LOGINMaddie
I jambled down the hallway into the male's locker hoping it would be an escape to cry and never to see someone watch. Never thought someone might be there, not at this odd hour, I stumbled into the wall, not a wall, a breathing wall. A hand wrapped around my back preventing me from getting to the floor. My breath hinged, did his towel just fall. My eyes still kept on the air. I resisted the urge to look down on Carlson or have a sneak peak of what his length looks like. “Did your towel just fall?” “You don't want to take a look” instead I squinted my eyes and began to cry. “Wait, wait. What is wrong with you?” “I have thousands of people watching me and Veronica just had a life session of me wanting Jamie to take my virginity” “Hey you needy virgin. I know you're in there. Did you just get yourself a boy” “Come out” Veronica's voice resonated from outside, I could see her shadows from the faint transparent glass. She kept banging on them and I panicked at how quickly she caught up with me. She isn't going to stop until she has me crying out blood for her. Haven't she done enough. She jingles through the door handle trying so hard to open the door screaming on top of her voice. “Hey, get in” Carlson picked up his towel and tied it around his waist while I ran into one of the toilets. “There is no virgins here” “Hey ex-boyfriend” Veronica sneaks through the door but I am perfectly hidden and she can't see me. She turned around and left with her squad. Carlson shut the door behind. “You can come out now” I walked out downcasted but grateful for the save but never stopped to muster a thank you. “I just saved you and you have nothing to say” “What do you want? My virginity. Guys like you just use ladies and dump them like they are piece of trash” “Hold on, is that what you think about me? You don't have to judge a book for its cover, you know” Is he trying to prove me wrong? I don't need anyone to prove me wrong. I took a deep breath. “What do you want?” “You owe me big time and I want you to help me with my literature in return” “Deal” I tried to walk away but his next words stopped me. “I can make Jamie Doner fall for you” I stopped my steps and turned to look at him, he had a serious look on his face which means he isn't joking. “What could that be then?” “You just need strategy I can teach you then his all yours” I nodded, not quite convinced but I desperately want Jamie Donor. “Be my fake girlfriend in 2 weeks and have him begging at your feet” I sighed, already not convinced that his suggestion sounded more selfish than what I wanted. “If you want a guy, make him jealous and show him what he is missing. You don't have to desperately throw yourself at him, make him chase after you” I thought for a moment, this could be a win win for me but then how sure I am it will work. He might have other hidden agenda. Moreover I don't even like him, I don't have anything to lose. “Fine, but there have to be rules” “Spill it out” “No kissing, no touching and no sex” “How do we look quite convinced that we are dating if we don't kiss. Come on, you don't have to be shy. I can teach you” he teased, making my cheek burn in embarrassment. He closed the gap between us rubbing my cheek with his fingers. I swallowed hard and somehow I felt so nervous. “Relax, I'm not doing anything to you.” I calmed down. “So you're going to teach me all that stuff?” I smiled, showing off my pearl teeth. “Yes how to flirt and many more, we can start by tomorrow morning” “Fine” “Ends at the fundraiser for the hockey team” “That should be two weeks from now” he nodded. Will Carlson really make Jamie fall for me in two weeks? I doubted the possibility but agreed to it. By evening while rushing down to my dorm, I met Veronica on my way. “Maddie, I'm so sorry for what happened the previous day. How I embarrassed you?” “Really!” Too shocked to accept Veronica is really apologizing to me. Never saw that coming but she sounds so genuine. “Just that I like Jamie. I went over the board” I nodded. My words betrayed me on what to say to her. Veronica likes Jamie, how on earth I'm going to make him fall for me. Veronica is hot, am not. She's sexy, am not. “How about I invite you to a party. Tomorrow night” My brows creased, what could she be upto. “You don't have to worry, we all lost our V-cards at the party. Right girls?” He asked his squad who stood behind her with their hands on their waist. “Totally” they chorus in unison before she walks out. This could be my chance to finally lose my V card to Jamie. Will Veronica be pleased to see me with him? Could this be a step up or something? I couldn't help but to get worried. Back at my dorm I sat at my reading table writing on my novel before Carlson walked in. “Hey, do you live here?” “Too neat,” he comments. “Yeah I love the minimalist lifestyle. Keep it simple and neat. I love being organized” He drew my wardrobe out. “Do you even have colored pants?” I stood up and walked closer to him, shutting my wardrobe and preventing him from rummaging through my stuff. “Do you like them white or pink?” I ignored feeling awkward talking about my undies with Carlson. “Can we stop talking about underwear?” He stared at me for a moment like he could see my soul. Taking off my big rimmed glasses from the bridge of my nose. “Your eyes Maddie, they are so beautiful” “What!” “Come on I'm flirting with you” I thought it was real. Shit! Am I falling for Carlson? Why does my heart beat so fast whenever I'm around him?Maddie It's been two days since I last saw Carlson. He didn't call me back nor did he come to look for me. It seems I didn't exist in his world.I checked his Instagram and he hasn't updated anything yet except for just our picture on camp night and the other when we went out to the beach.I laid on the bed face on the ceiling as millions of thoughts came into my head. I wanted to confront him but then I realized it was my fault initially.You don't really know how hurt you will be for a game you started yourself. I thought speaking to others will relieve me of thinking about Carlson a lot but I was wrong.I was running away from my emotions instead of embracing it. Every top up notification I'm quick to rush to my phone with Carlson in mind.But it wasn't him.An invite to the school party shown on our group chat. I want to ignore it but staying alone in my room all day wasn't helping either. I needed to get out.I needed a drink.It was tonight and luckily I still have one dress w
