Chapter Five
(Wilder POV)
I hate this feeling, it’s like I have no control over myself. My anxiety makes me ache to shift but I don’t allow myself to. For two days anytime I shift I would find myself at the edge of mine and Riverbend pack territory. I tell myself it is natural that I want to make sure someone that saved my pack members was okay but I can’t explain this empty feeling away.
I was happy yesterday when Sylvia came to visit, I couldn’t wait for her to meet Elena. Like with everyone Elena made fast friends with Sylvia. I just watched them banter back and forth not talking about anything really with satisfaction. I truly love her and watching her happy always made me happy. I kept glancing down at her stomach, anxious to see it grow with my pup. However, that wasn’t the only thing that I felt anxious about. It seemed like I kept glancing at the clock waiting on something. Then it came, Sylvia updated us on Spencer just before she went to leave and I felt my anxiety lessen. I have noticed Elena gets jealous anytime Spencer is mentioned and this was no different. She went to fill Sylvia in on what Spencer did. To my surprise instead of support, Sylvia shut her down. Elena looks so sad since the visit and I want to cheer her up so when Bradley called to say he found his mate I thought it would be the perfect opportunity to invite him, his mate and my sister over to celebrate and share the news of our pup.
Elena is excited again and planning the perfect dinner. I have come to the hospital to invite Paxton since he hasn’t left since she was admitted. The anxious feeling grows as I near her room and I hear voices from inside her room.
“I won’t go into details but after what he did and what happened to me I learned that I would have to save myself and that is what I did when I ripped out my fathers heart. The moon goddess gifts her children with mates but that doesn’t mean they are deserving of the one they got. I choose to believe that it is not me that is undeserving. It is him who is undeserving of me.”
Anger and shame bubbled up inside me as I knocked the supply cart over and stomped away. I didn’t save her. She is right but she went about it the wrong way. If I hadn’t been trying to convince her pack I was heartless I would never have allowed her to get hurt that way. How fucking dare her say I am undeserving of her. I am an Alpha, the Goddesses Alpha and she is just some little conniving girl trying to turn my friends against me. I know by the scents that it was at least Sylvia in that room. Elena was right when she voiced she thought Spencer was stealing my family.
“Whoa Wilder where are you going?”
“I was coming to find you. Your brother is bringing his mate over and we are going to have dinner at the pack house. I have an announcement as well.”
“What time? Spencer gets released today.”
“5:30”
“Sounds like a plan.”
I exit the hospital and go back to the pack house to help finish dinner. Elena is running around sitting up the table all flustered. Even flustered, she looks beautiful. Her blond hair in curlers, her sun dress fit perfectly over her body. I grab her as she goes to rush by.
“How did I get so lucky?”
She gets on her tiptoes and pecks my lips. “I’ll show you how lucky you are later if the dinner goes well.” She pulls away and runs up the stairs to finish getting ready.
Everyone has just finished eating. “If you will excuse me I have an announcement
I would like to make. First congratulations to Bradley, Christine seems amazing. Now on to my news, Elena stand up please.” I wait until she stands. “Not only am I lucky enough to be this woman's second chance mate but she is also carrying my pup.”
“Wow. My little brother is going to be a father. You're so young.” Trying to sound enthusiastic but I can sense the reluctance in Olivia’s voice. I wrap my arms around Elena. My sister's weird enthusiasm is bothering me. As if sensing my mood Olivia comes around and hugs us both.
After everyone comes up and congratulates us Elena excuses herself stating she’s tired.
“Well I am going to go too. Spencers been alone since we got home.”
“Spencer? Who is Spencer? Is that your mate Paxton?” My nails elongate digging into my fist at the question. I notice Bradley looking uneasily at Paxton.
Paxton starts to laugh. “No Spencer isn’t my mate. The thought actually is kind of gross.” My fists relax. “No, not my mate but she is important.”
“I would say so, she saved my mate and my pup.” Christian wraps his arms around my sister.
“Well then I want to meet her.”
“I'll let her know we are on our way then.”
“Yea we will all go.” I comment. I want to make sure she can’t turn any more people against me and Elena.
