CHAPTER 5

Luke POV

Fucking fuck with extra fucking fuck sauce.

What was I thinking?

Was I deliberately trying to humiliate myself, my pack, my beta, my alpha……..my aunt!

My heart sank a bit thinking of her. I really hope she wasn’t one of the spectators. She didn’t deserve this after all she done for me.

She raised me and loved me every day as her own. She never met her mate and never got kids on her own. A part of me thinks she choose it that way so she could be there for me. Like she knew I was going to be different and that I would require extra care and protection.

When the alpha ordered the beat down of me to get me to shift. She stepped in and challenged the alpha. She shifted and her wolf stood over my bleeding body prepared to take on everybody in pack. Even prepared to die for me. I didn’t remember anything after that. I passed out due to my severe injuries.

I was later told by Kate that the alpha himself launched at her going for the kill but Kates’s father, beta Mathias, stepped in and stopped the fight. From that day on she was just as much an outcast and disliked as me.

I didn’t know much of her passed before I came along but I had a feeling that she had been destined for great things before I ruined her life. 

I think the actual reason for me pledging to the supreme alpha and wanting to be a part of the selection ceremony was that I hoped it would bring her some goodwill back in the pack and that she would once again be a respected member.

That if the supreme alpha chose me then the pack would have to start treating her the way she deserved – as a loving mother protecting her child from abuse.

She was the only mother that I had ever known, and this was how I repaid her by publicly humiliating her.

My plan to make her proud of me had turned into a disaster and I felt like I wanted the grown to swallow me whole in that instance.

But my self-loathing was interrupted when a scent hit me. I couldn’t really sniff it out with my head press down inches from the floor in the most embarrassing way by beta Mathias.

The scent was familiar. Like I instantly recognized it but then again I couldn’t identify it. It made me feel relaxed and at ease. Just like I was home. And suddenly I felt something deep inside trying to break through.

Oh my god! Was this my wolf trying to emerge? Right here, in front of everybody. In front of the supreme alpha. This could not be happening. My first shift could not be happening right here in the great hall. My heart started beating faster and I tried to look up at Mathias. Trying to signal him some way to let me get the hell out of here.

It felt like all my bones were starting to break as a deep growl broke through my teeth. Mathias instantly looked down at me.

“Luke! What are you doing?! Stop this at once!” Mathias yelled down at me still trying to force me down.

But I couldn’t – believe me I wanted to. But I was no longer in control.

Then I heard a soft voice in my head.

“Luke breath”