Amelia didn’t know how long she was on the ground crying herself out. She was lucky because no one had come into the woods at that time. She could at least try to cheer herself up but she couldn’t. The rejection really caused her too much heartbreak.
It was already dark when she decided to go home. There she found Bea had already finished cooking for her. And they were waiting for her. Amelia tried to be happy for them. At least that time, she was happy even though it was fake. But seeing how in love her brother and best friend were just made her more heartbroken. That was what she could never have.
As the day passed, Amelia was like a zombie. She woke up every morning to fix their breakfast. While Marcus and Bea went on their run. Yes, Bea was already living with them when she turned eighteen. She was three months older than Amelia. And yes, Marcus and Amelia finally became okay because of the help of Bea.
After their breakfast, Amelia fixed herself for her school. She managed to keep her life going on for a year since the rejection happened. Though she could still smell Nicolai when he was around. But she ignored it because that was what he was doing too. She tried to think that her rejection of Nicolai to her was a blessing in disguise. His friends were not bullying her anymore. Like what they agreed on, no one learned about what happened that day. Even Bea, her best friend, didn’t know about it.
Tomorrow will be her eighteenth birthday. She had been thinking about it for months now. She thought she would finally leave their pack after her birthday. It would be dangerous because she would be rogue. But maybe she could find a new life in a human city. Maybe there, someone would accept her. Maybe there she would forget everything.
And besides, she still couldn’t forget about what Nicolai told her. He would ban her when he became the alpha of their pack. Before he does that, she will leave this place. And it decided.
Amelia’s day lasted like the other days. She managed to avoid her bullies as she prepared for the last day of her senior year. Then she went home and fixed their dinner. Seeing her brother happily talking with Bea was just making Amelia hesitate to leave. But it was the right thing to do. She doesn’t want them to keep worrying about her.
After their dinner, Amelia went to her room. She silently packed most of the important things she would need. Clothes, and her important papers. She counted the money she saved from her coin bank and she got five thousand dollars. It was not bad considering she got this from doing part-time at a restaurant for their packmates. She decided that she would go to a human city. She was wolfless after all.
When everything was ready, Amelia decided to have her final walk in their territory. She told Bea and Marcus that was preparing for later.
“Get back early, Sister,” said Marcus.
Amelia smiled and nodded at him. “Okay, brother.”
Amelia went out. The night was clear and the moon was full up high. She almost forgot her birthday would be a full moon. And the full moon was important for her packmates too. The Moon Goddess will bless everyone. Some would find their mate, some would shift, and some would be stronger. They also said that when it was a full moon, that was when the Moon Goddess would likely hear anyone's wishes and grant them.
Amelia smirked thinking of it. A lot of full moons had passed. Every full moon she asked the Moon Goddess to let her wolf out. But still nothing. She was still the wolfless, worthless, and pathetic Amelia who her mate rejected.
Amelia continued her walk until she reached the woods. She made it onto the lake and sat down at the end of the bridge. Amelia looked up and sighed. She inhaled the night breeze and it felt relaxing. She could already hear some howling. It’s still not midnight but some couldn’t wait.
‘How I wish I could feel how to run like a wolf too. It must be good,’ Amelia thought. But she instantly removed it from her mind. She will be gone here tomorrow. She shouldn’t think about it anymore.
Amelia suddenly heard a snapping behind her back. She turned her head back and saw darkness. It was coming from the woods. Amelia decided to stand up because it felt like something was calling her there. When she reached the woods, Amelia froze as she smelled the familiar scent. That scent that she loved but never wanted hers. It was him, her mate.
‘What was he doing here?’
Amelia panicked. She saw the enormous black wolf slowly walking toward her. He was large, like the usual alpha. His eyes were red. Nicolai’s wolf was also majestic, like his human form. Oh, how she wanted to caress his black fur. But she could hear the low rumbling growl coming from it. That was just adding more to Amelia’s terror. She wanted to run now because it would be foolish of her because he could easily get her. Amelia snapped when she heard her bones cracking up. She closed her eyes and bowed her head. She didn’t move even though she heard the footsteps going toward her.
“Why do I still smell you?!” Nicolai asked angrily. He then held Amelia’s shoulder and pinned her to the nearby tree.
Amelia grunted as she felt the hard tree on her back. Nicolai was also holding her aggressively, so she was hurting. But she decided to keep it to herself.
“It was so strong that my wolf took over to find you! I already rejected you!”
Amelia trembled. “P-Please… you are hurting me!”
“Shut up! What did you do? I rejected you and you accepted it! How is this possible?!”
“I don’t know! I didn’t do anything!” Amelia cried. “Please! You will break my arms!”
“Fuck it!”
