I am so sorry I really am trying and appreciate all the support. I am just really struggling these last few months mentally. I am getting help and hopefully with my right therapy and medication I will feel like me again. Please if anyone needs help with their mental health they are not alone reach out for help.
Chapter Fifty(Spencer POV) “Are sure about this Spencer?” Astrd’s questioned timidly with a hit of defeat. She asked but she already knew my answer. We had been talking around in circles for the last 45 minutes. “Yes.” I state confidently. “And not a word to those not included in our circle.” “Anyone?” I knew what she meant by that question and unease settled in my gut. “Anyone. Now go.” She wraps her arms around me, squeezing tightly and kissing my cheek. “Have Wilder come in as well.” She looks at me with unease then just nods her head curtly and walks out the door. I strip down and lay on the bed naked my legs spread open for when he comes in. I begin to slowly stroke myself as I can smell his scent becoming stronger as he approaches the door. He stands there for a few moments not doing anything. A quiet knock echoes through the room and I wait patiently as the door slowly opens. “Spencer please…” Wilders words are caught in his throat as his eyes finally land on me. “Are
Chapter Fifty One(Wilder POV) ‘Alpha we have a problem!’ Trey echoes through my mind. I continue to stare at the ceiling of my room in the pack house like I have been for the last hours since she left me hard and frustrated. I couldn’t even really be mad, not truly when I knew my own stupidity had caused this new rift between us. It seemed like no matter what I did I always made things worse between us. I had spent time pounding on her door calling out to her but when it became clear she wouldn’t open I tried to mindlink her. But it was like it was just reaching an empty void. The feeling had Zander pacing and whining in my head. After returning to the pack house and taking a cold shower I have been here laying waiting for sleep to take me, unsuccessfully. ‘What's wrong?’ ‘There was an attack at the border of the territory. Alpha Ezekiel wants all of the Alpha’s and Beta’s in his office within an hour.’'Let them know I will be there shortly!‘Yes Alpha.'Zander puffs out his c
Chapter Fifty Two (Spencer POV) I try as hard as I can to ignore this tightening in my chest with every mile that I put between me and the pack land. This is the destiny that I have chosen for myself. Yet I don’t understand that with Lily gone why I still feel drawn to that place, to those people. I approach the small dilapidated building, I had been running for two days and I was exhausted. As I swung open the door I nearly collapsed in the effort feeling utterly exhausted. “I see you made it sister. Where’s Athena?” My brother’s question may seem odd to those around him. The concern in his voice is almost giving him away to those around him but I knew the truth. “We were almost detained on the border. We had to fight our way out. Needless to say I succeeded and she did not.” “Very well.” My brother’s voice holding back unsaid hurt as clutched the female vampire closer to his side. My brother may feel something for Athena but he was an evil man who would cast her aside for h
Chapter Fifty Three(Wilder POV)I watch as the water turns pink tinged with blood circles the drain of the shower. Training has become more brutal and necessarily so in the last month. Every pack is training together and separately for war. Even the packs that have regained their lands have not left. There is safety in numbers and danger in knowledge. One thing that has kept the Hollow Pack safe along with those that seek sanctuary here is that our enemy did not have knowledge of our whereabouts. That all changed when Spencer betrayed us. I feel the anger bubbling up in my chest at the thought. I need to calm down, I lost control earlier and a simple sparring match turned brutal and now I have a warrior at the clinic I need to apologize to and a Beta to thank for intervening.Once I wash quickly and dry I dress comfortably. I mind link Trey to let him know that I was going to head to the pack clinic then will meet him at the pack park. I am about to open the door to the clinic when
Chapter Fifty Four (Athena POV) I am surprised when I am escorted out of the pack clinic to the pack house. My chest still hurts and the images of that night still play through my head when it is dark outside and the silence sits in. I will never tell him, but the moments when Alpha Jackson is with me I feel calm, my agony of feeling the knife dig into my flesh less, the fear of impending death gone. The strange wolves escorting me to the pack house have me on edge. I am more fearful than I was before. I wonder why I couldn’t have made it out with Spencer as planned. I have to hope that she has been able to manage on her own. The conference doors swing open and my eyes scan the wolves that are either sitting in a chair or pacing around before they fall on a pair of very familiar eyes. “Brother….” My voice trails off as I see the blonde curly hair of a small little girl in his arms. I clutch my chest and begin to sob. I feel that I am being gently lifted up and I know by the
Chapter Fifty Five(Wilder POV) Before I can react to what I am seeing my bedroom door bursts open and several people run into my room. Their eyes snap between my naked form and the naked woman on the bed becoming angry by the second. Their faces turn down right murderous when Christina jumps off the bed and runs to me hiding behind me with her arms wrapped around my waist. “Please baby don’t let them hurt me.” A roar leaves my mouth as I rip myself away from her grasp and spin around my hands finding their way to her neck and I lift her off the ground. “Why?” I scream in her face. She’s gasping for air and clawing at my arms but my grip remains tight. “Your whore can’t talk if she can’t breathe.” The callousness I hear in Luna Astrid's voice is something I have never heard from her before. She has always spoken gently even in times of tension, the power and anger radiating off her is alarming. I toss Christina away from me just as a pair of shorts are thrown at me and I don’t miss
Chapter Fifty Six(Spencer POV) It’s been a week since that scream ripped from my lungs, the sudden onset of pain too painful to hold in. I had maneuvered through the previous pain willing myself not to give anything away but that went out the window a week ago. My grandfather hasn’t given me a moment alone since then. I expect him to grill me and try to find out what happened even though I suspect that he knows. However, he seemed pleased when I asked to bump up my union ceremony with the King. So tomorrow I will finish this union and with a new plan in mind I head down to the dining hall. There are several members already in the dining hall. I really have to fight a grimace when I see Landery seated at the head of the table with Mira at his side. It turns out that Landery was supposed to be my chosen but at the last second changed his mind and took Mira as his chosen, even though they hadn’t completed the bonding. It seemed odd to me since she had always followed my grandfather
Chapter Fifty Seven(Wilder POV) I wake up in a tent lit only by a lantern with pain working its way through my body. I feel my back breaking and a scream leaves my throat. I see three she wolves rush into the room. I instantly recognize Luna Astrid, Athena and the pack doctor. Another snap in my femur has me screaming, “What’s happening to me?” “You need to quit fighting it.” Astrid states. My knee cap displaces and I curl up in a ball. “Fighting what?” “You're shifting. First time in a long time.” Astrid’s words make sense as I haven’t felt pain like this since my first shift. My eyes find Athena who has tears in hers. “What are you doing here?” “Helping.” She replies before coming to before biting her wrist and placing it to my mouth. “Drink, I'm a royal, it will help with the pain.” I merely look at her. “Do it!” Astrid shouts as another wave of pain hits me. I do as instructed and latch my mouth to her wrist and take a drink of her blood and the pain subsides by half. I t