Where I am ??
Where I am ??again ,really , another nightmare I guess , they have to know I am kind of busy nowadays trying to plan my escape .It is very dark , I can't even see my hands , do I even exist here , or maybe it is my conscious being trapped in no where. Suddenly something glowed in the dark , it is a rose , red glowing rose with a stream of unstoppable dust falling from it , with very bright green yet dusty twig , the dust revealed my hand as dusty figure holding tight to the rose , it is spreading now to my whole body, and I am breathing dust ! in and out , I am just made of glowing dust , a glowing dusty figure to be specific , not like a human , like I am coI started reading and flipping the huge papers over that threw clouds of unearthed dust , no matter how much I sneezed and no matter how much I cried, it seemed like it would never stop , it was dustier than my great grandmother of my father who is still alive for no reason .After reading much inside the book , it seemed very basic to me , pretty normal introduction, many not important, ancestors and I am pretty sure I am wasting my time , my strength and my senses here.I can smell now nothing at all other than dust , and the book ,it is so heavy.My arms are going numb soon , I flipped so many big pages like a wall after a wall , it is all a dead end to me. He is nowhere to be found.Suddenly , What I Wanted came in front of me when I had just decided to close the book..."KALIM CONAL KWEINT " It's him , it tells the story of him even before birth. weird it never happened.The book states everything about the person after he
I didn't have the courage to turn right away and look at his face I Don't know why I Don't ever stop him from toying with me , why I am being and acting so passive this aint right , yet I am calm …….. why ? But I cant keep my calmness long , can I ? "You were in my room, you watched me in my sleep, didn't you ? " I said it to him but I was more talking to myself than talking To him as I was looking the other way . I heard him stepping out of the room I slowly looked back but he already left, I went out after him but saw no trace of him like he vanished . Again he left, no no no no , what is wrong with him. My steps was racing as my heart was too , too eager to find him . I never thought I would be indulged with such complexity , I cant control , him . I ran randomly everywhere but all was dead e
the wind started hitting and pushing me back towards the door fiercely I have tried my best to resist it but my feet were slipping on the floor like a molten soap , I felt that my hair being pulled back so much by the wind that it would come out of my head that it started to hurt a lot ."GET OUT NOW " HE YELLED AT ME .I flew up and almost went out of the room but I manged to get held over the doors that were almost taken down by the wind, my dress is getting tored apart , the wind scratched my face , my elbow now I am bleeding from it , the door slammed and pushed me that I have hit the walls outside the room , in the hallway , and I guess i fainted for a while , with fading sight of him , I saw his bandages being unwrapped revealing the burn mark I saw earlier when I was riding the horse with him, I felt it beating , like it was alive , it is shaped like a tree ! 
All left us , even healers were scared to come closer to me or him , I was sitting down to the wrecked floor for a little time just staring at him , his face with the blood still coming from him , I saw my trembling fingers just touching his rough cheek in a gentle way that I didn't tend myself with before , I decided to get up and to carry him as long as I am able to , surprisingly I had power to do so , I sat him on what is left of the broken bed , I have torn two big pieces of my sliced down dress , and went to the bathroom and already wetted it throughly, and went to the sleeping Kalim .I started to wipe his face from the dirt and the blood covering him , again and again and by the other piece I wiped my face too we both were in kinda of a great mess , I couldn't feel myself , I lost control , my shaking hand betrayed me and I fainted over his rough chest , it is more like hitting moist rock , but i wasnot balanced I almost slipped
A tale of ancient myth , of a deadly man who did only know how to turn everything into lifeless straw which is tossed over to the ground to be stepped on . he could throw the fear in any man's heart , he kills good people , he kills bad people , he dosent distinct white from black , he was the real annihilation , he wiped out nations , he loved no one , no one loved him , had no family . they said to become the one he is , he went to “life “ and mercilessly killed her , stabbing her through her beating heart , earning the darkened power of destruction , he truely became king but king of no one because he killed everyone . Mindless he became , lived thousands millions of lives , lost control till he killed himself in a petty show of no mercy . No one knows why did he gone mad , but my mother told me this story when I was young , that I had nightmares about it a lot , dreaming being killed by this dark figure , who was the darkened king in my mind ,
God no no noI had a dream , yes again !! I am supposed to be called the dreamer princess or princess of dreams, but this time it was all about him , however I tried to escape or wake up from it , it all goes back to the starting point , him, i wake up in a dream to dream about him , what an irony.I even pinched my self but it was all in pure flutifle ..... vain , I cant feel it , where are the brown crawlers of my dreams or those voices calling me , come back again please instead the man I am seeing right now god no , he is taking off his clothes piece by piece and believe me when i am saying he dosent wear much .........stop ........oh my god he didnot stop , don't come closer stay away oh no ... he is coming , someone save me ... please ,why can't I run now ?he is slowly approaching me and I am unable to move I can feel his wet lips gently pushing on my frightened cheeks slowly slipping to my tre
but I grabbed her at time .It was his sister , I politely apologised to her and kept walking on my path but she got clingy to my arms in fake sweetness that made me nauseaus yet i am trying not to judge her .she insisted on inviting me to her room for tea and talk , I poorly agreed but actually I just hated tea more than anything in my life and talk with her , we have just met ??? what do we have to talk about right now , and who would like to talk while drinking something bitter , in my country it is insult to drink it with suger , hope they don’t follow this role too here .We are sitting in this big cozy room , full of fur and feathers of poor ostriches which was put in huge pots in everywhere ,and also with the waving servents like it was supposed to bring fresh air but i cannt help but thinking about the poor ostrishes and for sure red roses everywhere too, yet so much red for my eyes making them twitch
I went outside the big castle where I sat on the green land over there , and laid my back to the fullest ,where i freed my hair to the swirling winds, and filled my lungs with the fresh breeze of the purple orchids dancing near me ,for a moment I enjoyed the peace , like I had nothing to worry ."Ma'am " I heard someone calls while taking his breath out of running.I slowly turned my head with one eye closed in complete laziness i answered " oh it is u Jewel ""We are very late , we have to go now , please m'am "She extended her hand to me but I was reluctant to take it , i didnot want my short timed peace to end , but I had to , I can't leave her hanging all of this time .Once she had my hand she started running literally while pulling me behind her , am I now a bag of empty pototas now she carries in hurry . like I am a young child who doesn't want to leave his grandparents but his angry mom insist on leaving and dragging him behind her ."Relax , what is going on , why so much