May. POV.
I woke up ina groggy state. The left side of my stomach was hurting as the anesthesia wore off due to me donating my kidney to my elder twin sister .
Truthfully I was exhausted mentally or physically as I think that I don't deserve all this. The emotional detachment from my parents and me sacrificing my dreams and achievements for my sick elder sister just because they think that she deserves this.
I have three elder brothers Jason the eldest, Jack the second eldest and Joseph the third eldest and my parents only wanted one daughter but when they got to know about my existence they tried to erase my existence but on the way they met with an accident due to which I was born. But I was born healthy and my elder sister with chronic illness.
My sister name is Jospine.
My mom has black hair and brown eyes and my dad has blonde hair and blue eyes.
All the brothers have black hair and blue eyes.
My sister has blonde hair and black eyes .
My and my sister have same features except for me having blonde hair and blue eyes. My siblings are the perfect mixture of my parents and I guess I am the odd one out.
I was always unloved because I felt that way . As my parents always made out time for my brothers and sister but for me they were always absent. My brothers cold treatment towards me was enough for me to never be close to them.
After the birth I became a living Organ donor. I have to donate blood, bond marrow,liver,etc whatever possible to make my sister healthy.
And infact I would love to do this but their ruthless behaviour towards my feelings and their apathy made my heart cold. They all acted as if I owed my sister .
To the donating it was fine but all my achievements which I got during major international competitions were all named in my sister. My family presented my achievements as my sister's and in the world's eyes I became a worthless child whose sick sister is the genius and she an ingrate.
And today is the last time I am donating as after donating my Kidney everything is all right as my sister will get better soon as this is the last thing I could give her.
And the last time I would stay with my family. I guess after going through so much emotional detachment I feel nothing and I know that if I don't leave I can do the unthinkable which I don't want. Now I want to do something for myself.
I have been in this ward for two days but none of my family members have visited me and I know that they are busy paying attention to my sister. Except for the nurses and doctors I have seen no one. Not even my grandparents who people say that they are kind.
To be exact sometimes I wonder that how would my parents have treated me if I was the sick twin but I guess it would be the same opinion as they never wanted me in the first place.
I took my phone from the bedside table called the company who offered me a work contract based on my qualifications.
My sister and me did the graduation is design for jwellery and ornaments but I have two degrees one for fashion designing also. And my sister took the credits of my ornamental tournaments.
My family is unaware of my fashion designing which I am glad as they would have not allowed me the unwanted twin to shine. I have won some tournaments in fashion designing under a pseudoname otherwise my parents would have found out and with those designs only I got the job offer from the famous company 'ORNA' in the city K.
I have not told my family about this because I am a guarantee for my sister's well being nad I think I have done enough. I can't live like this forever. Now I have to live and grow for myself.
I took my clothes and went to washroom took a shower careful of my sitches on the side of my stomach. Changed into a black hoodie and loose grey pants and blue sports shoes . Then I entered the ward and took my wallet and checked my documents inside and left the hospital after checking myself out. I took the taxi home and when I entered the house after putting the password which consisted my the birth time of my sister. The whole house my quiet as my frustration.
I might be overreacting but the pictures on the wall depicts it all as it has no space for me. It all contains the beautiful pictures of the family of five people and I don't think I am welcome here. Most of the times during these pictures times I was busy taking part in the competitions on the behalf of my sister in the persuasion of my family. I wanted to take part in my own name but the emotional blackmail and silent treatment was too much for my younger self but now I don't think I need any of their affection.
As when I needed it the most they choose to disregard my wishes and feelings and now I don't want any emotional entanglements with them.
I went to my room which is as bare as my emotional life. I took all the necessary documents making sure leaving nothing behind for them to track me back.
My family members don't even have my phone number which is absurd but this is what it is.
My family might have given me monetary satisfaction but this isn't what I needed and now I can earn it myself so I am leaving. I think I have paid up enough for this family which was never mine.
If they would have hugged me even once I would have happily even given away my heart for my sister but I think we can't fake emotions.
So I am breaking the minimal bond we have left and I will never look back.
The world is a beautiful place and I think there will be place for me to love happy for once because this family is making me question my own sanity .
I left the room not before leaving a note of them I informing me leaving the house as I am old enough to live on my own incase they file a complaint about my disappearance.
I left the house which gave my emotional setback for the last twenty three years of my life.
As I entered the flight which will take me to my new destination and new life . For the first time I don't feel stuck a d anxious because this is my own decision and the decision which I hope will give my the satisfaction I want.
I hope life will not let me down and will let me live the way I want. I took the medications
required after surgery and took a nap hoping the life will be best.
