Chapter 1

Maddie

My fault is loving so hard to ungrateful and undeserving people, same with my love life.

Messy!

Imagine giving my V- card to the guy who leaves my messages unread.

Yes, I'm that girl.

The girl who fell for his childhood friend and right here standing at the sidelines cheering I wish he could finally look at me and see me not just as an assistant.

“Woohoo! You're really heating it hard Jamie. Go..go..go” I shouted from the sidelines taking every amazing shot I could use for the newsletter. Jamie is just one person who I had in mind to appear on the school homepage when the article is written.

My big rimmed glasses shifted but I never cared to adjust it back but rather focused on getting more shots.

I'm Maddie Malone, the team assistant nobody sees, took this job so I could get closer to Jamie hoping one day he will look my way. Planning on telling him about my feelings later today, took me so much time to make this bold step.

The ball rolled over hitting me to my feet causing my big round glasses to fly from my nose and hit the floor with a soft rattle.

Leaving my camera dangling around my neck, I bent low, squirting my eyes and searching with my hands for my glasses. I hear footsteps stop right In front of me, the signature perfume of Jamie mixed with sweat filled my nose.

Hope soared through me as I looked up to him standing right in front of me with a disgusting look on his face. His face faint making it impossible to see him clearly.

Finally Jamie Doner finally looked at me, a bright smile spread across my face but never cared if it was reciprocated. I thought he would help me but just sighed, taking the ball before sprinting back to the field completely ignoring me.

I have been ignored before but him and I'm getting used to it but that didn't stop me from loving him. Jamie is like a breath that I breathe. Always wanting to be around him.

“I guess your face was smacked” it's Carlson the school golden boy and playboy. He picked up my glasses, placed them on my face, and shook my head like I'm five years old. I slapped his hand off disgustedly over him.

Practice is over but I never got a chance to speak to Jamie since he's all over with his friends. Instead I went over to my dorm only to meet the delivery guy on my doorstep.

“Thank you” I said to the delivery guy after I had signed for my parcel. It's a gift from my mother, a navy blue box tied with an orange ribbon with a letter attached.

I got into my room blewing with excitement as I read through my mother's words.

“My Angel, you know I will never miss your birthday for anything in the world but I'm sorry it turned out this way. Your 18th birthday should be special for you, do something special for yourself and yeah don't forget to make a wish before you blow off your candle. Welcome to being an adult.

Love and light”

I held the card to my chest, shutting my eyes momentarily, the image of my mother played in my head. She has been away for four months and I miss her so much. Speaking of doing something special.

I can finally tell Jamie about how I feel about him. But what if he rejects me? I shook my head from those negative thoughts.

“It's my birthday and I should do something special for myself or I will die a virgin.” I whispered to myself.

I undied the box to see the hand made creamy cardigan and I felt so special irrespective of mum’s busy schedule she still had the time to make a cardigan for me. I will cherish this forever.

I stepped out of my dorm with mum's words ringing in my head. I stood in front of Jamie's room with a shaky hand as I waited for him to open up. Taking a deep breath to calm my nerves the door finally flies open to reveal Jamie on bare chested and on a white towel. My breath hangs.

“Maddie” he's shocked to see me at his door way.

“Jamie I hope I could talk to you”

“Can we do this later?” He tried to push me away but I have kept this feeling for years and it's time to let it out and without any further negotiation I pressed on not aware it's going to be the worst day of my life.

“Jamie Doner, I have feelings for you and I'm hoping you could take my virginity on my 18th birthday” almost out of breath when I'm done.

Imagine offering yourself as a piece offering. I'm offering myself to a guy who doesn't even value me but I thought with time he would see the amazing person I am.

Never expecting a clap from behind, Jamie widened his door stepping aside. Veronica closed in with her tripod stand.

My eyes widen in panic, losing every sense of sanity in me. I could have ran but deep rooted to my feet. I took a glance at Jamie who had a small smile on his face.

“Say hello to my 5000 followers watching you confess your feelings, desperately for Jamie. A needy virgin who wants to get laid”

I truly wish the ground could open. I wish I could take back my words. I didn't just make a costly mistake but I had other students who were watching me live get the biggest humiliation of my life.

“Go on Maddie, I bet you aren't done yet. Go on tell my followers how needy you are” she drew a small microphone to my face, tears rattled inside me when I realized I'm alone and her high soprano voice attracted passerby students who laughed at me.