What if you change your mind?

Lenora

What the hell is going on? Is he in his right senses? How can he say he doesn't give a damn whether I can give him children or not?

I mean no Alpha in his right senses will want to be with a barren Luna for heaven's sake! He wants to be with a woman who will never conceive?

EVERY Alpha wants a woman who will provide them with pups that can succeed them when they are no more.

My barrenness was the main reason why Axel's attitude towards me changed. If I wasn't barren, I'd have still been in the pack and maybe Melissa wouldn't have come into the picture.

“You don't know what you are saying, Zade. We can't be together. I can't give you any pups at all, even if we have to wait forever” I said in a stern voice, hoping to make him change his mind, but he shook his head.

“Of course I know what I want, Lenora. I want you and you alone. Like I said earlier, if the moon goddess gives us children, that's a bonus, but if she doesn't, we will adopt one,” He repeated the same words that he had said to me and I just stared at him in shock and disbelief.

“Zade,” I couldn't believe my ears. He really wants us to be together?

“Yes, Lenora,” He answered with a small smile and I sighed.

“Are you really sure about this? You really don't care if I can bear children or not?” I asked. I just had to make sure that I heard him clearly.

“Yes, Lenora. I don't care. I want you and I want us to live forever,”

“What if you change your mind later? What if you send me away at the end of the day? What if the pressure from your pack becomes too much and–”

Before I could finish my words, he placed his index finger on my lips, thereby stopping me from whatever I was about to say.

“You have nothing to worry about, my dear,”

“No, I have every right to be worried. What if they ask you to send me away when I can't provide an heir for you?”

“Who is the Alpha?” He asked with raised eyebrows. I cleared my throat before answering.

“Its you of course,” I answered.

“Good,” He nodded. “Does the pack have any rights to tell an Alpha what to do?”

“Of course, they do. You are a leader and as a leader, it is your responsibility to do whatever the pack wants,”

After all that was what my mate did. The thought hurts so much.

‘Yeah. I can't be with a murderer. This is what the Pack have accepted and you know as a leader, I have to please my people. I'll do anything for their safety'. His words replayed in my head.

“And now you are mistaken. An Alpha can only do what he feels is right for the pack, not because it's what the pack wants. Do you get it?”

I hesitated before answering. “Yes, but–”

“There are no buts here, Lenora. I want you and I don't care about the pack. Plus they are in no position to choose a mate for me. Is that clear?”

“What do I do, Lora?” I asked my wolf because I felt that she would be able to give me the best advice. After all, I've read a book and the author says it always turns out well when we listen to our wolves and ask them for advice.

“Well, to me, he sounds very sincere. I think you should accept him,” She answered and I exhaled slowly.

“Are you sure about this? I don't want to regret it later,”

“Trust me, you won't. Alpha Zade sounds like a nice guy,”

“Axel was a nice guy too from the beginning” I said through gritted teeth.

“Now you are mistaken. He was never a nice guy to us. I tried pointing it out to you, but you were so blindly in love with him that you ignored me,” She whispered and I let out a deep breath.

She was right. Axel was never in love with me. He only made me feel like he loved me and I was too foolish to believe that he did.

If he did, I doubt that he would have changed towards me just because I couldn't give him a child. He would have loved me the same way he did from the beginning, right?

“Take your mind off him, Lenora. He is in our past now,”

I nodded. “You are right. He is in our past and so is Melissa. So is Matilda. They can all go to hell,”

I was jerked back to life when I heard the sound of fingers snapping. It was Zade.

“So what do you say? Are you going to accept me?”

“I won't lie to you, Zade, I don't know what to say. I am just scared of getting hurt at the end,”

He brought his palms to my face and palmed it. “I understand your fears. I don't know what went wrong between you and your former mate, but please I just want you to know that you can trust me. Don't judge me based on how he treated you. We are two different souls, okay?”

I'll give him the benefits of the doubt and see how it goes then. “Okay,”

His lips curved into a huge smile and the next minute, he threw his arms around me and pulled me into a bear hug. He hugged me like his life depended on me.

Even though it was suffocating, it felt good. I can't remember the last time I was hugged this way. I can't even remember the last time Axel hugged me.