Maddie I never saw it coming. I hate to see myself in a confused state with no way out.My head was spinning, staring at my dorm room, which was in the most disoriented state. I was running to find a place to cool off, a place to think, and now this.This time I'm totally alone. There is no one coming. Carlson is like miles away from me, and our argument isn't something that will be resolved anytime soon.I stared down at my broken phone, which was in my hand, a bitter laugh escaping my lips.Could this be a sign?I had peace, but I chose chaos.Carlson has been good to me; he defended me and gave me everything, yet I couldn't appreciate him.I'm such a terrible person; probably I deserved what I'm getting.Tears burned the back of my eyelid. I wasn't going to run this time. It is time to fix things.I didn't have much money to book a motel tonight, and I still needed to fix my phone. I dropped my luggage and carefully stepped into the room.I stared at the threat for a moment.“Stay
Carlson At first I thought it was just my imagination or dilution of imagining things that aren't there but the message kept staring back at me.I'm tempted to scroll more to know more but I'm so weak to my bones reading shit from her phone.When did Maddie get to this level? She avoided any topic related sex at first. I thought she's all shy about it and I respect her decision of keeping it plane.We were once cool with each other but I noticed her attitude of not wanting me around her, not touching her, not holding hands with her.I got frustrated and concerned about what is going on, looking for the right time to know what went wrong. If I did anything to hurt her I didn't know of.I noticed she was trying to pull away from me but why. I don't know the reason for her to act that way.She was already sleeping and one of her leg was out so I went over to cover her up with the sheet when a notification popped up on her phone.The name is not familiar but I'm tempted to know who will
Maddie I don’t know how to keep my emotions in check especially when it comes to the people I love. Sometimes I end up ruining things or regretting them. “Of course,” Carlson answered, stretching his hand effortlessly and dropping some chicken onto my plate.He even asked if I wanted more. He tried to trick me into meeting his gaze, but I only nodded.He didn't act like he was angry, or maybe he didn't want to show it to everyone, but he was quite detached when you watched closely.I could feel everyone's gaze burning on me, but I chose to quietly eat my meal but I still felt uncomfortable and each bite felt tasteless in my mouth.Forgot to bring my phone along; it would be a great form of distraction.After a few minutes, I got up and announced I was done with my meal and would be in my room.Nobody questioned or said a word, so I walked quietly upstairs, and when I was about to shut the door, something prevented it.Carlson placed his leg, wedging the door from closing. What is h
Maddie “Mira, can you ask your brother why he is angry at me?”I placed a hand over my mouth the moment I said that. “Is it okay to ask for help sometimes?” She was still trying to arrange my clothes into the wardrobe. Even though I offered to assist her she declined.I laid on the bed with my face facing the ceiling. My thoughts were all about Carlson. What did I do wrong? Why is he so mad at me? I couldn't speak to him so Mira was my only option.Even though I don't want to involve her in adult stuff, she's so close to her brother and could get the truth out.“What did you do to him?” I'm going to tell her I overheard me moaning to myself.Bruh!!!!That's not going to happen. I lifted my weight, my hand still pressing down on the sheet.“I don't know, he haven't spoken to me since morning”“And you're worried about it?” I nod wondering where she's getting with the conversation.“Are you kind of in love with my brother?”Oh shit!I always told Mira Carlson and I are just best fr
Maddie I didn't move, and I didn't say a word but remained stiff for some seconds before he changed the channel to my favorite TV show.I removed the sheet slightly, and he was sitting up this time, his attention on the TV.I checked the time, and it was 4 am. I have been up all night and barely have time to sleep now. I wasn't even feeling sleepy.“Do you care?” Carlson's voice.How did he know I'm awake? He was munching on chips.“Umh… no… thanks.” I sat taking off the sheet completely, my attention completely drawn to the program on the TV. One of my favorites, and I can't just stay away from it.I sat on the bed this time, laughing and mumbling to myself like I had someone I was discussing.“Disey got it all wrong.” I love to talk when watching my favorite ones, and I enjoy having another person who vibes the same way as me, but too bad Carlson isn't like that either.He prefers to be quiet, while I'm the noisy one.The movie came to an end, and I fell back on the bed this time