By the time we leave Paxtons I'm beyond irritated.. What did Christine mean Spencer's not a witch? Everyone ignored my questions through the mind link. Anyone can use a potion but Christine was right only a witch can use a potion on an alpha due to our natural strength and abilities. When Trey returns from his mission hunting down the rogues I'll get my answers from him.
“Now I know why Elena is feeling anxious about not being marked.” Christina attempts to whisper to Olivia. Was Elena insecure about being marked?“Spencer is gorgeous isn't she?”“Hell gorgeous doesn't describe it. Those curves, her long black hair and those got to be the eyes of the goddess. If I wasn't marked even I'd be all over that.” Bradley lets out a low growl at Christine's words and the girls just laugh.
I stay silent as if I didn't hear anything said but in my mind I picture her. Her skin is paler than most wolves but then again she doesn't have one. Her long slender legs she does not need to wear heels as she's at least 57. She never shows them off though not even in these hotter days of the summer. She never wears makeup she doesn't need too. Her bottom lip is full while her top lip is thinner. She wears her black hair loose around her as it cascades down to her waist. Her large honey colored eyes are surrounded by thick long lashes. Despite myself I have to admit that she is a rare beauty and by the time I reach my room I am painfully hard with the image of her in my mind.“Finally coming to bed?” I am snapped from my thoughts as Elena's voice comes from the bed. I begin to feel ashamed of my thoughts as I look down at her. “Is that for me?” She looks down at my erection as I start to discard my pants.“Who else would it be for?” The words feel thick in my mouth.
“I don't know, you just came back from Paxton's.” She looks at her hands, “I went down to look for you and one of the kitchen Omegas told me where you went.”
Christine's words play in my mind and the guilt settles in my gut even more. “I just don't want her spreading more lies. Now let me show you how much I have missed you.”I step toward her and grab her by the ankles pulling her further down the bed. A growl and appreciation comes from my throat as the nightgown she wears rides up and I see that she doesn't have on any panties. I waste no time before I lean down and start licking between her folds. Within seconds she is moaning and writhing beneath me. I slide two fingers into her wetness and her hole welcomes them without issue accommodating them easily. I continue to lick and suck on her clit as I pump my fingers in-and-out of her until she reaches climax. I kiss my way up her stomach removing her nightgown as I go. I take some time and suck her hard nipple in my mouth. When she begins to rock her pelvis toward me I release her nipple and go to kiss her. I push down the moment of disappointment I feel when I look up into her face and I don't see those honey colored eyes. I begin to kiss her on her lips as I slowly slide myself into her. I force my body to make slow measured strokes in and out of her as that is her preference. I can feel her quickly clenching around me and know that she is close. I fight to keep my eyes open as every time they close it's not her that I am picturing. I feel myself becoming closer and I kiss my way down to her neck. Not for the first time I noticed how her head moved to the side giving me better access. I pull away momentarily to look at her eyes and see a wanting there that I had not noticed before. I begin to kiss again in the area where her shoulder and her neck meet as I continue to pump in-and-out of her seeking my release. Just before I find it I close my eyes and that face with those honey colored eyes filters in. My teeth extend and I bite in marking her. She screams out her release as I growl out mine retracting my teeth and licking the mark closed as the sound of a painful scream fills my mind. I pull out of her and she lets out a moan slightly. I pull her close to me light sparks due to our new bond meeting where our skin does. Not long after we both drift off to sleep guilt building in my chest.
Chapter Six (Olivia POV) I just lay Erik down when I begin to hear it, there is a calling in my mind almost like a mind link but it is faint. I gasp out at the voice that I hear. “What’s wrong darling?” Christian wraps his arms around my waist. “I think…I think I heard my grandma Lily.” “But I thought she died?” “She did.” I respond but then I hear it again, my grandmother's voice and a tear comes to my eye. ‘Go to her.’ “Maybe you’re just missing her.” “No, she says to go to her.” “Her?”