“Thank you so much, Lenora. Thank you. You have no idea how happy you just made me. Thank you for giving me a chance,”

I couldn't help it when a smile appeared on my face. Maybe just maybe, he will be different from that ass hole. I willed myself to hug him back.

“You are welcome, Zade,”

After what felt like forever, he pulled away from the hug. “You have nothing to worry about, okay? I'll treat you better than any man have ever treated you,”

“And I can't wait,” I teased him. A low chuckle escaped his lips.

“You are such a tease, baby girl,” He said as he gave my cheeks a small pinch.

“Shall we go home?” He asked, but I shook my head and his brows constricted into a frown.

“Why? What's wrong?” He panicked and it brought a smile to my face.

“Come on, Zade. There is no reason for you to panic. I just wanted you to tell me what you were doing out here earlier,”

I heard him sigh and I knew that it was a sigh of relief. He cleared his throat before starting. “Well, I was only taking a walk,”

“On the grounds of your archenemy's pack? Were you trying to trespass or something?” I asked and the next minute, a blush crept its way to his face. It was so funny, watching as he blushed like a teenager standing in front of his crush.

“It's…It's not what you think,” He stuttered and I had to stop myself from laughing.

“Then tell me what it was,”

“Promise me that you won't get mad?” He asked and I nodded my head.

“I promise, Zade. I won't. Now tell me,”

“Well, the thing is this, I do come here to watch you,”

“How often?”

“Everyday. I've been doing it for the past two months,”

My eyes almost bulged out of its sockets as I heard his words. “You come here everyday just to watch me?”

He nodded. “Yes, Lenora,” He answered. “Are you mad at me?”

“Of course not, Zade. I'm not mad in any way. I just want to know why you would take such a risk, knowing fully well that you don't get pretty well with Axel. What if he had seen you?”

“He wouldn't have known that I was the one. I always wear a mask,”

“Now tell me, why do you keep taking such risks?”

“I'll do anything just to see you, Lenora. I don't care if it causes a war between me and that brute, but I just had to do it”

I was finding this confusing. For the past two months he has been leaving his pack and coming down to Axel's pack just to watch me. He was Axel's greatest rival and what if Axel had caught him during those times?

“Why?”

A blush appeared on his face again. “Would you believe me if I told you that I fell in love with you some years ago?”

A frown crept its way to my face. “You fell in love with me?”

He nodded. “Yes. In fact, I have been in love with you four years now,”

“Four years?”

“Yes, Lenora. I fell in love with you the first time I set my eyes on you and that was at the Mask Ball which took place in the Royal City of Tyrone,” He answered with a small smile on his face.

“You have been in love with me since then?”

“Sadly, yes. And I wanted to go after you and make you mine, because I couldn't get you off my mind, no matter how much I tried. Boom, I found out that you were Axel's mate. You need to see how pissed I was at the moon goddess,” He chuckled.

I couldn't believe my ears. I could vividly remember how our first meeting was.

One of the servers had accidentally poured her wine on me, but Axel was too busy to notice as he was with Alpha Elijah and other Alphas too.

Zade saw how I was trying to get the stain off my gown, and he opted to take me to the restroom to help me change. I didn't see any harm in letting him help me, thus I agreed.

I could vividly remember how my skin tingled due to his touch and how his suit smelled when he placed it around me. I would be a liar if I said I didn't feel any sparks within me that day. I spent the night thinking about his touch and his scent.

It was intoxicating and heavenly. It's also funny that Axel didn't care that I had a strange suit on my body. He felt that I had brought it with me when coming to the Ball.

“Oh my goodness, Zade. You have been in love with me since then,” I stated and he chuckled.

“Yes, Lenora and now I'm filled with joy at the fact that you are in my arms and you are mine too,”

Before I could stop myself, I jumped into his arms. I'm sure as hell that if he hadn't noticed me, we would have both fallen on the hard ground.

“You are unbelievable, Zade. You have been in love with me for four years and you didn't tell me about it. You kept it within you,” I giggled as I wrapped my arms around him.

After a while, we pulled away from the hug.

“Let's go home,”