Natalie's POV
I felt uneasy while I was standing among the crowd watching with my very eyes the love of my life getting engaged to someone else!
The loud applause of the crowd filled the massive yard of the Mirren House with glee. Amidst this ocean of people, I stood placidly, watching each of them shower praises to Rafael and Debbie__ the newly engaged couple.
“A toast to the newlyweds” A male voice cheered, coupled with the sound of clinking glasses.
The party was perfect. I made sure by myself to be everything perfect. Food, drinks, decorations, even the white flowers of the bride, were chosen by me!
Everybody was happy and enjoyed this party, except me.
I was in much pain, every cell in my body was trembling and hurting. I felt my heart burning and bumping crazy. Despite all of that, I stood still calmly! No one can guess the raging storm of emotions that was raging badly inside of me.
I saw Rafael kissing his fiance Debbie and I couldn't help but feel my gut getting sick. To be honest, I always dreamed of kissing him like that. To be between his domineering solid arms.
I forced my eyes to watch them. Maybe in this way, I could get rid of him! Maybe in this way, my stupid heart will give up loving him! Despite the scene in front of me killing me like a sharp knife cutting my veins, I kept staring.
A minute later, with his deep masculine voice, I heard him saying while looking around, "Natalie, where are you?"
What pathetic! That poor Natalie was me!
Attempting to ignore him, I grabbed my glass and quickly hid behind a big tree nearby, then swallowed the glass content lump sum. I felt my heart pounding in my chest. I knew I couldn’t face him right now and I had to get away or hide at least. I believe if he sees me now, he will figure out my true feelings, and I don't want to risk that. Long ago I determined to keep my feelings to myself and not give him the hins of knowing I was affected. I was determined to keep my distance from him and not to stay alone with him ever.
I took a deep breath trying to comfort my heartbeat. I was very tired and psychologically grueling of pretending happiness about what was happening, though. This was my husband's engagement party. It seems to be weird, right?
However, no one here ever knew about our virginal marriage. No one. Not his mother nor our close relatives. Except his lawyer knew. We got married just to be able to get our legacy. The strange condition in his father's commandment stated that we should get married to each other so we can receive our legacy. Based on this, we kept this marriage secret from everyone to cancel it easily later!
Like turning a button off, that was how Rafael felt about the whole marriage-ending situation. I wish I could feel the same.
Furthermore, the really funny condition was; that we could receive our legacy after a year and a half of marriage!!
We already got married a year ago, and we still have six months to be able to cancel it.
I loved Rafael for centuries. But it was one-sided love, that's the reason why I accepted that dirty game in the first place. But I'm regretting this daredevil decision now.
It wasn't like I had a chance with him before! I know he sees me as his friend. Or worse, like a little sister, he keeps treating me that way. He always cared about me, as he helped me during my grief on my mother's death. It was my stupid hormones that translated this caress into love.
Rafael is my stepbrother. I was raised by Rafael’s father, Uncle Matt. Uncle Matt treated me as if I were his own daughter. He married my mum after five years of him divorcing Rafael’s mother, Mrs Nicol. Back then, I was only two years old. I do love him more than my biological father indeed.
Although Rafael lived with his mom, due to her job as an actress, he visited us more often. He was ten years older than I am, but from an early age, I loved to accompany him. He used to look after me and play with me when our parents weren’t around. Despite the maids were in the house, he used to be the one who was taking care of me. But I never considered him as a brother.
He was my hero.
My savior.
My idol.
But not a bother.
But with time, he had changed and began to hate me. I heard him once shouting at his father, telling him that he must feel ashamed, how he loves another man’s child more than his own son!! I was heartbroken. I had loved him so much, but now I felt betrayed. I never understood his change of heart. We never became the same again after that. I tried to forget about him, but the pain stayed with me. I still love him to this day.
When I became ten years old, he came home less, though. He was about twenty and had no more interest in me! I remember the last time he played with me when I tried to kiss him under this big tree that I’m standing under right now and told him I wanted to try how to kiss!! That was stupid and childish, but it caused Rafael to move further away from me and stop even sending me messages!
Later, at the rare family occasions he attended, he brought a new girlfriend with him every time!
I sighed, putting back the empty glass on the table and lifting the bottle. I took a big swallow of champagne and thought while my eyes were cloudy with tears, "I just wanna hug him, kiss his lips"
I felt a lump stuck in my throat, my eyes about to shed tears.
Although I wish him happiness from the bottom of my heart, it still hurts me to see him with another woman, hugging and kissing her.
Closed my eyes and imagined, "I wanna have sex with h...." Suddenly, I heard my own voice and I got tense.
Oh, shit!!! I said that out loud, this was embarrassing especially when I turned around to make sure that no one had heard my wild thoughts just to find Rafael standing in front of me...
