Chapter 13: Staying or Running AwayโฆKit:Kit opened his eyes to the bright morning light streaming in through the large glass windows at the end of the room.He tried to raise his hand to his eyes, feeling exhausted like he had never felt before. His entire body was aching and there was a dull throb in his head that threatened to turn into a migraine at any moment.A low groan left his throat. He wanted that light goneโฆit was too much. But he didnโt have the strength to go over and pull the curtains.As if someone had heard his thoughts, the curtains in that direction were pulled shut, cutting off the light and providing him with instant relief as the room was shrouded in darkness. Actually, it wasnโt really that dark, but the sudden change made the room seem darker than usual.โHow are you feeling?โ A familiar deep voice washed over his senses as a cool hand landed on his forehead. He recognized the voiceโฆbut he was having trouble matching it to a face.The hand slowly began to retr
Chapter 14: Moving OutKim:โIs that truly the reason why you want to move out, Nong Kit? Or are you just finding an excuse to run away from your problems?โKimโs own question plagued his mind from time to time as he sat in his chair in his office, looking out at the Bangkok high rises through the clear glass window that stretched the entire length of the wall.The truth wasโฆNong Kit wasnโt just running away from his problemsโฆhe was running away from Kim.Of course Kim knew about it. How could he not when the boyโs crystal clear hazel eyes spoke volumes about what was really going on in his heart? If eyes were the windows to oneโs soul, the Kitโs were wide open and with full clarity.He was still far too innocentโฆfar too naรฏve for this world that Kim lived in.The best solution would have been to let him go; to let him live his life however he wanted and to never see him again. But it was already a little too late for that. It had been since the day he had decided to take him to his c
Chapter 15: ShadowKit:โKit! Kit, over here!โEarth, Ben and Nong Prem, three of his best friends from high school, waved Kit over when they saw him entering the campus the following week, his backpack slung over his shoulder as he kept glancing back at the sleek black car driving away from the main street.โHey guys!โ Kit waved back before making his way over to his friends, but not before looking back at the gates one last time to make sure that the men who had dropped him off were truly gone for good.The past week, even though both his sister and PโKim had agreed that he could move into a dorm near his campus, they had hardly let him do anything by himselfโฆexcept for maybe, going to the toilet alone.Either PโKanya or PโKim had been like his shadow, going everywhere he went, until he had gotten fed up and reminded them, not-so-calmly, that he was okay and all he had was flesh wound. The x-ray that the doctor had requested had come back clean and there were no lasting side-effects
Chapter 16: Home TourKit:Kit had initially thought that one of PโKim's men would drop him the keys after he had finished his studies and then give him some kind of map, so he could easily find out where the condo was located.However, as he bid goodbye to his friends and watched them leave one by one, Earth and Ben on their motorbikes and then Prem was picked up by Nong Wayo in his luxury carโฆKit found himself almost all alone in front of the college building, waiting for some kind of sign that someone had bothered to remember that he was supposed to move into his new condo todayโฆOr was this PโKimโs way of telling me that my request for moving out has been denied? Kit thought to himself, just as a shiny black car, which had been parked not too far away in the shades of the trees on the opposite side of the road, began to drive his way and came to a stop in front of him.Kit looked on either side of the almost empty road to see if the car was waiting for someone else, however, when
Chapter 17: YouKim:โPโKimโฆโ The boy pushed him back with all his strength and jumped back as if he had been burned. โDonโt joke with me, na!โโIโm not joking.โ Kim told the boy seriously. โEver since I met you in that soup house two weeks agoโฆitโs all Iโve ever wanted.โKit felt faintโฆlike the ground was slipping from under his feet.โYou.โThe instant PโKim had uttered those words; Kit had known that he was a goner. Hadn't he been fighting his own heart for the longest time? But nowโฆhearing PโKim say these wordsโฆit felt like a fantasy come to life.But at the same timeโฆit felt so, so wrong.โThisโฆisnโt wrongโฆright? This wonโt hurt my sisterโฆright?โ He asked hesitantly, biting his lower lip as PโKim came to stand in front of him once again.โMai.โ And then Kim wrapped his arm around Kitโs waist once again, hauling him to his chest and crashed his lips onto Kitโs, preventing him from speaking further. He didnโt want any more interruptions, any more obstacles. He wanted Kit and he wan
Chapter 18: SuspiciousKla:โPโKla?โ Kaya smiled at the older man as she approaches the pool in the backyard to find him standing towards the edge and enjoying the view of the sun shining off of the clear blue water. โSawadee Kha.โKla was wearing a bright blue shirt with tiny white palm trees embroidered onto it and he had paired it with white dress pants. His sunglasses covered most of his face and the light afternoon wind blew his hair onto his forehead, making him look a lot younger than his age. In fact, Kla was only four years older than Kim and Kaya, making him thirty three years old.โSawadee Khap, Khun Kanya.โ Kla bowed slightly in greeting as Kaya raised her hands in greeting. โDid you come for a swim?โKla intended to head back inside in case Kanya did intend to use the pool.โMi mi kha!โ (Not at all) Kaya shook her head instantly. โI just wanted to get out of my room for a little bit. Since Nong Som hasnโt come back yet, I was feeling a little lonely.โโI see.โ Kla nodded,
