through my whole essence. This simple movement made me want to lie back down and forget about the whole thing.But I had to do this. I promised myself that I would do this.My whole body was shaking, not just my fingers. I stood up, gripping the bed frame tightly.‘I have to do this. I have to do this. This is the only way,’ I kept murmuring like a mantra.I took a step, still gripping th
Riding a horse was bad for my current condition. But this was the only way. We needed to go through the forest. We had no way of getting away other than that.When I told Grandfather that I wanted to leave, he did not try to convince me otherwise. Instead, he agreed right away and promised to help me.It was morning already. We did not take the main road since my father’s men would search it.The forest trail was a dangerous path since wolves and other wild animals attacked people here. But it was a risk worth taking at this moment.Leo and the knight did not speak much. Leo kept asking me if I was okay and I nodded at him.Once we heard the galloping of many horses. We did not move until they went away.We ate some hard dried meat, radish and water. We did not dare make a fire since it was bound to attract attention.The knight discarded his attire and wore simple peasant clothes. He was a very tall and good-looking man with blond hair and green eyes. He was quite tall. He must be in
It took us almost two months to reach our destination. Amidst this time, Leo had a bad fever, but he rode on without stopping. Lloid and I begged him to stop so he could take a bit of rest. But he believed that we still had a chance to get caught by my father’s men.Fortunately, the fever had subsided within seven days.I could only imagine how angry my father must be. His own daughter escaped from him. It did not look good for his reputation.At first, I believed my father would not hurt me because I was his daughter. But he proved to be something else entirely. He did not even listen to my reasoning. According to him, no sin was greater than the one I committed by giving my body willingly to a Silverclaw, regardless of the reason for my doing so.Our destination was a small cottage in the mountain side. It used to belong to a farmer couple. Now, Leo and I would live here.When I had told Leo about my plan and asked whether he would join me, he had agreed immediately as if he had bee
The weather was sunny. It was scalding hot to even stand under the sun for just a few minutes. Lloid went to buy us meat and vegetable. His favorite food was fish since he bought it a lot.It had been fifteen days since we started living in the cottage, out of anyone’s reach. No one knew we were here, except for Grandfather and Lloid. Grandfather would not tell anyone, or at least, I hoped he would not. It was hard to keep my trust in someone completely.I sometimes thought about Rose and how she was doing. I was grateful that she helped me escape, although everything did not go the way I hoped it would go. Perhaps Father would let her stay at House Star for a while.It did not matter. I should not worry about her or anyone else.“Shit! I stepped on crap!”“What?” I was standing under a weeping willow tree for some shade. Since I was feeling a bit better, I went out with Leo to collect ingredients for potions. I had collected a basketful and was just taking a bit of rest.“I stepped o
I was suspicious regarding Demian’s actions. He was acting very sweet to me as if nothing happened. I knew he was still angry about what I did, although he did not show it.Now, he said he would meet Rezef Thorn. Rezef sent Demian a letter via Leo and wanted to talk to him, not as enemies, but as normal men. And Demian agreed.“You will not hurt him, will you?” I asked Demian.“Why would I hurt him?” Demian asked, tilting his head to one side. He was not being serious; it was one of those rarest times. I did not know what to make of that. Would he truly not hurt Rezef or not?“Demian, please. Be serious,” I said.“I never thought I would hear someone say that to me.”“I never thought I would have to say this to you either. But here we are.”Demian started combing his hair.“Give me that,” I said, taking the comb from him. Demian sat on a stool and I started combing his hair. “I don’t understand what you are doing. First, you are being very nice to me.”“Is it wrong to be nice to my ow
Leo had stayed with Rezef to make sure he was safe. Demian had put Rezef somewhere else while Leo and I were doing our work in the tent. We had to do our work a little quicker because of the fire.Kyle also died too quickly. He died before we could have our fun fully.I watched as Demian washed the blood of my body. He worked methodically. Now he was scrabbing my arm. His eyes were focused even though the task was a simple one.“Are you angry at me?” I asked.“I don’t like anyone defying me,” Demian said. “I don’t like when someone does the exact opposite thing of what I told them. I also don’t like it when my plan does not go properly.”“Plan?”“Everything is a plan. I determine everything beforehand. You being in that tower was a plan as well. I do not do anything without a plan,” he said. “You got my men killed.”“A few of them. It was inevitable, Demian. A war is going on,” I said. “But you also thought of this possibility, didn’t you?”His silver eyes met mine.Demian thought of
Cutting off my brother’s penis had not been on my mind when I was little. But after what happened to Maxi, it was obvious that I had to do it.I looked down at my blood-stained dress. The room where Demian and I were staying was small, but clean. Cleanliness was first thing; the size did not matter.After Leo and I were done, Demian brought me here and I followed without a word of defiance. Why would I defy him? He had not stopped me from doing what I wanted to do. Well, he had chained me before. But when he found out I escaped, he actually aided me.“You have many things to answer for,” Demian said upon entering the room. He had went out to do something (I did not know what).“I know,” I murmured.I turned to face him. His arms were crossed over his chest. His hair was tied loosely on the behind.“You want to know how I managed to let Rezef know about where I was?” I asked.“If you know what I want to know, then tell me,” he said.“Well… You see, Rezef used to give me a lot of gifts