Rafael's POVI rolled my eyes around the place looking for Natalie, but I couldn't find her! I wondered why I hadn't seen her since the party had been started. Although there was a caterer, she insisted on taking care of all the party details by herself. After my father's death, I moved into Mirren's mansion as the legal heir. Natalie became as a part of my daily life routine since we are now living under one roof. Even though our rooms were too close, I never stepped into her room, and neither did she. We kept our own space from each other, unlike in the old days when we were too close.In the past, when she was a little girl, whenever I came for a visit, she never got out of my side, until she fell asleep and I put her in her bed. But later on, things had been changed… For now, I married her in an incomplete marriage. That marriage was upon the will of my father, and neither of us wanted it. It’s all about how she could get her legacy as a legal member of the Marine family. After
Natalie’s POV I blinked and my feet became like jelly. He raised his eyebrow cynically and looked at me with his blue eyes as if I had done a crime.I heard the girls behind us laughing and gurgling, they think it's funny when someone hears you saying that you wanna have sex!!Although I felt I was a little drunk, promptly I felt his spiraling anger.I got close to him trying to reduce his anger by congratulating him on his engagement. I contemplated his facial features with my eyes, and murmured, "Warm congratulations from the bottom of my heart, Rafael!"He didn’t respond.His facial features looked very seductive to me, or maybe it was the influence of alcohol. I lifted my hand touching his beard. I felt it slowly with my fingertips. His growing beard had always been attractive to me."You are so handsome!" I whispered and kissed him on the cheek, exactly at the corner of his lips. His scent overwhelmed me and made me want more of him. His scent was a mixture of French perfume and
Natalie's POV‘What was he angry about!!’ I thought.But OMG!! The word sex from his lips had another taste, my whole body trembled, and a shiver went down my spine. Dangerously, I felt like I would be exposed to him! I can't afford the consequences if he knew that I meant no one other than him!I looked around pretending to be looking for someone and said, "He is not here, yet!"Rafael was still silent, he just tightened his grip around me, so I was afraid he didn't believe me. I completed saying with my stupid fake smile, "I will arrange to make you both meet someday" I hoped he would forget about it once he got involved with Debbie later on at the dance stage.I should not let him know my feelings or I would have made a fool of myself."My pleasure!" he said with his masculine voice and a strange twinkle in his eyes.I saw Debbie coming towards us. Swimmingly, I sighed in relief, pulled my hands from his neck, and stepped back.Debbie gripped Rafael's hand, smirked, and demanded,
Rafael’s POVAt the party. I was dancing with Debbie when I saw Natalie resting her head on some blond guy. They were dancing intimately.I tensed up and felt my blood boiling."Look Bebe! They're so cute, aren’t they? He seems to be her boyfriend." Debbie said glaring at Natalie.I didn't like the idea of her having a boyfriend, I always thought that she was lonely. What ridiculous thoughts!She is a grown woman, and for sure she has a lover!I remembered when I danced with her earlier. At that time, I ignored my abnormal feelings and instead of thinking of it, I asked her calmly about her boyfriend, trying hard to ignore the emotional storm inside my body.When she mentioned him, I felt that I needed to cut her lips. l didn't think about the whole situation before I signed that marriage contract. Perhaps I ought to have stipulated in the contract that she should not have a relationship with any man during the period of the contract.I really need to tie her hands up and punish her
Natalie's POV"I don't sleep with married women, ma'am. Especially if they were drunk!" Daniel explained with his French accent.I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion. How the hell does he know about the marriage? I don't even know him!!"What? How do you know?" I snapped in a daze.He raised his eyebrows and looked confused, "It's just a principle, ma'am. You know, not to touch what's not mine!"‘How sweet!’ I thought, feeling a headache coming.I pressed my fingers on my forehead. The strong headache was banging me while I'm saying, "No, no. I mean, what made you think that I'm married?""You're married to Mr Mirren, aren't you? You shouldn't let him abuse you" He declared, and a sad expression on his handsome face.I opened my mouth in shock. No one knew about that except the lawyer!“A beautiful woman like you shouldn't let anyone bully her” he added, staring at me with pity.Every word that came out of his mouth made me feel more confused and more afraid. He made me remember Raf's
Natalie's POV I felt awkward once I entered the dining room with Daniel. Everyone’s gaze was fixed on us. The anxiety inside me rose, but I reduced the overwhelming feeling and managed to break the silence by greeting them while approaching the table. “Good morning, everybody!” "Good morning, honey," Grandma replied with a tender smile on her face. "Daniel, this is my family. Everyone, this is Daniel, our new neighbor." I mumbled, feeling my cheeks burning from embarrassment. I wish they wouldn't notice. It's hard to explain why he's here in the early morning. "Hi, Daniel. I'm Tobi. Nice to meet you! Please sit and have breakfast with us" aunt Tobi said cheerfully. "No, no. Daniel is in a hurry! We were just doing some morning exercises together. He is already late. He has to go to work!" I said in panic, afraid if he stayed he would say something about the marriage. My Grandma interrupted, saying, "Don't be rude, Natalie. Ten minutes won't make him late, isn't that righ
Natalie's POV My jaw started to hurt, but Rafael did not pull his hand, he kept looking deeply in my eyes. His face was so close, his thumb reached my lower lip, touching it very slowly, and unawares he pushed his finger between my lips!..I was like I had been drugged, drugged by his gaze, his smell, and his closeness.How is a woman supposed to push the man she loves away when he is this close and in this temptation?!My eyes were contemplating his face while his eyes were fixed on my lips.Suddenly, he quickly stood up, as if he had been electrocuted! He went to the farthest point from me and stood looking outside the window.I got confused and didn't know what to say."You can't have a sexual relationship until we cancel this marriage" he declared, his tone was in the imperative form.It was the first time he had called it marriage. He used to call it the contract, the agreement. I don't like his commanding tone though. He has his life with Debbie. Why should I stop mine?So, I s
Rafael's POV I was extremely bored in this fucking dinner meeting. Although I'm a workaholic person, my mind was full of Natalie. I felt awkward about what I had done earlier that day. How on earth did I touch her in that fucking way!? What the fuck will she think about me?A pervert!But I can't stop myself, I'm longing to put her on my knees and hit her ass, to punish her severely.To punish her for what she said; that she didn't want to be bound to one man! Yet how many men has she been dating?I shook my head to focus on the current meeting. We were discussing awaiting shipment. This was one of the deals that would make the Marrin Group gain more billions of dollars. Yet I was reluctant to sign the contract. Something fishy about them made me hesitate.The dinner was served, and I was immersed in eating and discussing with the client when I noticed Jack, my personal assistant, pointing to a table in the corner of this deluxe dining restaurant.I stopped eating when I saw what J