Chapter 7 If I go back I will die..

“I thought that he didn’t know about my horrible life, but he knew all this time,” she said to Gal. “He knew how miserable my life was and he just stood and watched me as I struggled to survive!”

“I can’t stand it anymore!” she yelled in her mind “I..I just need to get out of here!”

She remembered everything and all those thoughts that were running through her mind in the last few minutes now were revealed through the light of a new plot. Plot which was not new at all but it was there from the beginning.

They fooled her.

Her father, her siblings, the pack doctor, Patrick…everything was a fucking lie! And she was thinking of asking Patrick for help!

“Shit!” She just stood there and caught the bridge of her nose trying to focus and think about what she should do.

“Run or die!” gal stated “ Those are our options!”

“I thought that he loves us , Gal. After mom died he was there, he took my hand in his hand and told me that everything will be fine! Someone will love you! Those were his own words. But he knew all the time that that someone will never show up, because I will not be here anymore!”

And she clenched her fist.

“Someone will love you” echoed in her ears followed by the reality “this is not the first time she donated blood “

All this time he wasn't there as her friend , he was her guardian. He was there just to fool her enough not to run, to give her hope.

“How could I be so fool!” she asked herself “I was worrying that he will be sad and in the end he was behind all this all this time. He is just one of the people who wants to kill me”

And feeling like a deer in the middle of the wolves she changed her mind.

“I can’t let them win! “ and taking a few steps back she turns and runs back into the forest. She runs until she reaches the crystal lake again and falls to her knees starting to cry.

“Mom !” she yelled. “I was wrong. Everything I told you was a lie. They lied to me, mom! Everything was a lie. Patrick was just a lie, the biggest one. He is just one of my executioners. The cruelest one!”

But while she cried her heart out , in full despair Patrick showed up followed by a group of people.

"Oh my goddess!" Sarah said in her heart. "He came to take us...He came here personally!" and the despair took over he mind and soul. She lost her mother a few days ago and now the only person she cared and loved in this world was revealing himself as a schemer. The biggest one in her life.

"I fell like a fucking puppet in this puppeteer's hands." and her heart is bleeding so hard she can't find the strength to look at him anymore. She just stays there and cries as she never did it in her life.

“He came to take us to the scaffold.” Gal said to Sarah “Our executioner came to take us”.

“Sarah” Patrick whispered a little bit panicked seeing her like this, on her knees, crying hysterically. Thinking that she is crying because of her mother's death.

She just stood there and after some time when she calmed down a little, she wiped her tears and raised her head looking in his eyes with her bloodshot and swollen eyes. She just looked at him, remembering their first encounter, how he found her that day some time ago, and how he kept coming back to her. But now she knows that all was just a lie.

And he looks at her and has the same sensation, it’s like a deja-vu that both of them are living it.

“We should go back, Sarah,” Patrick said, kneeling near her and holding her hand. "Let's go!"

He held her hand countless times and she was glad to let him do it, but this time she feels different knowing the truth, and she just retreated her hand, letting it fall from his hand.

“Goddess!” she said to herself almost bursting again in tears but she looks in his eyes and tells him serious:

“I can’t go back, Patrick. If I go back I will die..” and she looks straight in his eyes while she repeats “I will die..”

Patrick just stood there and looked at her, how serious she was and thinking about it, he got angry inwardly, but maintained a businesslike formal attitude not to scare her.

“Why is she acting like this, Bart?” he asked his wolf , but Bart just stayed mute analyzing everything that happened.

“I know that you are sad, Sarah. I know that coming back to this place triggered a lot of sad memories, but that’s enough! We need to go back now!”

But Sarah just said again almost like a whisper “I can't go back, I will die … and I want to live, I want to have my happy ending. Patrick. Don’t you think that I deserve one? I just don’t want to die..”

And seeing her like this, totally uncooperating Patrick felt that she was just disobedient , and she was ruining everything acting like this. So completely flustered he stretched out his hand to grab her and force her walk.

“You will not die. You are strong, aren't you?"

But Sarah jumped from her place, moving away from him, before he could grab her arms, shocking him.

“Oh my goddess!” she prayed in her mind “Kill me now! End this now please, because it is too much for my poor heart. “

And lifting her gaze she just sees Patrick looking at her infuriated.

“You really think that I should go back to the pack isn’t so?” she asked with hater and he was just looking at her.

“You really want to see me dead?” and this time he couldn’t stand it and he said:

“Will you stop it with this non-sense? I’ve already told you. You are strong!”

And seeing him so determined to take her back she finally understood his heart. He is just cruel. Nothing from what she would say will make him change his heart, because he doesn’t have a heart.

So she stopped crying and wiped her tears. He wants her dead! Then let him see her dead!

He wants to grab her hand to calm her as he always did but she pushes him aside , without caring that he is the prince of werewolves and she just walks back to the Blood Moon Pack with a cold face.