MasukCarlson No one really knows how heartbreak feels unless you have a firsthand experience.The constricting pain in your heart that never goes away. The sleepless night that keeps you thinking about the memories.The constant checking of your phone—every beep or notification feels like it's coming from your lover, but you get disappointed at a glance.I wouldn't swallow my pride to call her on the phone. It felt like I was just wasting my time.Probably I was, or I wasn't. What she did was like a slap to my face. She called, too, in order to know if Maddie really feels something for me or if this should be a game for her, so I decided to test her, and she fell for it at that instant. If one can play the game, then two can play it even harder.But I can't help this feeling inside of me that keeps telling me Maddie is invested in me. It's time to stop believing in assumptions and have her say it, want it like her life dearly depends on it.I tilt her chin to meet her gaze; her eyes w
Maddie Does every love story end with a happy ending.Carlson packed right Infront of his apartment. Something inside me twisted and I felt agitated just like the last time I came here.He never spoke about what happened to us. He came down and surprisely opened the passenger door for me.I stepped out now alert. He walked away while I followed him behind silent.The moment he opened the door I was expecting someone to welcome us in but nobody came.“Why are you standing there like a steel?” Carlson's voice brought me out of my thoughts.He already stepped inside waiting for me to come in but I still stood rooted standing there like a lunatic.“Umh ..yeah” I stepped in but there wasn't any sign of another girl.Carlson collapse on the couch while the keys jingle as he kept them by the side table.He relaxed getting hold of the remote and turning on the TV set. The light illuminated the sitting room more. Carlson loves it dark while I love my light on as I sleep but with time of sta
Maddie Trying to live without Carlson was like trying to live without myself. I imagined him the moment I shut my eyes. I imagined us curled up in each other's arms.I imagined him startling me; I imagined everything I wanted him to do to me. I'm frustrated and left to my own imagination.“Maddie,” Jean whispered into my ears, loud enough to suppress the loud music.“You don't have to be uptight with her; she's trying to be your friend,” she added, and my gaze shifted to Veronica. Observing.I couldn't stop myself from getting the clue that she looks like the shadow of herself this time. Her videos are going viral, and most of her fans cuss her.Who actually wants to be her friend? And somehow, inside my aching and bitter heart for her, I felt something.I felt pity for her. How ironic that my bully now wants to be my friend. She got what she deserves, which is not to underestimate anymore, but still I didn't feel safe around her.I always believe she will always be up to someth
Maddie It's been two days since I last saw Carlson. He didn't call me back nor did he come to look for me. It seems I didn't exist in his world.I checked his Instagram and he hasn't updated anything yet except for just our picture on camp night and the other when we went out to the beach.I laid on the bed face on the ceiling as millions of thoughts came into my head. I wanted to confront him but then I realized it was my fault initially.You don't really know how hurt you will be for a game you started yourself. I thought speaking to others will relieve me of thinking about Carlson a lot but I was wrong.I was running away from my emotions instead of embracing it. Every top up notification I'm quick to rush to my phone with Carlson in mind.But it wasn't him.An invite to the school party shown on our group chat. I want to ignore it but staying alone in my room all day wasn't helping either. I needed to get out.I needed a drink.It was tonight and luckily I still have one dress w
Maddie I never saw it coming. I hate to see myself in a confused state with no way out.My head was spinning, staring at my dorm room, which was in the most disoriented state. I was running to find a place to cool off, a place to think, and now this.This time I'm totally alone. There is no one coming. Carlson is like miles away from me, and our argument isn't something that will be resolved anytime soon.I stared down at my broken phone, which was in my hand, a bitter laugh escaping my lips.Could this be a sign?I had peace, but I chose chaos.Carlson has been good to me; he defended me and gave me everything, yet I couldn't appreciate him.I'm such a terrible person; probably I deserved what I'm getting.Tears burned the back of my eyelid. I wasn't going to run this time. It is time to fix things.I didn't have much money to book a motel tonight, and I still needed to fix my phone. I dropped my luggage and carefully stepped into the room.I stared at the threat for a moment.“Stay
Carlson At first I thought it was just my imagination or dilution of imagining things that aren't there but the message kept staring back at me.I'm tempted to scroll more to know more but I'm so weak to my bones reading shit from her phone.When did Maddie get to this level? She avoided any topic related sex at first. I thought she's all shy about it and I respect her decision of keeping it plane.We were once cool with each other but I noticed her attitude of not wanting me around her, not touching her, not holding hands with her.I got frustrated and concerned about what is going on, looking for the right time to know what went wrong. If I did anything to hurt her I didn't know of.I noticed she was trying to pull away from me but why. I don't know the reason for her to act that way.She was already sleeping and one of her leg was out so I went over to cover her up with the sheet when a notification popped up on her phone.The name is not familiar but I'm tempted to know who will