Chapter 19: Advise from the WiseKit:Kit waited after classes were over so he could catch up to the one person who he knew would be able to help him: Prem.Not only was Premโs love interest a boy, but he had been with Nong Wayo for quite some time now, even though they werenโt official, nor did they hav anything physical about their relationship. It was just pure love and adoration between the two of them.โPrem.โ Kit called out as he saw the younger man head towards the exit of the campus. โCan I talk to you for a bit?โKit still had one class left in the afternoon, but he had decided to skip it and asked his friends to help him with the roll call, because this matter had seemed much more urgent to him.โKit?โ Prem turned to his friend, halfway to the campus gates. โYes, sure. Donโt you have classes though?โโI doโฆI justโฆneed to talk to you real quick.โ Kit hesitated a bit as he caught up to his friend.โItโs okay. We have time.โ Prem gave him a smile. โLetโs grab something to eat s
Chapter 20: KidnappedKit:โSoโฆlet us get this straightโฆyou slept with a guy? And not just any guyโฆyour sisterโs rich best friend who offered you the condo youโre currently living in?โKit looked at Earth and Ben with a frown. Why did they make it seem like he just found himself a sugar daddy? Or was that just what he had been feeling, and hearing his friends say it out loud was partially playing on his guilty-conscience?โAnd now he wants you to continue the arrangementโฆthe sleeping around with no-strings thing, but you donโt want thatโฆyou want to do more?โโThatโs pretty much it.โ Kit sighed, leaning back in his chair as he watched his friendโs flabbergasted expressions, trying to decide if he had done the right thing by telling them the whole truth in the first place. โWhat happened that night was a one-time thing. Iโve never had a one-night stand with anyone, nor am I an expert at having no-strings relationships. Iโve never had a relationship in my life, period!โWellโฆhe hadn't ac
Chapter 90: Unexpected NewsKit:Kit stood in his room, clothes, and essentials sprawled out over the bed. Packing had started casually enoughโheโd just been grabbing a few shirts and some toiletries, tossing items from his closet onto the mattress. But as his suitcase began to fill, the reality of the trip hit him hard.What was supposed to be a light-hearted vacation to celebrate finishing his second year of college had taken a dark turn. He was going to Chiang Mai, but it wasn't just for the sights or the fun. It was to find his father, the man he once looked up to but now blamed for everything that had gone wrong in their family.Kitโs fingers paused over a stack of neatly folded shirts, and his mind started spiraling. How was he supposed to confront the man who had caused so much pain? The thought twisted his stomach, and he realized he hadnโt taken a full breath in a while. Slowly, he forced himself to inhale and exhale, trying to shake off the anxiety that was creeping up on hi
Kit:Kit could only nod, agreeing with Benโs words, even though a part of him still ached. Knowing now that Ben had carried these feelings silently for so long โ all those years of friendship, support, and sacrifices โ it weighed heavily on Kit. The guilt flared at him, and before he could stop himself, he reached forward and wrapped his arms around Ben in a tight hug.โIโm so sorry, Ben,โ he whispered. โI had no ideaโฆ everything youโve done, the sacrifices youโve madeโฆ even dealing with PโFirst for my sake. You didnโt have to do that.โBen chuckled softly, his arms resting comfortably around Kit as he returned the hug. โItโs true that, back then, when I volunteered to stay with PโFirst that night, it was because I wanted to protect you. I thought itโd keep you safe, and Iโd have done anything for that.โ He pulled back slightly, a gentle smile on his face. โBut now, I donโt regret it. I made my choices, Kit, and I donโt feel sorry for them.โKit studied Benโs face, the steady warmth i
Chapter 88: Didnโt Want to Change AnythingKit:Kit adjusted the strap of his vest, the unfamiliar weight pressing down on his shoulders as he stood in the shooting range. The gear felt strange, heavy, and bulky, but he forced himself to get used to it. Ben was by his side, moving around to check on his positioning, adjusting Kitโs stance and lightly pressing his shoulder to correct his posture.Any other time, it wouldโve been calming, having Ben here. But, now there was an unspoken tension that Kit needed to sort out. Ben seemed to take everything in stride, unbothered by the pressure that Kit constantly felt bearing down on him."Relax, Kit," Ben murmured, stepping back and giving a warm smile. "Youโre too tense. You need to be steady before you can shoot."Kit nodded, swallowing hard as he fixed his eyes on the target. He tried to breathe slowly, following Benโs instructions, but every time he saw Benโs easy grin or heard his laugh as he explained something new, an odd feeling set