Nicolai let her go. Amelia fell down on the ground. She crawled onto another tree and hugged herself while crying. She suddenly remembered when they were attacked by the rogues. Nicolai was like them. Ready to slash her throat.
“My wolf might have been pitying you! Fuck! You really don’t deserve to be in this pack! You are worthless! It should’ve been you who died, not your mother!”
Amelia shook her head. She was already shaking. What was wrong did she do with him? Yes, she was weak. As the years passed, she blamed herself. But this was so much that she could hear it from her fated mate. She panicked again when Nicolai marched on her.
“No!” Amelia screamed as he grabbed her arms again and pinned her to the trees. “P-Please! Stop!”
“Leave, Amelia. Go! You are a danger in this pack! You can’t take care of yourself, so you will endanger them, only! You are weak and a human! I will never have you as my Luna!” he shouted and then pushed her to the ground. “Leave before I humiliate you in front of our packmates. Leave if you want your dignity intact! Because I won’t hesitate to do it when I still see you at my ceremony!” he added, then started walking.
Amelia’s face was almost slammed into the ground. She was already planning on leaving this place. He shouldn’t be too hard on her like that. She had already moved on and decided to find her own peace. But why must he hurt her more? She stood up and forced herself to run away from the place.
Maybe Nicolai was right. She would be a danger to anyone who would be with her. Maybe running away was not a good idea. Maybe being in this life was really wrong. Her mother died because of her. She was wolfless. Her mate rejected her. There was nothing she could do about this place anymore. Maybe disappearing into the human world was not enough. Maybe she should really be gone.
Amelia found herself on a cliff. She could see the neighboring pack from her position. Below was a river where the water was flowing fast. She was still in their territory but already far away. Amelia was still crying out. Thinking that she was really worthless and should leave this lifetime. She looked at the river below her.
“Oh, mother! What should I do?! Moon Goddess! Why is this happening to me?!” she cried out. “Yes. Maybe this was the best.” Amelia sniffed. “I-I’m sorry, brother. I’m sorry, Bea. I’m sorry. I can’t do this anymore–”
“What are you doing?”
Amelia jumped when she heard a voice from behind her. She turned around but before she could see the man, she heard a rock rumbling. Then the place she was standing started to fall. Amelia screamed in terror as she felt her body slowly fall.
Amelia screamed in terror as she felt her body slowly fall off the cliff. She closed her eyes waiting for her body to feel the cold water and hard rock below. But instead, she felt someone grab her hands. She slowly opened her eyes and saw that she was hanging on the cliff. Amelia gasped as she saw deep down under her. “Oh my god!” she cried. Then she grabbed her other hand to whoever was holding her. “Don’t let go!” he shouted. Amelia’s heart was already pounding. Suddenly, her sadness went away. She was ready to end her life earlier, but she was terrified now. Seeing how deep the river was below made her knees tremble. The man slowly pulled her up. Amelia was relieved and crawled away from the cliff when she was finally safe. “Oh my god! I thought I was going to die already!” The man chuckled. “Wasn’t that what you were doing earlier?” Amelia held up her head. She saw a tall man smiling at him. He was covering the moon. That was why it looked like it was shining from beh
Before Marcus and Bea woke up, Amelia decided to go. She left a note at her study table for them. She was giving her blessings to them and telling them that she'd be okay and to not find her. The whole pack was still sleeping and the sky was still dark. Amelia inhaled the morning breeze as she walked outside. “I’ll be fine,” she whispered. She doesn’t know what will wait for him in the human city. But this was the best. She doesn’t want to cause any harm to their pack. ‘You are crazy, Amelia! You can’t go!’ Amelia sighed. Her wolf–beast had been telling her not to go. Lily was saying that she could sense their second mate was just near. But Amelia’s decision was already firm. She wanted to go. ‘This is the best, Lily. Just support me, please.’ ‘But you have me, okay? You are not a human!’ ‘But I am a Lycan, and it is still the same.’ Lily growled. ‘Then let’s go find our mate.’ Amelia shook her head. She decided not to answer Lily anymore. She kept on whining in her head.
