Still Not In Love?

DIANA'S POV

Stella opened the blinds of the windows, letting light rays into the room in a bid to wake me up but I didn't respond to her, not because I didn't want to but because I wasn't strong enough to talk just yet. Louis really did a good one on me last night. 

She decided to remove my blanket and was damn surprised to see bloodstains on the blanket and my nighties. She screamed loudly and attempted to flee the room before I finally spoke up. 

"Stella!" I called out as I tried to sit up but she quickly rushed back to support me.

"What happened My Princess? Did someone hurt you?" Stella asked worriedly. 

"I'm fine, just help me wash up for now," I ordered, suddenly irritated by the stains all over me. 

"What?...Ok, my Princess." Stella replied helplessly as she supported me to stand on my feet. Blood smeared my thigh, dripping out from my womanhood, making Stella understand what had happened to me.

"Did someone rape you?" Stella asked curiously but I didn't give any response. 

"You have to tell me what happened my Princess since I would be the one to answer to the King about your safety," Stella suggested worriedly.

"Can you just get me out of this mess first, I don't have the strength to talk for now." I scolded and Stella had no other choice but to help me to the bathroom and wash me up. 

After changing into a comfortable short milk-colored gown, I retired to my bed who's sheets had also been changed and all through the day Stella watched me toss and turn painfully on my bed without even being able to eat anything and it hurt her not being able to do anything to relieve my pain. 

It was only later in the evening that my pain lessened and I was able to wake up and request food. Stella prepared my favorite food which was Roasted chicken thighs with brown salsa verde.

I sat on a couch in my living room and ordered her to move the food from the dining room to the living room since the couch was more cushy and comfy than the chairs. 

Although I was hungry and was slightly relieved from my pains, I still couldn't eat much as I wasn't in the right frame of mind. 

"Do you still not want to talk about it?" Stella asked calmly.

I hesitated before giving a reply. "Get me my favorite snacks, then I will tell you about it," I replied. 

Stella knew exactly what I wanted and after packing the plate of food in front of me, she left the room only to return in a lapse of five minutes with a plate of Kanelbulle and a cup of oat milk latte. 

Stella stared at me as I had the first bite of my Kanelbulle and sipped on my latte. 

Stella was tall and skinny with a warm beige undertone skin color which was already wrinkling as she was in her early 40s. 

Her long black hair was the only thing we shared in common as her sweet violet eye color was different from mine but she has a special place in my heart since she was always there for me as a kid. 

Stella was like a mom I never had. She was the most caring person I've ever known and she always stopped at nothing to make sure I was happy.

"Do you also think I'm a dumbass princess?" I finally asked.

"I don't know what you might think about yourself but I must say, you're the most wonderful person I've ever known," Stella reassured me, causing me to chuckle sadly. 

"Of course, you would say that, but in reality, I'm just the dumbass princess like Samantha always called me but I'm really okay with that," I smirked.

"But that does not justify you going through so much pain," Stella said. 

"I wasn't raped. I willfully gave myself to him." I announced, taking another sip off my latte.

"Was it the Knight?" Stella asked and I nodded in affirmation.

I took my time to explain what transpired between us last night and she seemed very angry about it.

"Oh, God! You should never have done that, no man would ever want to miss that chance...if he were rude to you, you should have reported him not fallen for him. You acted too cheap for him." Stella said, expressing her anger and disdain.

"NEVER USE THAT WORD FOR ME AGAIN." I lashed out. "You know how much I hate that word. Get out of my room now." I added in so much anger.

"I'm sorry my Princ..." 

"Just get out." I interrupted rudely, forcing Stella to leave the room for me.

I hated being referred to as 'Cheap' but hearing it from Stella now, I knew she was right. I shouldn't have acted so cheaply and it was so unlike me. 

I've been having a serious crush on Prince Kurt for years but never once have I been sexually attracted to him. Why was he different when he was just a mere knight? What was that force that always pushed me subconsciously to him? So many questions but no answers. 

I was glad that I was halfway into finishing my snack by the time she annoyed me and made me lose my appetite. If not, that would have been a total waste of a precious snack.

At some point I became tense and I needed to relieve myself so I left the living room for the washroom in my bedroom.  

It took me only a few minutes to return to the living room but when I returned, I met a lot of missed calls on my phone. 

Just as I picked up the phone, the call came in again. 

"Where the hell have you been and not answering my call?" Louis lashed angrily at me as soon as I answered the call.

"I-I..." I stuttered before I was rudely interrupted by him.

"I told you to come out of the Chambers at least once a day but why the hell have you not been out for the whole day?" He asked again. 

"I wasn't feeling..." 

"Just get yourself out of that damned room so that the King stops stressing me out." He lashed out.

"Do you even know how I felt all through the day...after last night?" I managed to ask before he ended the call without giving me a reply. 

I was devastated by Louis' harsh words and my head hurts just thinking about it. 

"Is it possible he still doesn't love me?" I wondered as I thought about the night we spent together. 

No one has ever spoken so harshly to me in my life, not even my father but because I was so in love with him, I couldn't report him.

Though I didn't want to step outside of the comfort of my room for anything, I still had to go out to the passage of my Chambers and receive fresh air from the garden, at least I would appear in front of the cameras to reassure him and Dad. 

I spent just a few minutes in the garden before walking back into my Chambers to rest for the day. I made up her mind to confront Louis the next day if he still doesn't talk to me about last night.