Chapter 87: Hitting Two Birds With One StoneKit:PโKim was sitting next to Kit in the back seat as PโDavid drove them back to the mansion. His mind was still stuck on the events that had happened earlier. He was no longer afraid because the moment had long since come and gone, but now, he could only think about howโฆ inhumane his father had been.It seemed that he truly had no love of any kind for his own family. He was way too eager in threatening his life, as if he was not Kitโs father, and much more invested in what he wanted to get from Kit rather than listen to what Kit had pleaded for.And he even had the balls to threaten his pregnant daughter!Well, truth be told, Kit didnโt expect anything from him, so he was not hurt. Rather, he was justโฆ surprised that any normal human being could do something as heartless as what his father had done. Then again, clearly his father wasnโt just any normal human being. Perhaps he was not even human anymoreโฆโYou did a great job,โ PโKim said t
Chapter 86: Unwanted ConfrontationKit:In the couple of days that followed, Kit did not dare let PโKim out of his sight; he stuck to his lover like a shadow. He feared that if he looked away for even a second, something might happen to him or everyone else.Even though he had managed to talk himself out of being convinced his nightmare was a premonition, the fear was still there.When PโKim had to go out for work, Kit would usually stay in the living room or his own bedroom and refused to leave the mansion. He wasnโt foolish enough to keep following PโKim around, of course. He was satisfied with keeping his eyes on him while they were at home, but the outside world was a different story.Kit had called and talked to Earth later on. Their conversation had not been anything out of the ordinary as they hadnโt fallen out or anything, and in a matter of a few exchanges, they had already sorted out whatever differences they might have had the last time they met.But Benโฆ He was a different
Chapter 85: Use It Against HimKit:Kit stopped himself from spilling more of the truth to PโKim. He shook hishead vigorouslyโhe could not. If he slipped up more than he already hasโฆgod only knew what would happen next.โAh, actually I couldnโt see their face,โ he blurted out dishonestly. โY-you know how dreams are, your brain either shows you a blurred figure, or some guy you saw briefly at the grocery three weeks ago.โ Kit hoped it was a convincing lie, but he couldnโt meet PโKimโs eyes, fearing they might give him away.โAndโฆ and anyway, you were right. Itโs just a nightmare. It doesnโt matter anymore.โKit released a deep exhale, before trying to return to the solace of his covers, only to be stopped by PโKim, who held him by the shoulders, his hands firm and demanding not to be crossed.โKit.โIt was one single word. His name. And yet, his entire body became rigid.โListenโฆโ Kit started to say, โIโm really tired, so I should go back to sleepโฆโBut PโKim wasnโt listening. Instead
Chapter 84: A Terror in the NightKit:Kit was screaming before he even woke up, and by the time his consciousness took hold, his voice was hoarse, but he could not stop. He rose quickly from the bed, heart pounding frantically as though he had been running a marathon.He frantically looked around, searching for any signs of life. The room was dark, but the sound of shuffling footsteps outside and the low hum of murmurs was unmistakable.Relief and desperation washed over him in waves, and it was all that had been holding him back from crumbling right then and there. Curling in on himself, Kit let the tears fall, unable to stop the cries that left his lips, as if it would ease the pain in his chest.Even PโKimโs immediate presence next to him couldnโt calm him down. He put a comforting hand on Kitโs back, pulling him into his embrace. โHey, itโs alright. Iโm right here. It was just a bad dreamโฆโWhen Kit still wouldnโt look up from hiding his face in his hands, Kim went to give him a
Chapter 83: An Eerie SilenceKit:Kit woke up with a gasp, cold sweat dripping down his back. He had been trapped in eternal darkness, as though he was drowning and suddenly being pulled out of the water Ironically, even though he had woken up, he still felt like he was being suffocated even though he just escaped the hell of his subconscious.Cold sweat dripped down the side of his face. He looked around his room, trying to have his bearings back. It took a while for his disorientation to wear off. His head was spinning, and his heart refused to settle to a steady rhythm.โIt was just a dream,โ he whispered to himself, hearing his voice echo around him as though he was in a cave, but also muffled like he was underwater or hearing himself talk from a different room. โYouโre fine.โBut as much as his ears strained to listen to himself, his heart just wouldnโt cooperate. Still, it didnโt seem to matter because he was slowly starting to lose the dizziness that had held him hostage earli
Chapter 82: Now More Than EverKim:As Kim went back to the main mansion, he let his feet move on autopilot, his mind wandering and wondering how best to handle the situation and produce the most favorable outcome.While he didnโt feel bad about the subtle deception he performed to get to the truth of it all, he was very much bothered about Kitโs entire situation. He was worried about his teerakโit was clear he was going through a lot, burdened with the fact that his father was threatening him and all his loved ones.Whatโs worse was that he was also forced to endure a severe scarcity of confidants, so much that he resorted to seeking the help of the person he was least comfortable with.Kim couldnโt help but feel partially responsible for bringing Kit into the dangers of this world. If he hadnโt dragged Kit and his sister to this life, would they have been safer now? Would they have been happier?But then he started to rethink these notions. If he hadnโt taken them under his wing, Ay