May. POV.Its been one month that I have landed in City K . The company 'ORNA' have provided me with staff quarters which are in a big buliding. Usually nobody lives in there but as I have no one to live with so I have got a big apartment to live in. If you want a bigger and fancier apartment then it's maintenance cost will be cut from your pay but I am living alone so I am happy with a one room apartment. My apartment consists on one big room with a queen sized bed, a washroom , a lobby and a balcony in which I have kept beautiful potted plants which gives fresh air whenever you go outside during morning. I have stopped taking pain medications as the wound is healed and now I can live properly. I can't take excess protein as my one kidney is doing the work for two and it can become enlarged so to keep myself healthy I only eat what is recommended by the doctor and avoid alcohol and coffee. I only drink juice and mineral water.I can't risk as I don't think anyone would give their or
May. POV.The Owner of the 'ORNO' company also has chain of hotels and has also invested in many other fields of work so it is no suprising for me that they were able to organise the party in such a lavish hotel. I guess it could cost thousands just for a fine cup of coffee. But it doesn't matter to me as I will get to eat free food. I am a foodie and I am proud of that. The doctor has told me that I can eat everything untill or unless it doesn't cause stain on my kidney. And as an Adult I think I can do it. When I entered the venue with the help of the taxi I booked I was nervous as hell as it was my first time socializing as my family never took me to any events as they always took my sister claiming that she needs to see the world even though she is sick but I guess they forgot about their healthy daughter.Sometimes I wonder that how can parents ruin a healthy child just to save a Sick child. As far as I know that parents are meant to love each and every kid equally but Not all p
May. POV .I guess it took me some time so Anaya came looking for me and when she saw me with a guy on me she was so terrified that she quickly pushed the boy over and kicked him in the nuts and said"You pervert."She quickly helped me up and asked "Are you okay? I think we should call the police."I quickly calmed her down and said"Anaya you misunderstood. He was asking for help when he passed out and fell one me and that's when you came. Quickly call the ambulance.""Oh!" Said Anaya and quickly called the emergency number . We were waiting when a handsome man in black tuxedo came running and when he saw the passed out man he quickly came towards he and picked him up and asked us"What happened here?"We gave him the information about the whole scenario and till the time I was explaining it to him Anaya came with a chair and asked the man to help the passed out man on the chair till the paramedics arrive.He told us that his name is Andrew and the passed out man is Alexander and w
May. POV.Next day I call the call from the company asking me to attend the important meeting as our company is launching a new product design even though I am proficient in Fashion but they do know about my excellent scores in Ornament and jwellery designing.I was free as I have already submitted the designs which they earlier asked for and I will get aid for extra work and I was free so I decided to go there.When I entered the room I saw all my colleagues who were discussing the ideas. We all greeted each other and I sat beside Anaya who works in PR department and she is an amazing hacker and develops the security system for the company .I think she is the most badass and her personality suits her work. Due to her no other company has ever been able to spread false rumours about our company she always keeps a check on the smooth develop of our company. You can say she is the perfect girl even when she has gone though so many Ordeals and always remain happy and doesn't take shit f
May. POV.After that day I started working on the designs required my the company. Every designer has their own trademark and luckily for me I never did that in my previous competitions which I won on my sister's behalf. Ironically me being the topper couldn't win the competition and he being not even able to win the classes still she could win the glory for the university.I think my sister knew about my emotions. There is no way she would have ignored it but I think she chose not to care as she got all the love and attention at the expense of others and it didn't matter to her that how many tears I have shed.That's why I am not close to my sister. I don't think that I have been talked to her because for me she is the cause of my sufferings but I never resented her for it as it is human nature but she could have shared a bit of love with me then everything would be the best but she smchose to be slefish and all the decisions which my family took is the sole reason I don't want to be
May. POV.After that encounter with my boss I have never seen him but somehow he reminds me of someone but I can't put a finger on it and now he has even started coming into my dreams which is absurd and so wrong. I guess it is because I have not really intereacted with the opposite sex and when they give me some attention so I start to swoon over them. But I think it is attraction. I never once in my life felt that way. I do have many boy Friends but they never gave me such kind of feeling and now that I am having different feeling it is making me ponder upon it .So to take my mind off those grey eyes I called Anaya ,Amanda and Stacy for a hangout and they all agreed. We decided to go on Saturday as we have off on Sunday. On Saturday after leaving for our work we quickly went to our homes. Amanda lives with her husband Amos as she is Newly married and Stacy lives with her parents and little brother. We dicided to reach at 'Onix' mall which is a famous mall in our city by 6:00 pm.
May. POV.Alexander hurriedly came towards me and looked shocked but there was a smile on his face looking at his friend's beliwered face. Andrew was holding his nose and thank God it didn't break otherwise I would have been so embarassed. I looked at him sadly and said"I am so sorry. I just left Anaya for a moment to drop off Amanda and when I cam back I saw Andrew leaning over Anaya so I thought that it was some pervert and I instinctively took the action. I am sorry.""It is okay. " Replied Andrew after removing his hand from the face and I saw that his nose was swelled up. "I think I should take you to see the doctor. That might be hurting." I said to him with concern."No . It is okay. I am happy that Anaya has a protective friend who can fight for her. "I smiled proudly at his comment and then Alexander said"Both of you girls are very protective of each other. Last time I took the hit and this time it is Andrew . I think next time we should watch out for our well being. " We
May.POV.The whole way to our Apartments I was thinking about Alexander's smile and Andrew's Happiness as it was evident in his face. I think Andrew likes Anaya but I can't pinpoint it as I am no expert but his behaviour towards her seems weird . I am no one judge. This is Anaya's call and I will let her decide. I will not interfere until or unless her hurts Anaya in any way. When we reached the Building I quickly opened the my side of the door and helped Anaya out before any of the boys could do. I looked at their beliwered expression. I looked at Alexander with a flushed face and said"Thank you Alex and Andrew for dropping us off. I am very thankful to you guys. I would like to invite you guys to our house some other day. Goodbye and have a safe journey. "And with that I left before anyone of them could say anything. I know my behaviour is bit weird but around Alexander my actions goes out of my way as if I want to be close to him . He gives me a sense of familiarity that I feel