تسجيل الدخولThorne. I stood there, frozen just inside the door, staring at her as her words hung in the air like smoke from a dying candle.“This isn’t about sex anymore,” she said, voice cracking at the edges, eyes glassy but fierce. “I swear I know it deep down. It’s not sex. It’s more than that.”The room felt too small suddenly. The crucifix on the wall seemed to watch me with hollow eyes. I wanted to laugh—bitter, hollow—because of course she thought that. Of course she’d fallen into the trap I’d been fighting tooth and nail to keep her out of.She stepped closer, bare feet silent on the worn rug, and reached for me. Her fingers brushed my chest, light at first, then pressing flat over my heart like she could pull the truth out through my shirt. I should have stopped her. Should have caught her wrists and held them away. But I didn’t. I let her touch me. Let her palm slide up to my collar, tracing the white tab like it was something sacred instead of the lie it had become.“Mia,” I said
Thorne.I cut across the shadowed lawn toward the back garden, footsteps quick and quiet on the damp grass. The air had cooled, carrying the faint scent of roses and freshly turned earth from the new construction. Every nerve in me pulled forward—Mia was there. I knew it the way I knew my own pulse. She’d wait, stubborn and aching, just like I’d told her to.I should’ve been more careful. Should’ve lingered in the hall until Mary returned to the sisters’ quarters, until the last car crunched down the gravel drive and the grounds were empty. But patience had burned out of me the second Mrs. Voss left. Need overrode sense. One more minute without touching Mia felt unbearable.“Why are you walking that way, padre?”Mary’s voice floated from behind me—soft, curious, too close. I stopped, shoulders tightening, and turned slowly. She stood under the weak glow of a pathway lamp, habit stirring in the breeze, hands folded neatly in front of her. That serene face, those dark eyes watchin
Thorne.I saw her the second she stepped through the church gates—sundress clinging from the walk, cheeks flushed, hair a little wild around her shoulders. She was carrying one of her Grandma’s baskets like a good girl, smiling at the old ladies, but her eyes kept scanning. Searching. For me.And God help me, everything in me answered.I turned my back faster than I should have, pretending to focus on the orphanage kids clustered around the new building plans. Their voices washed over me—excited questions about dorm rooms, class schedules—but I barely heard a word. All I felt was her presence, like heat at my back, pulling at me the way gravity pulls at water.I should stay away.I know that. I’ve known it since the first time I tasted her in my office, since the moment I let myself sink into her and forgot every vow I’d ever made. This can’t keep happening. I told myself.Not like this. Not with her.She’s young—too young for the weight of what I’ve dragged her into. She looks a
Mia.It felt like forever—ten agonizing minutes of kneeling in the dim confessional, the wooden kneeler digging into my skin, air thick with wax and silence. My mind wouldn’t stop replaying that smile he’d given her. The young nun. The way her hand lingered when she passed him the prayer book. What the hell were they talking about for so long while people waited for confession? Laughing about something private? Planning shifts together? The jealousy gnawed deeper with every second.Then the door on his side creaked open. Fabric rustled as he settled. I held my breath, staring at the shadowed screen. He couldn’t see me—not clearly—unless he leaned close to the small grate. I stayed silent until I was sure he was seated.He made the sign of the cross, voice low and steady. “In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit. Amen.”A pause.“You may begin. Tell me your sins.”My throat tightened. I had one sin. Him. All of him. But the words that slipped out weren’
Mia.One thing I absolutely despise about these Saturday church trips with Grandma? She refuses anything faster than her own two feet. No cab, no rideshare, not even the bus if it means spending a single extra coin. “The Lord gave us legs for a reason,” she’ll say, like it’s profound wisdom instead of torture.I’d much rather go alone—slip out quietly, take a quick taxi straight to the parish, maybe even arrive early enough to catch Thorne before the crowd descends. But no. Trying to suggest a cab would only unleash a full sermon on frugality, wasteful youth, and how money doesn’t grow on trees. So here we were, trudging along the sidewalk under the late-morning sun, baskets swinging between us, my sundress sticking to my back already.My calves burned. Every step sent a dull ache up my legs, and the thin straps of my sandals weren’t helping. I shifted the heavier basket to my other arm, trying not to whine out loud.Grandma glanced over, cheerful as ever. “It’s good exercise, M
Mia. Saturday dragged like a bad confession—slow, heavy, full of things I couldn’t say out loud. Grandma was in the kitchen humming old hymns while she packed her usual casserole for the parish women’s meeting. The whole house smelled like baked cheese and rosemary, comforting in that familiar way, but it did nothing to settle the restless ache under my skin.I hadn’t seen Thorne since that day in his office. Not a glimpse. Not a text. My calls went straight to voicemail, each unanswered ring twisting the knife deeper. I kept checking my phone like some pathetic addict, refreshing the screen even when I knew nothing would be there. Tomorrow was Sunday—mass, the one place I was guaranteed to lay eyes on him—but tomorrow felt a lifetime away. My mind kept spiraling to dark places; Was he avoiding me on purpose? Had someone seen something? Or worse… was he with someone else?The assignment with Emma last night had been torture. I’d sat across from her at the dining table, nodding whe