Chapter Seven (Spencer POV) “Freedom Pen, freedom.” The fight leaves me at Izaiah’s words in my ear. How could I have lost sight of the ultimate goal. I allow him to lead me toward the clearing in the woods. He sits down amongst the tall grass pulling me down to sit with him. “That was him wasn’t it?” I stop running my hands through the grass and look at Izaiah. “Yes.” “What happened Pen. He didn’t seem to recognize you as his mate which means he can’t have rejected you.” “He knows I’m not 18 yet.” “Does he know you’re his mate, does he know what you are?” “Know what I am, no, know that I am h
Chapter Eight (Wilder POV) Sitting next to Elena in her hospital bed an ache begins in my chest causing the worry for our unborn pup to grow. The bleeding has stopped, a nurse performed an ultrasound and we are just waiting on Dr. Alex to come in with the results of the tests and ultrasound. Zander starts to whine in my mind in pain and my anxiety increases. ‘What’s wrong? Is it the pup?’ ‘No not the pup. It’s something else. Something I can’t explain but it hurts.’ The ache in my chest increases as does Zander’s whimpering. I feel as he pulls back further into my mind and the whining lessens but not the ache in my chest. I look over to Elena and see the worry in her eyes. “Whatever happens
Chapter Nine(Elena POV)“Dear Goddess, she's half vampire Livie. What do we even know about Vampires let alone werewolf vampire hybrids.”“I’ve done my research have you?”“I was up most of the night. So far what I know isn’t good. Some High Lord of a clan of Vampires by the name Sanderson picked a fight with werewolves he couldn’t win, wanting to be the master of the supernatural world. It didn’t end well; now vampires are mostly extinct.”“So history that is all you learned so far?” Olivia lets out a laugh.“Well I do have a pack to run and a Luna ceremony in a couple of da
Chapter Ten(Wilder POV)The scent of blood has me jerking awake and I feel myself shift back to my human form. I look around in a daze and realize I am on Paxton’s porch. As I look around my eyes zero in at the source of the blood. Elena is lying unconscious on the ground, blood coming from her head. Spencer is approaching and about to reach her. A growl erupts from me in warning as I rush forward and shove Spencer as far away from Elena as I can, sending her flying about 10 feet into a tree trunk. She lays there unmoving as I pick up Elena and rush to the pack hospital. How could this happen, why was I even there?I got Elena to the hospital and they put her in a room. Dr. Alex arrives and begins to run some tests. I am really starting to hate this place. The doctor finally enters
Chapter Eleven(Spencer POV)I pull my knees closer into my chest hugging them closely as I can hear people moving around me. Someone grasps my wrist and I try to jerk it away but a warm cup is pressed into my palm. I relax slightly and wrap both hands around the cup drawing it in closer. The smell of the coffee whiffs toward my nose and the slight smell of cinnamon mixed in it brings tears to my eyes. This used to be my favorite thing to drink, my favorite smell now it is ruined by him.His rejection rings in my ears and I press the coffee cup to my lips and take an attentive sip. The taste of the coffee mixed with the sweetness of the vanilla and cinnamon make a whimper leave my lips. I don’t know how long I have sat on this couch wrapped in a blanket staring at
Chapter Twelve(WIlder POV)Darkness surrounds me. There is no beautiful forest or waterfall. I’m not accompanied by Zander. I feel completely alone. I just wander around the darkness and reflect. There were signs and I ignored them, like the first time I saw her I was drawn to her. Though I thought it was because she was gorgeous. Then there was the pain I felt from hurting her and the nightmares that haunted me. The feeling of being complete when I am near her. I thought it was about being near Olivia but the feeling went away the night I arrived after she left. I was constantly watching her even when I didn’t realize it, looking for her, wanting to be near her and being worried about her.I sink to my knees not having the energy to go any further. I had completely ignored e
Chapter Thirteen(Spencer POV) I groan as I stretch getting up from my spot under the tree. I am really beginning to regret my decision to dump my vehicle two days ago but I didn’t want to take the chance that an angry Alpha would try to follow me. Not that I really think Wilder cared I accepted and was gone but why take the chance. All I had taken with me was a backpack with some clothes and some money obviously not enough as now that I have a wolf I tend to need to eat more. I had promised my friends in my letter that I would reach out when I found somewhere and I would. For the three days since I left I have hunted when I could, showered at truck stops, ate what cheap food I could find and since I no longer had my car to sleep in, I slept wherever I could. I wished that I could shift into Lilly to cover more ground bu