‘Amelia, wake up!’ Amelia gasped and sat down as she came from drowning. She filled her lungs with more air as she looked around. “Where am I, Lily?” she asked. She was in a room it a big window. The room looked beautiful and very organized. She felt like no one was using the room. Her bag was on a big couch at the end of the bed where she was lying down. ‘We’re in the room of our mates! You passed out when you saw them!’ Amelia frowned. Yes. She finally remembered it now. She smelled the scent of her mate earlier. And to her surprise, she doesn’t have only one mate but two! Amelia gasped and touched her mouth. “Was it true? Do we have two new mates? Was it even possible? Lily! Answer me!” she asked. Amelia was already panicking because she had never heard of anyone having two mates. ‘Calm down, okay? Yes. Some wolves or Lycans can have two mates. Especially if they’re twins. Like our mates,’ Lily explained. ‘I can’t wait to see them again!’ “They are twins? Seriously?” ‘
The twins were silent as they were riding the car getting to their pack. Amelia kept on praying to the Moon Goddess that these two wouldn’t do anything when they arrived. She could see how it angered them to hear what they had just said. Grey was driving and Blue was in the passenger seat. Amelia was on her back, looking down and thinking about what she should do. ‘I should’ve told them about it,’ Amelia said. ‘Why not? Now, that Alpha's ex-mate of ours will know the consequences of what he did to you.’ ‘But, Lily. You know the reason why he did that. And I understand it, I am wolfless.’ Lily groaned. ‘Because I am not a wolf!’ ‘I know. But I should tell them about it.’ ‘Fine.’ Amelia cleared her throat. “Ahm. Blue. Grey. What are you doing with our pack?” Blue looked at Amelia from the rear-view mirror. “We were supposed to check out your pack and attend the appointment of your new alpha. But it looks like your new alpha was not capable.” “What do you mean?” “We wi
Amelia and Bea went home to their house. Marcus was there already waiting for them. Inside, Amelia explained to them what happened to her earlier and why she was with the twin princes. And how she ran away from their pack. “Never do that again, Amelia! You don’t know how much you made us worried!” Marcus said. His face was red already and they could hear a growl coming out of his throat. “I-I’m sorry, Brother. My mind was clouded. I just want to run away from this place.” “But why, Amelia? What did your bullies tell you? I swear I will report them to Alpha Chase now!” Bea exclaimed. “Yes! So what if you’re wolfless? We don’t care! You are my sister and you should be here!” Amelia looked away. She still had yet to tell them about what Nicolai did to her. She was thinking twice because Nicolai would be their next alpha. “Yes. I’m wolfless, brother. Because I am a Lycan. Do you know about this? Was our father a Lycan?” Amelia said. She couldn’t tell Nicolai. Marcus frowned.
Amelia tried to remove her hand. She could feel Vera’s nails slowly piercing her skin. It was also making her breathe hard and slowly, her vision went blurry. But she saw a familiar figure behind Vera. It was Nicolai, standing firm with a brimming authoritative aura. He looked at Vera’s friend who was holding Bea. The two immediately let go of Bea. “Let her go!” Bea shouted. “Vera,” Nicolai called his chosen mate. Vera turned her head and saw Nicolai. Her eyes widened and she immediately let go of Amelia. “N-Nicolai!” “Amelia!” Bea went to Amelia and helped her. She was coughing. “It’s okay now. Breathe.” “What is going on here?” Vera bit her lips. She looked at Nicolai and she saw that he was staring at Amelia. She frowned and went to Nicolai’s side. “Babe! They are being mean to me! They said I am not capable of being Luna because I am not your fated mate.” Vera pouted her lips and held onto Nicola’s arm. Nicolai growled and glared at Amelia. “Did you say that?” “No
Amelia was giggling as she walked with her mates out of the woods. She was over the moon now that she could shift to her beast. She could feel Lily was delighted too that she kept howling and running in her mind. She was beautiful in her eyes. “You were great, love,” Blue said. He was holding Amelia’s right hand. “True. You surprised us. And it was our first time seeing a red Lycan.” Grey was on her left side. Amelia blushed. The twins had been praising her because of her fast shifting. Usually, the first shifting of a Lycan takes up to three hours. But Amelia almost didn’t feel her shifting. Like it was not her first time. “Is my fur not right?” “No. There’s nothing wrong with your fur. You were gorgeous earlier. We could see how excited our beast was seeing yours.” Blue stared at Amelia’s hair. “We love your new hair color.” When Amelia shifted back to her human form, the color of her hair became dark red like blood. The same color as her fur. “And please stop doubting
'To my dearest daughter, By the time you read this, I might be on the Moon Goddess's side. I want you to know that I love you so much, my daughter. I am sorry for leaving you like this. I must too. For your safety. Forgive me because I couldn't tell you the reason too here. I don't know these people. But I believe that this pack would help you. I know you are confused, angry, and sad. By the time the Moon Goddess allows it, you will finally know what you are. You will get what is rightfully yours. I am always hoping for your safety. My daughter, you are special. If you are feeling sad. Look up and always remember that I am by your side. Never trust anyone. Your mother.' That was the content of the next letter. Amelia was sobbing by the time she finished reading it. Her chest felt so hard that her breathing became hard too. Why? Why does she feel like something bad happened to her birth parents? She never met them but she could feel how hard it must have been for them to leav