I had been imagining this for so long. I had imagined doing so many things when I would meet Kyle again under the circumstances when I could finally take my revenge.Kyle was inside the tent, his men said. They stopped short when they noticed me. Well, they had not seen me in a while. A little surprise was bound to show on their faces.“Is anyone else inside?” I asked.“Yes. It is an alchemist. His name is…”“Leo,” I said. “I know him. Tell Kyle that I want to talk to him. The alchemist can stay though.”My brother’s personal guard bowed to me and went inside the tent. I knew that man. His name was Ezra Walsh. He had been my brother’s personal guard for the last five years. He was bald and tough looking with a scar on his right eye. I had the suspicion that he was blind in that eye, but never knew the truth.“What do you want to talk about with him?” Rezef asked.“Many things. Do you want to see?” I asked.“If you want me to.”“No, it depends on you. You can watch if you want to. But
There were no ships here. Not a single one. I could not even take a carriage either. The roads were blocked.I was out of the estate of House Star, at least. Currently, I was staying at a brothel. I gave some money and some of my pieces of jewelry to the brothel owner and she gave me a place to stay.It was nasty here and I felt disgusted the whole time, but at least, it was safe. Not for long though. At some point, the brothel owner might want to sell me to his nasty customers. I needed to leave soon.I did not know what was going on with the war. I could not care less about that. What I hated about it was the fact that I could not stay at House Star anymore, if there remained a House Star after this in the first place.I hated everything and everyone now at this point. I did not deserve this. I did not deserve any of this.I did not want to born in that family where I had to do things that I did not want to do. I had to learn how to seduce people at a very young age. It was called t
Sully escaped. Once again. I did not know exactly how she let Rezef Thorn know about her location, but she did do it somehow and that was without my knowledge.That woman was too cunning. She even fooled me.I was pretty sure she was going to use Rezef Thorn to get to Kyle.I had been gone for a long time because of a complication. I needed to defend the estate because part of Jade Star’s men somehow got inside the estate. It had been bloody.My left eye still hurt. There was a cut right under it. One of the men of House Star almost took my eye out.And now Sully was gone. This woman was driving me crazy in all the ways possible.She was now at the camp of Rezef Star. I could not just go there. It was hard to sneak in there. I could get as near as possible, but it would be hard to meet her there.I did not doubt Sully’s loyalty. It lay with me. She did not care about Rezef Thorn romantically. She was just using him to gain her objective.I just hated that she escaped from me again aft
“How is Millie?” I asked.Rezef was mostly ignoring me at this point. Well, at least, he was pretending to.“She is okay.”“Treat her nicely, okay? She is a nice girl,” I said. “Do you know Father used to beat her?”Rezef’s face suggested that he had no idea of this incident. Millie did not tell him for sure. It was not like I expected Millie to tell him either. Millie had always acted like she did not deserve anything and kept her thoughts to herself all the time.Their marriage life was not going okay. I knew that from the look on his face. Millie and he were not okay. If they just ended their marriage, then it would be for the best. At least, both of them could find someone new. It would be hard for Millie, but she would get over it. There was no point in suffering when you could get rid of that suffering.Both of them were unhappy in that marriage, I could tell.“Whenever Father was angry, he would take it out on her. We… We always saw but never did anything. I regret it, but what
My plan was simple. I always had the feeling that there was more to the little vacation than Demian let on. That was why- I started to leave trails behind. I kept the window open and threw purple pearls from the window. Demian did not notice because he had been busy trying to keep his legs from cramping and other times, he was massaging my feet.I had to be very cautious so he would not notice. Demian’s eyes were sharp. He noticed everything.That was why I had the feeling that this plan might not work.There were a lot of guessing involved. I was betting on Rezef’s feelings for me on this matter. He had to be the one to find the pearls because only he would recognize them. I had the belief that he was smart enough to know that I would not be at House Silverclaw.Rezef did not disappoint me.Now, I would have to explain everything to him, but that would have to wait for a bit.I told Rezef not to kill the guards that they took captive.We reached their camp on horses. Rezef wanted to
When I kicked the door open and entered the room at the top of the tower, I saw her for the first time in a long while. She was just the way I remembered her. Brown skin, curly hair and red eyes. But she now had a scar on her face. Did her husband did that? That bastard!I ran to her and wrapped my arms around her. I did not care about anything else. I needed to feel her. I needed to know she was real.My men were watching me, but I did not care. All I cared about was her at this moment.“Rezef,” she breathed. “I thought you wouldn’t find me.”“You left those signs for me to find. How could I not?” I said, pulling back from the hug. That was when I noticed what she was wearing. I averted my eyes from her barely covered body.She did not seem to feel any shame as she threw away the cover and got down from the bed. There was a cuff around her ankle attacked to a chain.“Can you do something about it?” she asked.I told all my men to get out. They did not need to see her like this for lo