Chapter 4 – Determined

Calian POV

Ame’s words echo in my ears, “I want a divorce!”

She was hurting, but so was I and she was refusing to see me, to let us mourn together. She

hasn’t just lost a child, I have too.

If she thinks I am going to give her a divorce, she can think again. She did this, she acted out with

jealousy when she just needed to wait. She is the reason our son is dead, not me!

I left for war grateful that together we had managed to secure the future of the Shadow Hunters

pack, I didn’t expect to return to find the fight now at home.

Me returning with my fated mate, isn’t Ame’s fault, but the incident was. I can’t undo what she

has done, when she is ready I will be there for her, I will support her. Together we will get through

this.

But right now I have a newborn son that needs me, his mother still healing from what Ame

caused.

If I could go back and change everything I would, I brought Dessa back too soon. I should have

waited, I should have warned Ame first, but there just wasn’t the time.

I found Dessa on the battlefield, outnumbered by enemy fighters…her shoulder already bitten

into. I knew I needed to save her, my wolf knew she had to survive.

I knew what she was to me instantly, the pull of the mate bond like nothing I had ever felt before.

I fought it for Ame, but it proved too hard to resist and I finally caved.

To say I regretted it would be wrong, it has resulted in a child…but my reputation as Alpha would

be in question for betraying the pack’s Luna. A pack that adores their luna and always has.

Why did she do it…

Why…

Look at what she has caused.

I just needed time to settle my fated mate in, for the child to be born….I just needed more time. I

didn’t plan for Dessa to remain, I still don’t, I meant my vows…Ame is mine.

Ame doesn’t get to walk away from this, from me. She doesn’t get to divorce me; I won’t allow it.

I refuse it!

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Ame POV

I can hear their whispers; the voices of the maids carry further along the hallways than they

might like to consider.

Word has spread of my impending luna rejection ceremony, they also say that Calian will make

Dessa his new luna on the same day.

I haven’t seen a soul today, yet I do not need the gossip confirmed, I just know this is how it must

be.

I no longer care what he wants to do with her, or me. All I know is I cannot be a luna to a traitor

like him.

It breaks my heart to know that I must leave this place. The pack that has always been my home,

where my parents fell in love…where I was born. But I cannot remain here, I refuse to watch their

happy ever after.

The rejection will take place the day after tomorrow, however, my bags are already packed and

placed by the bedroom door. I needed to get out of this place, away from them.

Reaching down into the cot, I gently pick up the small wolf teddy before holding it up to my

chest, cradling it like a baby. I couldn’t leave my baby’s teddy, everything is replacement now

except for this.

I single tear rolls down my face as I breathe in the new scent of the soft toy, continuing to hold it

to me.

“Ame?” His tone hits me, my back straightening, I hadn’t even realised he had entered our

marital bedroom. His voice is hollow, void of emotions as he closes the bedroom door behind

him.

“I’m not receiving visitors right now.” I respond, keeping my voice controlled as my back remains

on him.

I finally turn when he doesn’t leave, to observe him scanning the length of the adjoining nursery,

he was only just seeing it now for the first time. His eyes fall on the cot behind me, his jaw

tensing and his hands clenching into small fists down by his sides.

Even after all that they have done to me I want to go to him, I want to support him…the mate

bond trying to bring us back together.

The mate bond that wasn’t even real.

“The communication…it abruptly stopped. We were all so worried, every pack member…all

communication just stopped. I spent days reassuring them that you weren’t dead, that even

though my wolf was sleeping, that I could feel you through the mate bond. Tell me, did the radios

go down or did the guilt begin to eat away at you?” As I lower the teddy in my embrace, my chin

rises just as his eyes flicker upwards to hold mine.

He holds my cold stare, a long sigh escaping from him which was the answer I needed. He cut

off communication not because of danger or lack of signal…but because he was with her.

“Let me explain.”

“No.” I slowly move towards the door, gently placing the wolf teddy down on the top of my bags,

the rejection ceremony couldn’t come sooner.

“What are those?” His chocolate brown eyes turn a shade darker as he notices my bags by the

door, taking a step closer to me.

“I’m leaving after the rejection ceremony.” I stand up right, turning to face him eyes on…he

needs to know that I plan to leave.

“But this is your home.”

“Yes, yes it is… ” I let my words trail off, let the silence between us eat away at us both.

“I don’t want a divorce Ame, or for you to not be my luna…I just need time, I need you to

understand that things are delicate…”

“I understand Calian, and with me out of the way, you can get what you always needed. Your

fated mate and fated child.” I move past him, heading back to the cot but he takes a step closer

to me, pulling me back by my elbow. My back coming in contact with his chest.

“A rejection just after losing our child could be fatal to your wolf. I won’t let you do this; I won’t

let you leave. I refuse it.”

“I can’t stay, why can’t you see that.” I stupidly take a deep breath in, inhaling his scent that

wants to calm me, that wants me to rethink everything…to change my mind.

“I won’t divorce you, Ame!” His stern words are the wake up call I needed.

“After everything you have done to me, what she has done to me you will do this, you will do this

for me.” I spin on the spot, yanking my elbow from his grip and jabbing a finger into his chest. He

wasn’t listening, causing anger to rise from the pit of my stomach. He was being unreasonable.

“What she has done to you; you were the one who pushed her off the stage!” He growls out at

me, pushing my finger from his chest and holding onto it tightly.

“What? She told you that?” Red hot molten anger begins to boil over; how dare she lie…how

dare she make such a claim.

“I know what happened Ame, I have an eyewitness account.” He too calmly declares, trying to

shut me down.

“No, that’s not what happened, why won’t you believe me. How could you believe her word over

mine…you’ve known her five seconds and me for years…Calian…how can you be so cruel.” My

fingers erratically reach for something, the injustice of this all becoming too much.

“Enough Ame.” He brushes off my fingers that had gripped onto his upper arms, my nails cutting

skin. I hadn’t even realised, the fiery fury inside of me taking control. He places his arms around

me, boxing me into his chest but he was suffocating me, I didn’t want him to touch me…not

when he believed her over me.

I push him away from me, rushing out of the bedroom door and heading out of the alpha house

to her pack house. I want her to tell me to my face.